AN: I hope I do the characters (All of who are owned by Stephanie Meyer) Justice
Please let me know what you think, good or bad. I should have the whole story up soon.
This is set during New Moon when Jacob isn't talking to Bella before she goes cliff diving, but after the motorbikes (time line may be outta whack sorry.)
A Very Selfish Vampire
Edwards Decision
EPOV
I tried to stay away from Bella. I knew it was best for her, but the minutes away from her had become centuries. I couldn't stay away, so I convinced myself that one glimpse would sustain me, and I promised myself I would stay away forever after that, that I would let my Bella have the normal human life I had promised her when I left. I decided I would let myself see her one last time.
I had forgotten to account for Alice seeing my decision and the effects of it. Buzz buzz buzz, the little phone in my pocket vibrated. Alice had seen as soon as I had made the decision. I wasn't going to answer I knew what she would say without reading her mind though I could have if I really wanted to. She would dissuade me from going back to Forks, as if I hadn't tried enough times. However essentially I was a selfish creature. Besides I wouldn't let her see me, wouldn't grovel and beg for her forgiveness as I would like to do, even if it meant filling the hole that Bella's absence had formed in my chest when she kept my heart with her. No I would keep my promise to her, a normal happy human life with no reminders even if I my self needed a reminder.
BPOV
Jake still refused to return my calls and now I had no relief from the hole in my center. I had thought my heart was gone and my chest was left hollow. That he and the rest of them had taken my heart to wherever they had gone, probably Alaska. But perhaps there was a small piece left, that was the only way to explain the broken hearted feeling where my hole undisturbed heart had been before Jacob and … Edward had interfered. If not for Charlie I would have abandoned my monotonous routine long ago.
EPOV
I had a long way to go from the crawl space where I had been hiding out in Brazil after following a false trail for Victoria to reach Forks. Plus it would be wise of me to feed before I reached the town as well as the fact I would probably pass through several densely populated cities. It would take several days, but it would be worth it, and perhaps after seeing her I could manage a visit to my family.
