A.N.: Hey everyone! I know I know, it's been a while but I'm back. I plan to be very fully committed with this story. Hope you like it! I don't own Big Time Rush, but I do own the storyline. Hope you like it!
Chapter 1
Sarah sighed as she ran her fingers through her hair, looking at the latest Scuttlebutter feed. It looked exactly the same as it did when she last checked...the latest updates usually from Hannah Ashley, a cheerleader and one of the snarky, mean snobs in her school. She knew that she should just log off and go to bed, forgetting everything, but something was stopping her.
Well, it wasn't something, it was someone. Actually make that four someones. Sarah traced a finger down the picture frame of her, James, Carlos, Kendall, and Logan, sitting on her bedside table and sighed. She knew that the boys would be proud of her no matter what and would support her through everything, but she still felt like she needed to please them and didn't do enough. None of them had a clue as to what was going on, although James was getting a little suspicious when he would call and hear Sarah talking in hushed whispers. She knew that they wouldn't want her to get sucked into the drama any more than normal.
Too late, guys.
"They must've finished their dinner," Sarah muttered to herself when her phone lit up and James's pic was shown on the Caller ID. It was about 11 PM in Minnesota, which meant it was almost eight in L.A. Carlos and Logan would probably be arguing about something meaningless and then having a slap fight over it while Kendall tried to break them up. Sarah smiled at the thought and picked up her phone. "Hello?"
"Sarah, hey!" James's voice spoke from the other line. "I was getting nervous there for a second. How've you been?"
Like a piece of shit. "I'm fine James," Sarah answered instead. "How's L.A.?"
"Good," James replied, "I miss you though. What are you doing up, anyway?"
"Uh," Sarah bit her lip, thinking quickly of a lie. "Couldn't sleep. Insomnia." She mentally slapped herself. That was pathetic.
"Really?" James seemed surprised. "You never have insomnia."
"It's no big deal. I'm fine."
"No you're not."
Sarah clenched her jaw and looked about ready to punch the phone. She took a quiet deep breath, but before she could speak, she heard another voice on the other line.
"I wanna talk to her!"
Sarah heard someone get lightly pushed and chuckled. "What's going on?"
"Hang on, Carlos wants to talk to you," James explained.
A minute later, Carlos's voice filled the phone, "What's up chica!"
Sarah smiled, "How's L.A. Carlos? Staying out of trouble?"
"Psh, yeah right," Carlos scoffed. "How's Minnesota?"
"It's...fine," Sarah lied. "You know, same old. How are your plans to get the Jennifers going?"
"Uh...not so good," There was a slight pause as Sarah heard mumbling from the other end. "Alright, alright. Hang on, Kendall wants to talk to you."
Sarah smiled and listened as the phone was shifted once again.
"Hey kiddo," Kendall started. "You feeling alright? Insomnia?"
Sarah inaudibly sighed, "Yeah. I'm fine. It's really nothing to worry about."
"You sure? Cause we're all kind of already worried about you."
"I'm sure. Thanks for caring, but it's not really a big deal."
"Suit yourself. Alright, I'm gonna pass this on to Logan now."
Logan's voice spoke from the other line, "What's up Bubbles?"
Sarah smiled. If it was one other Big Time Rush member she was closest to, other than James, it'd be Logan. The two of them were in too close proximity to ever have feelings for each other however, as well as with Sarah and Kendall or Carlos. Her relationship with the guys was just like Katie's, surrogate brother types. Sarah respected the relationships the three boys had and gave out advice to help them with their love lives.
"Hey Logan," Sarah jumped slightly when she heard footsteps padding across the carpet. She let out an inaudible sigh of relief when she heard her mother go in the bathroom and close the door. "What's up?"
"Not much, just staying out of trouble and keeping these guys in line," Logan chuckled when he heard two loud "HEYS!" coming from his end. "Are you sure you're okay?"
"I'm fine," Sarah groaned. "Why does everyone keep asking me that?"
"Because this is the first we've ever seen you have insomnia. Or actually noticed it. And James was actually getting kind of suspicious. So what's up?"
Sarah sighed, "Look Logan, there's really nothing to be worried about. I promise."
"Are you sure?" Logan pressed. "You know you can tell any of us anything."
"I know and if there was something, I'd tell you. But I'm fine. It-" Sarah caught herself, fearing she was about to reveal something she shouldn't.
"What?" Logan asked.
"Nothing, I'm fine," Sarah fake yawned. "I'm actually getting tired now, so I'll talk to you later. Goodnight."
"Night," Logan wished before they both hung up. Sarah sighed as she ran a hand through her hair. She was planning this escape for months. Her mom had helped her, even though she didn't like the idea of her daughter simply having to run away from her problems. At least now, her dad wouldn't have to have a say in her decisions anymore. He was removed of that privilege when he decided to run off and marry someone fifteen years younger.
"I just hope no one follows me out," Sarah muttered to herself before she crawled under her covers and flicked the switch off.
Brooke stood at the bottom of the stairs the next morning at 10. She was brushing off some excess dust on her coat when Sarah came up to her. She looked up and looked over to her.
"Ready to go?" Brooke asked.
"Yep," Sarah walked over and hugged her mother. "Remember don't tell James or any of them about this."
"Okay. But sweetie, I want you to tell them eventually, okay?" Brooke asked. "I understand if it's in your own time, but they deserve to know. Especially James."
Sarah nodded. "Let's go." She grabbed her suitcase and walked out the door.
A/N: Well, what's you guys think? Will the boys be able to help her heal? Who exactly does she mean by "no one" and do you think they will actually follow her out? And before you suspect anything, no Sarah will not have a romantic subplot with Kendall, Carlos and Logan. It's pure sibling love. Enjoy!
