Broken
I would always love him. How could I not? He was my first love and for a while my everything. I can't believe I was naïve enough to believe he loved me. While he saw our relationship as a game, I saw it as a life line. I was young and believed in fairytales, but as I grew older I saw life was a black hole full of pain and suffering.
He broke me. He crushed me and he does not even know it. I still talk to him from time to time. He thinks I got over it, but I haven't. How can I get over the man I love and who I thought loved me? It's not easy. Some might even say it's unachievable.
He found someone else and I'm happy for him. I really am. I just wish he was happy with me instead of her, but life doesn't work that way. You have to fight for what you want and sadly, I cannot struggle anymore. I have been broken down and I cannot seem to put myself back together.
