Why did I push her in the Black Lake?

It was all just for fun, really, I didn't mean for her to get hurt

I'm not sure why I pushed her in.

I just kind of did.

Perhaps it was because of the crush I had on her,

though I would never admit that

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How was I supposed to know she couldn't swim?

"James!" she gasped as I pushed her in by surprise

Not a push, really

More like a friendly nudge.

She hit the water with a splash.

She was thrashing her arms around wildly.

I thought it was for show,

being the drama queen she was.

But one of her giggling friends suddenly wasn't giggling anymore.

She was shouting, "SHE CAN'T SWIM, JAMES!"

And Lily went under.

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What kind of sixteen-year-old can't swim?

I wasn't even thinking as I jumped in after her.

I plummeted straight through the dark water, fully clothed.

I dove under, thrashing my arms wildly like she did earlier.

Searching for anything.

After what felt like hours, I couldn't take it anymore

I had to breathe.

But then I saw a flame of brilliant red hair and grabbed her slender frame.

Even though I was completely out of breath and on the verge of passing out,

I kicked.

And kicked.

Until I reached the surface.

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Why did our first kiss have to be like this?

"Breath, breath, breath,"

I murmured,

even though I was gasping for breath myself.

But she wasn't.

And in an instant, my lips were on hers.

And it wasn't special,

or magical,

or anything great.

Because I was just trying to save her life.

I wasn't sure what I was doing, just putting my breath into hers.

I didn't know how to do CPR.

But it was better than doing nothing.

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How the hell did Madam Pomfrey get here?

I suppose one Lily's annoying friends came to get her.

It didn't matter though, I barely registered that she was there anyways.

I felt oddly dizzy as she put me on a stretcher,

and that was the last thing I could remember.

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Hot could I feel like such a jerk?

I woke up with a pounding head ache.

My brain was beating hard against my skull.

It then registered where I was, and I sat up immediately.

The Hospital Wing.

With a sinking feeling in my stomach and my head throbbing in protest,

I got up to find Lily.

She was in the bed by mine.

My vision was foggy and I could barely keep my eyes open,

but I could recognize that hair anywhere.

"Lily?"

I croaked.

"...Hmmm?"

She asked, half asleep.

"I didn't know you couldn't swim, I'm sorry."

She yawned, "I know James."

She then mumbled something unintelligible.

"What?"

She sighed and turned over a bit. "Thank you for saving me."

"You wouldn't need to be saved if I didn't push you in."

"I know. But it's okay James, I forgive you."

I knew her conscious self really didn't,

and I would for sure get an earful when she fully woke up,

but I felt a bit better.

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Author's Note: Don't really know how I feel about this, it just came to me while I was swimming (ironic, huh?) and took me like 10 minutes to write. Reviews are always welcome (even if it sucked).

*Hugs*

-IfWeLivedALittleEveryday

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