TITLE: Making Impressions
AUTHOR: Brittany "Thespis" Frederick
RATING: PG for language
CATEGORY: Contains Doggett, Reyes, Follmer and Other
character. Conversationfic.
SUMMARY: Everyone has one chance to make a first
impression. Those who manage to make something out of
it are one step ahead in the game.
E-MAIL: baltimorelt@yahoo.com
Standard disclaimer applies. Plus, anything I created
is mine, though I'll happily allow archiving as long
as you tell me where. I'm not sure if this is the
first Follmer fic or not, but it's based solely on my
theorizing, so it may not be what we're going to see
in S9. I certainly hope that it is, though.

Making Impressions
by Thespis

As she looked from her BLT to her superior at the next
table to the passing traffic outside the window, she
remembered a conversation she'd had with her partner
on the day before.

"So what do you think of the new guy?" John had asked
her when she'd walked into the office after passing
the man on the stairs coming down to the basement.

"I don't know," she admitted. "I don't know him well
enough to say." She paused. "Does he call you 'Agent
Doggett' or what?"

"Of course he does."

"No, I meant how does he *say* it?" she said, closing
the door lest the man they were talking about actually
be within earshot. "Does he say it like Kersh, or like
Scully does, or like Mulder used to? How does he
stress it?"

Doggett raised an eyebrow but acquiesced. "I can't say
for sure. It's almost neutral. Almost. Like he's not
really sure about me."

"Monica knows him, wouldn't she have --" Stark
started, then stopped. "That's got to be it, then."

"It what?"

"He and Monica were together once, right? So he's
probably heard of you only through her. And maybe he's
jealous."

"Of the relationship I don't have with her?" Her
partner still wasn't buying it.

Stark shrugged. "Unlike in regard to you, I don't
claim to know how he thinks."

But that had been yesterday, and this was today.
Normally, John would be across from her, but he'd been
called up on something and had promised to join her
for dinner at the very least. Monica and Scully were
both busy on other things, too, so Stark was actually
alone. Alone enough to look across again and wonder
whose opinion to take in hand: hers, her partner's, or
the one Monica had given at the vending machines just
before lunch yesterday.

"What'd I miss this morning?" she'd asked Stark.

"Nothing much. John wanted to know what I thought of
the new guy."

Monica had paused. "What, did you two have a
conversation?"

"Hardly, I passed him on the stairs."

"Well, I'll tell you something -- he remembers every
little thing. And he doesn't let go of anything very
easily." Reyes had stared into the recesses of her
soda can very briefly, and her eyes had then met
Stark's with an infinite sadness. "He'll tell you his
theories about why I cut and ran, Stark -- but woman
to woman, friend to friend -- none of them are true."

Stark nodded, putting a hand on her friend's shoulder.
"You know I believe you."

"I know." Monica smiled. "Don't worry about him."

But the truth was that now, taking another bite of
bacon, lettuce and tomato, that reflecting on these
quick dialogues in the office and the hall on the day
before had caused Stark to worry. Office rumor, office
whispers, didn't bother her. They'd been on her heels
like an albatross when she first showed up at the
Bureau and she'd fought them down. But she had had the
greatest help, too. She stared at her sandwich. If
only these things were like food, she ruminated. You
could put them away and deal with them later.

"Agent Patrick, right?"

Stark's thoughts snapped. "Right. Can I help you with
something, Assistant Director?"

As he joined her at her table, Follmer gave her a
small smile. "If I needed something, I wouldn't ask
you on the lunch hour."

She smirked. "Yeah, I'll try to remember that."

"I've heard a lot about you."

"You have?" Stark blinked. She really shouldn't be
surprised, with as much as she'd done with John and
Monica, and even Scully and Mulder. "I didn't know."

"Agents Doggett and Reyes had a lot of good things to
say about you. They say you're a fighter. They told
me," and he said this next part carefully, as if
worried he would offend her, "about what you did for
your partner. Sacrificed your career in Criminal
Investigations for him."

"Right." Stark nodded. "It was the right thing."

"I know that." Follmer paused. "Let me tell you
something, Agent Patrick. When you care about someone
enough, there is never too far to go. It's when you
cross the line emotionally that things become
dangerous for everyone involved. I know how deeply you
feel for your partner. I know what you've done for him
-- everything's in your record. I've heard every
story. And if you're going to keep it that way, you're
going to be fine. Just don't go beyond that."

She wondered if he was trying to give her advice or
just ranting. "We've never considered it and we don't
plan to, sir," she told him. "We're aware of the
risks."

He nodded. "And you think you know each and every one
of them until you break them all. And then you think
you see things you don't. And you keep waiting. And
you wait, and you wait, and it never happens and
that's when you're as good as over."

She took a deep breath.

"That's how it ended, isn't it?" she said slowly. "You
thought you saw something in her you didn't and you
ended up waiting and it never materialized."

He nodded, but when he spoke he was trying to be
funny, perhaps to hide the pain she saw in his eyes,
even though he'd stopped looking directly at her.
"You're a quick learner."

"Thank you, sir." Pause. "If it's any consolation ...
she told me not to worry about you."

He finally met her eyes. "I know that the four of you
will be fine," he told her. "Just remember that."

"I will." She smiled. "I think we'll all be fine."

Follmer smiled with her. And sitting there, thinking
over it even as the conversation turned to happier
things like Gator football and old case files from the
vault, Stark decided that she had made up her mind
about the Assistant Director. If he had put his faith
in her after just passing her in the stairwell, then
she could only do the same. And maybe he was right --
they'd all be fine.

END

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- Lewis Black
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