The Doctor held her hand and looked at her in the eyes while the TARDIS faded away with his other self and Donna inside it. She returned the look and then let go of him. She felt guilty somehow, she felt she had to love him, this version. But she still thought of the other Doctor, the one she knew entirely, the alien one. She still had feelings for him and that made her feel guilty because she thought she had to love this double. But they were the same weren't they? So it wasn't completely wrong what she was feeling. She was confused and didn't know what this Doctor was thinking, or course, so she went to sit down on top of a rock near the sea.
He watched her move away from him and felt the chill air hitting his face, his body. Now his temperature had lowered due to his single heart, and that wasn't helping at all. He didn't know what to do or say now. He was stuck in this universe, with only one life and nothing else but Rose, a part of him was happy about that but the fear was so strong that his human feelings were a mess right now and he had to admit that he was very fragile and emotional. The very subtle thing that happened he would have a heart attack or start crying or something.
He decided to sit down where he was and wait. He wanted to be with her, but she seemed to want the opposite and he was not going to be the one who did something she didn't want to happened.
Jackie watched them sitting apart and felt sad for them. She knew they loved each other and this was going to be a difficult road to walk but she was sure they were going to make it. She was determined to help them, it was obvious they wanted to be together, kissing in each others arms and loving each other but they were to shy and proud and right now a mess to admit it, or do something about it. Even if things got awkward she thought it was the best way, it wouldn't be a harm for them to be close a little.
The Doctor was still sitting down when he felt it. The connection with the TARDIS broke and he couldn't feel her anymore. And because he was so found of her and he had lost a lot of thing in so little time he screamed the anger out. Rose shriek from fear. She had never in her whole life seen someone so angry, so scared, so confused and lost. Jackie covered her ears as an instinct and closed her eyes while she knelt in the ground.
After the long and loud screamed the Doctor covered his face and started crying. His life was a completely disaster now, with the TARDIS all gone and the single heart and the whole human body and the most important girl in the universe didn't seem to want him anymore. But he was wrong.
Rose stood up quickly and run to him. She sat next to him and hugged him.
"Everything'll be fine" She said trying to comfort him.
He reveled his face to her and looked at her.
"My life is a mess" He let out in a sob.
"No it's not" She said "It's just different and you're not use to this," She stopped to think and then added sweetly "Doctor"
He smiled a little, a bit more confident about this and her feelings for him. "I just want us to be happy, but we can't be if you don't believe I'm him, the same man"
"And I will, just give me time, I want this too. I've thought and I think I understand why he left me, but I'm not sure though"
"Do you think he would have been able to leave if he told you he loved you Rose?"
She stared at him "Rose, I'm him. And that's it, I said it, I told you I loved you"
"I know, I'm sorry" She apologised.
"Don't be, I know is hard to understand"
"But I am, because.." She took a long deep breath "Because I love you too Doctor" She smiled and he returned the smile. She kissed him in the cheek. It was ridiculous really, how they both knew the other returned their love but weren't sure what to do with that information.
Suddenly Pete's van appears to rescue them from this beach full of horrible memories. Jackie sat in the companion's sit and Rose with the Doctor sat on the back. She was tired so she cuddle to the Doctor and was soon asleep. He smiled at the proximity of their bodies, it was really nice to have her so close and so warm.
The trip lasted an hour or so. When the arrived at the hotel in the nearest valley Jackie told the Doctor to wake Rose and made their way inside the hotel to meet her in the hall.
"Umm..Rose?" He tried without succeeding.
"Rooose" He called again and this time he added a nudge. She woke up and tried to figure out the view.
"Oh, sorry I.."
"Never mind" He smiled and searched for her hand. She blushed a little and he smiled at her when he saw her cheeks.
"We need to meet your mum at the hotel hall"
Once inside Jackie called for Rose and asked her if she wanted to sleep with her or with the Doctor in a separate room. She turned her back to find the Doctor sitting in a couch, looking at the ground and she told her mother that she wanted to look after him.
