A/N - This is my first Sailor Moon Fanfic and only my second Fanfic written. I hope you guys enjoy this and let me know if I should keep going.
Chapter 1
She needed the resurrection of her planet, Kinmoku, to take longer than the few months it took to revive the desecrated kingdom. The lush forest flourished over the planet and the futuristic city was rebuilt. Many large buildings 10's of stories high holding apartments sprouted all throughout the city, with well-sized family homes surrounding them. The city was beautiful and even better than before Chaos. With Kinmoku thriving it was no longer a well-needed distraction and she could no longer keep her mind clear. Keep her thoughts from wandering on their own accord to a place she couldn't bare to reminisce in. A world where a person she was never suppose to be, met a person she was never meant to encounter, and fell in love. Funny how easily destiny can change. Nothing is ever set in stone. What was supposed to be may never happen, and what was never a possibility is now the only reality known. Yet still here she was… longing for a home that was never hers… but it was his. It was Seiya's, and the other Starlights would never let her forget it…
Healer's cold words echoed through her head, "You are not Seiya! You have no reason to return to that stupid planet. We are finally home and all you can think about is that naive crybaby. She would never accept you Fighter. Damn she wouldn't even accept Seiya."
"Enough." Maker intervened before the conversation got out of hand once again. Healer huffed and plopped down on a chair near by folding her arms over her chest. Maker placed a hand on Fighter's shoulder. "This is for the best you know." Fighter shook her head. "She is where she belongs. This is where you belong. She's living out her destiny with the man she was meant to be with. You need to do the same."
"What makes you think I want to be with a man now?" Fighter's words were bitter and everyone could taste it.
"Because you are Sailor Star Fighter one of the sacred shooting stars, the Starlights and most importantly… YOU ARE A WOMAN!!" Healer just couldn't keep her mouth shut.
Fighter's hand lunged back for the punch that was going to land Healer a black eye, but Maker caught it in the act and pleaded. "Please don't allow yourself to continue hurting this way. There's no reason for you to keep doing this to yourself. Just forget her. You are not Seiya. He was an imitation of life used to maneuver through a distant world to complete the mission of finding our Princess. The mission is complete and that is all over now. It is time to go back to who we really are."
"And who is that? Who we were on Earth is no different than who we are now. I guess you are trying to tell me that Yaten and Taiki never existed as well, and everything that we felt on that planet was no better than having a dream while awake. Yet you two try to convince me that I've been asleep all this time and only now I have awakened. It is you that is asleep. What happened there was important. The battles we fought with them. The time we spent. Was there nothing of your former lives you miss?" They stared at her with blank expression. Letting out an exasperated sigh she stormed out of the room slamming the door behind her. The clicking of her heels could be heard all throughout the palace.
Healer looked over at Maker in a sing-sung voice taunted. "Well didn't you just make everything sunshine and rainbows again? Explaining things to her doesn't do anything. There's nothing we say to her she doesn't already know and nothing changes. All she does is become a bitch and storm off. She chooses to feel this way."
"So why don't we give it up?" Maker shot back at the much shorter Starlight who simply looked away without making a reply. "That's what I thought."
As Fighter reached her room she swung open the door and quickly shut it behind her. As she glanced over her room she sighed in relief. Against the other Starlights objections she modeled her newly built room after the Three Lights living space. It opened into a company room for entertaining visitors. Lavished with a couple of blue couches, a few stools, a table, and some abstract art hanging on the wall. One wall held a few guitars with a drum set in the corner and a piano not far from it. One thing that did not leave her from life on the rural planet was the music. Their musical talent wasn't some trick or disguise, the talent and passion was always real. A room to the side of the entertaining area lead to just a simple bedroom with a bed, a bathroom, and an entire wall made of glass leading to an enclosed balcony that looked out over the newly resurrected city. The bedroom was always shut and locked. Fighter allowed no one to enter and the one way mirrored windows that lined her balcony allowed no one to see in from outside. The room held a secret that she wanted no one to see. Her soul slept in that room and only there did she find it waiting for her.
Walking through the living area she slid her key into the bedroom door and slipped into her haven. On all three walls that weren't glass there were pictures sketched in charcoal and paintings. Color sketches, oil paints, watercolors, every piece a work of art, and every one being of one or two people… Usagi and Seiya.
She launched herself gracefully onto her spacious bed and gazed at the ceiling fan hanging just below one of the many circular fluorescent lights that lit the room. As she lay there allowing herself to be lost in the moment found herself transforming. There, in the only room it could happen… Seiya lay in his bed watching the hypnotic way the blades cut through the light. Once again finding himself melting away from this world that he doesn't exist. This world that was cold and empty… without 'her' shine everything was oblivion.
"Here I go again Odango." He felt himself tearing up as he spoke to a woman who was not there. "If only you knew what has become of me. Would you feel different now? While I was busy I was able to shut you out, but now I have no distractions. You are haunting me once more. Do you miss me now that I am gone, or just forgotten me? The spell that you have enchanted me with that not even distance has diluted is a painful curse that I won't let go. I can't sleep without you cascading through my mind like a dream fairy with your white wings that fly you just out of my reach. I miss you Odango." He sighed and allowed himself to melt deeper into his bed.
As he drifted asleep something deep in the back of his head stirred. It was a sweet voice not much more than a whisper called from so far away but could be felt on his neck making him shiver. "Seiya…"
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Usagi jolted awake with a cry. She woke to find herself nose to nose with vivid red eyes. She catapulted the black feline across the room. "Luna! What are you doing? You scared the hell out of me."
"You were calling his name." She scowled the young blond girl. "Usagi, are you still dreaming of Seiya?"
Usagi's body slumped at the mention of his name. "It's not like dreaming Luna. It's like he's reaching out to me in my sleep. I can't explain it. It had stopped for a few months, but in the last couple of weeks it has started again. I can't control it." She curled up her legs to her hugging her knees.
"Usagi-chan, he is not Seiya. SHE is Sailor Star Fighter from a planet outside our solar system. These dreams are all in your mind. I'm sure the Starlights have gotten on with their lives. You need to get on with yours. Mamoru is whom you love and are meant to be with. Your everlasting love that has survived millennia is no comparison to a schoolboy's crushes and conquest. Mere infatuation does not over rule true love. You know that, right Usagi-chan? Aren't you happy?" Luna's concern could be heard in her final question.
Usagi rolled the question in her mind until she could taste the distain for it in her mouth. 'Am I happy?' she pondered, 'May-be I'm not, but how can I not be happy? I am doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. My destiny has fallen into play and I am on the right path… right? Why do I not feel happy? Something is wrong. My mind, heart, and soul are wrong. I am happy… I have to be…'
"Usagi!" Luna's voice once again brought her back to reality.
Through a well-forced smile she answered. "Yes, I'm happy. I just miss the Starlights… Three Lights… whoever they are… I miss them. I hate losing anyone and they are gone. That's all." She slid back under her covers with Luna close by. As she drifted back to sleep she assured herself. 'I am happy, I just miss him… I mean… them.'
A/N - Well.... what do you think?
