"I love you,"
"No I love you more,"
"Oh shut up, Tom, I love you more." The raven haired boy said, snuggling his face into Tom's sweet smelling Raven locks. "You know I do."
"Harry, hush." Said Tom, his pale arm snaked around to wrap Harry closer to him.
"Tom I love-" Harry was interupted when his lover kissed him passionately. Harry sank back into the covers, with Tom. I guess it's not time to wake up, yet.
A few hours later Harry was awoken by, "Harry, my love wake up." Tom said, tossing the covers of him.
"No Tom! I wannna sleep…" Groaned Harry burrowing into the pillows. Tom lunged onto the bed. He face inches away from Harry's.
"How about pancakes for breakfast, with chocolate chips?" offered Tom. Harry looked at him. Damn his puppy dog face!
"Alright," Harry snapped. "But just cause I can't resist that face." The sixteen year old rolled out of bed. It was his birthday today. He was so happy. He loved being with Tom, or Voldemort. Now only a small part of his mind screamed at him, calling him a coward, telling him he was using Tom, that he didn't love him. Harry snapped back to reality when Tom offered him a burgundy silk robe. The raven haired boy shrugged into the robe, giving Tom a kiss. Arm in Arm they made their way to the Kitchen.
12 Grimmuald place, Sirius Blacks bed room.
"Sirius I miss Harry." Remus whispered into Sirius' large hands, which encircled his slender chest..
"He made a sacrifice for us." Sirius said softly. He hugged the werewolf closer to himself. "He's happy now."
"What if he's not? What if Voldemort totures him, and starves him and rapes him." Said Remus, his voice cracked.
"We both saw that look in his eyes. I look at you like that." Sirius whispered. The werewolf tossed in his arms so he was facing Sirius. He kissed Sirius' lips and rested his head against Sirius' neck.
"The order is dying."
"I know," said Sirius, his voice strained.
"I hate them. Not Tonks, or the weaslys. No I hate the order itself. It's killed so many for what? We could has just given them Harry and lived happily ever after. Dumbledore would have let you die. He let them torture you. 'A casualty of war' he would have said. 'Sirius Black died nobly'. You would have died, if Harry hadn't given himself to Voldemort."
"I hate myself for it." Sirius hissed. "If I had been stronger Harry wouldn't be with him now. He'd be here with us, laughing and smiling."
Remus started to cry. Sirius hugged him closer, ignoring the fact he was crying also.
In Draco's bedroom the blond haired boy sat crying. He cried himself to sleep every night now. His father disowned him. Draco wanted it so badly, but the reality stung horribly. Sirius and Remus had taken him in.
"Harry, I'm so sorry." He sobbed. "jesus Christ I could've saved you, saved Sirius and Remus. I knew about the attack, I didn't think you would actually go! I didn't think Sirius would come. I-I-I was to scared, to proud to admit that I knew. To proud to help. I was a Malfoy, above all those mud blood lovers. Your pathetic Draco. Everyone wishes they could kill you."
Draco lay down in bed and cried more. "Weak bastard! Sitting here wallowing in your self pity. Harry hates you, everyone does."
"That's not true Draco."
Draco looked toward the door and saw Hermonie standing in the door way. She was dressed in white pajamas, the top was a slinky cami, the bottoms had a rose pattern.
"How dare you think that' true!" She ran over to the bed and curled into his arms, sobbing. "I'm glad your alive. Harry is to. That's why he went with him. He gave himself for us. And we aren't going to spend our damn life sobbing!"
"Tonight's his birthday." Whispered Draco. "I think I love him."
"He loves you to Draco."
"No he doesn't."
"He told me Draco."
"Why not Ron?"
"I don't know. His mom wanted him to stay away from Harry, I think she's gone insane."
"I want Harry," Draco sobbed. "I want him."
"He's going to come back, and he's going to realize that he didn't love Tom. When he does we'll be strong for him."
Draco sobbed.
Harry lay in bed. Alone. Tom was at a death eater meeting. Harry clutched the silk pillow. His long black curls spilled behind him. Tom liked his hair long. He liked the messy curls. Tom had become a drug to Harry. He needed Tom. He was his life.
He cried, slowly at first, but he couldn't stop the sobs. You betrayed them. Left them to their death. No! No! I came because they would have killed Sirius. Now Tom isn't going to hurt anyone else. We're going to go live in Tahiti, together. I'll never see them again, Sirius and Remus, Hermonie, Draco, Even Blaise damn it! It's better that way. They don't want to see me ever. I betrayed them, betrayed the entire world. The boy who lived is a failure.
He sobbed. Draco…Draco…I think I love you Draco. "I love you, I miss you and I'm sorry. I'll miss you forever."