It was six in the afternoon, they ate dinner at the small hotel and went straight to their bedrooms. Jackie's was in the first floor while the theirs was in the third one. It wasn't even close to awkward at first. He held the key in his hand while Rose waited him to open the door with the big black number 32 in it. When they were inside it they stood still staring at the very small room. It had a single bed, big enough for two, a bed-side table, a wardrobe, and a bathroom. Everything in wood, except for the bathroom.
Rose couldn't wait any longer. It had been 4 years since she had been that intimate with someone. Her relationship with Mickey was definitely over and trying to go back would have been completely selfish. She thought it had been a while for the Doctor too, so they were practically equal. But would he want to do this right now? So soon?
"I can't read minds so would you tell me what you are thinking right now?" He asked quickly and shyly. He'd ben staring at her since they stepped inside the room and noticed the face she had when she saw the bed. And that was all she'd been looking at all this time.
She bit her lower lip. Then looked at him, at the bed, and at him again. And that made things pretty clear. Then there was nothing and no one who could stop them.
He grabbed her by the waist and pushed them brutally against the wall of the room after closing the door with his foot. He snogged her for several minutes while she run her hands through his hair, and then he started kissing her in the neck, then between the neck and the breast and then climbed to her mouth again. His hands moved fast as well, first they were in her waist, then in her bottom, and then in her legs trying to tangled them around his waist.
She broke the kiss to catch some very needed air and then looked at him full of hunger in her eyes, but also with some questioning in them.
"If you want me to stop Rose, I'll..."
But she cut him in the middle of the sentence stealing a kiss from his gorgeous mouth and biting his lower lip. "Why now? Why here? Why me?" She asked.
"Why not?" He replied kissing her neck again, and with than moan that escaped her mouth she started working on his pants. The night they shared was full of anger, sadness, hurt and pain, but also love, passion, understatement and healing.
The next morning, when the Doctor woke up in bed next to a naked Rose he smiled at the situation. First night together, a small and suburban hotel with her mother sleeping two floors down, and the've done it.
All his body ached from the events of the previous night. He didn't know what to think now, he was happy they reached that point in so little time and he wasn't disappointed at how it turned out to be, he enjoyed it and would definitely do it again. But he wanted to talk, to know what she thought about all this and what she had in mind for their future. She loved him, he knew that know because she told him and because after that wonderful night no one could deny it.
She woke up. The Doctor starts getting nervous, how should he act now? Was he supposed to kiss her good morning?
Rose looked at him once she was completely awake and very much aware of the situation and didn't know what to do either. She smiled and he returned the smile.
"I can't read thoughts so tell me what you are thinking" She quoted. That was a way of saying "I don't know what to do either so please help me" for them.
"I don't know what am I supposed to do now haha, should I kiss you? Say I love you? though I think I made that point pretty clear last night" And he smiled at her again, waiting for her to take the lead.
"Do whatever you feel like doing" She assured him. And after hearing that, he kissed her. It was more like a snogg but still tender.
"I was thinking," He started "that we reached this point," He looked down at them to make his point clear "without even knowing exactly what the other was thinking, after all we are different people now, Rose. I couldn't find in you the little, young and girly Rose I took away with me. I'm not saying I love you less or more, well actually I love you more with every second that passes but the thing is, I'm not the same Doctor either so we should get to know each other again. Do some catch up?" He suggested.
She laughed at the man he had in front of her. She loved him so very much it scared her to think she could loose him again someday.
"Of course" She replied.
"Now, we could go and have breakfast somewhere in town. Alone" He wiggle his eyebrows waiting for her to answer.
"First of all. Where's my bra?" She asked with a seductive smile.
"Are you sure you need it?" He teased.
"Of course I do, and you could do with the boxers" They laughed so hard that morning.
This new adventure was going to be fun. Knowing each other, asking silly questions, discovering new human feelings and parts hardly used!
Thank you for reading! Did you like it? It's actually my first fic with the human Doctor (: This was written to be a single chapter fanfic but it depends in a lot of things so I'm not sure right now. You tell me! should I continue with a second chapter?
xoxoxoxo Olive
