(THIS STORY INVOLVES SUICIDAL TONY WITH SELF-HARM. SORRY IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT BUT I DON'T CARE. Do not own NCIS!!)
It was earlier in the NCIS building; someone was working on the computer with the sounds of the keyboard filling the air but interrupted when the lift opened and out walked McGee and Ziva who as they approached their desks they saw the person and were shocked,
"Tony" McGee said surprised at him being earlier for once.
"Didn't get lucky then last night" Ziva tried to joke but all Tony did was say,
"No" in a serious voice and put his attention back to the screen.
McGee and Ziva looked at each other for a minute wondering what happened to Tony when they decided to get to work themselves.
It was quiet at work but Ziva and McGeekept glancing at Tony, who was working hard for a change. They were all waiting for Gibbs to come in, for all different reasons.
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Gibbs walked in full of control to find everyone working, 'Hang on what's Tony doing here earlier' Gibbs thought.
While walking to the desk he saw McGee and Ziva look at each other than at Gibbs, knowing they were all thinking about Tony.
After a few minutes Gibbs phone rang "Ok, we are on our way" Gibbs said to the person on the phone while everyone got their bags "There is a marine's wife shot dead found in an alley".
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Tony was quiet in the car, just sitting there not making any comment about Gibbs's driving and the only movement he made was when he wanted to get out of the car.
The crime scene was a twenty year old against the alley wall with blood everywhere which came from the entry wound in her head. Gibbs looked at it and thought 'Who could do this to someone'.
"Right McGee and Ziva look around the area" Gibbs ordered which got them to work then turned to Tony "You go draw and photograph the body".
To Gibbs's surprise Tony replied coldly "Yeah whatever" in a whisper but Gibbs heard it and automatically hit his head with his hand.
"What was that Dinozzo" Gibbs said shocked but angry at the same time.
"Nothing Boss" Tony whispered his voice with no emotion and he just went to the body and started to work.
Gibbs noticed that McGee and Ziva had stopped what they were doing to see the interaction Gibbs and Tony had because they never heard Tony answer back to Gibbs before.
"Get back to work" Gibbs shouted at them which startled them but they got back to work but everyone kept looking at Tony from time to time while thinking 'What's happened to him'.
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As soon as Tony got in his apartment he collapsed on the sofa thinking about his day and the case.
They had solved the case, or rather Abby did as McGee found a hair on the body and it was linked back to the husband. They later found out that his wife was having an affair which caused him to get revenge on his wife and was about to kill his best friend in his house because his best friend was sleeping with his wife.
All Tony could think was about how Gibbs just came back to NCIS wanting his job back and didn't even talk to Tony about it, even though Tony had done his job really well and then he walks in ordering him about.
It just made him feel worthless, so he walked into the kitchen and pulled out a knife undone his shirt and he brought to his wrist which was all ready covered in a few scars.
He put pressure on the knife just enough to feel the blood trickling down his hand. Tony finally felt calm as this gave him the relief he needed but he knew tomorrow he would think that 'I am so worthless, what's the point'.
