Saying Goodbye
Series of fanfiction dealing with the way Daniel tries to recover from loosing his wife
NOTE: In my opinion, 'Forever in a Day' was one of the most beautiful, profound, intelligent, and sad episodes of STARGATE SG1 and I think there can't be too many missing scenes, tags, epilogues etc. for it. Another fact was that Daniel's dealing with Sha're's loss is a very complex phenomenon, so I had the idea of writing this fics. They are meant to be the source of a serious heart-ache for the reader, so please take a tissue box by your side… However, if I didn't manage in grieving you, please accept my apologies. Feedback would be extremely appreciated…
Stonedtoad – thank you for becoming my beta and improving my stories… and thank you for becoming a trusted friend and improving my life…
PART ONE:
Chilly Night of Sorrow
Prologue to 'Forever in a Day'
NOTE: This happens the night before the events in 'Forever in a Day'.
It was a chilly night. Daniel felt the wind blowing through his hair, touching him in a not-so-pleasant way. But he remembered there was a time he adored the wind. Whilst on Abydos he loved to watch Sha're doing her chores, and when the breeze was blowing, she seemed to look a little more beautiful… He closed his eyes and saw the image of his beloved wife smiling to him, the warm desert wind ruffling her thick black hair. How much had he loved her… And he still did. He knew she was out there, somewhere, trapped in her own body, somewhere, far, far away from him. He felt his eyes fill with tears at the thought of it.
No, he didn't want to cry! But it was so sad, all of it. His entire life had been sorrowful. He had lost everything he held dear: his parents, his childhood, his reputation, his career… And when he believed he had a new life, he lost it all again: his wife, his love, his home, his family, his self-trust.
Now the only things he had left were some wonderful friends, who helped him so much, and his hope. Hope that someday he will find Sha're and Skaara. Hope that someday they will defeat the Goa'uld and there won't be so many people suffering. Hope that someday the world will find out about the Stargate and that he could regain his career and the place he deserved in the academic community. Hope that someday he would make it up with Nick, the grandfather who rejected him and refused to take care of him when his parents died. Hope that someday the world would be a better place. Hope that someday he will be happy again. Someday…
He looked up at the sky. So wide, so heavy and so full of stars… It made him wonder which one of them was shining on the woman he loved, which one saw her beauty and heard her unspoken pain, which light shone on her hair and warmth touched her skin. He knew she was also suffering and that she still loved him. He was sure about it. The host survived. She still loved him. She missed him. She wanted to be by his side. He was so sure about it…
"I miss you too, my love," he murmured in the night, finally allowing a warm tear to trickle down his cheek.
It had become very cold, and again, this brought back more memories to Daniel. It reminded him of the long and so beautiful nights he used to spend on the dunes of Abydos, holding Sha're in his arms, stargazing, talking of their love and the future they wanted together. Those were the most wonderful nights in his life, since then he felt he was really loved by the most beautiful, kind, and intelligent woman in the universe, and respected by the entire population of a planet. Not to mention being accepted in the archaeological paradise in which he was living, actually being part of a civilization everyone thought to be lost. Yes, that was definitely the best time of his life. Will he ever have the opportunity to spend other such nights? Maybe.
Maybe tomorrow would be a better day; maybe it would be worst. Maybe tomorrow he would find her and save her. Maybe tomorrow he would get to hold her again, and breathe her perfume and taste those soft lips and stroke her hair like he did so many times. To feel the warmth of her body against his, and hear her gentle voice saying how much she missed him, and be able to confess the tremendous love he felt for her. Maybe tomorrow his suffering would come to an end. Maybe tomorrow he would watch the same sky from the same balcony, together with the only women his heart could ever love.
Wiping the salty tears, which were silently furrowing his face, he decided to go inside and try to get some rest. Tomorrow could be an important day…
"I love you, Sha're. I always will," he whispered before leaving, and the wind took his words and spread them into the chilly night…
END OF PART ONE
