A/N: Hello everyone. So this is my first fic. It's something that I've written quite some time ago and I just wanted to publish it and get some feedback :D

Disclaimer: Alas, I don't own anything except for a computer and a brain.

A Little Trip Down Memory Lane

Sitting on the patio with a cup of coffee in her hand, she looked at the horizon. She liked to start each and every day with this little moment of calm and peace. Of course she LOVED her children and husband but she needed a couple of minutes alone to gather her thoughts before starting a new day. Her thoughts started to drift toward her achievements. She did it all. She found her McDreamy, she's a good mother AND a brilliant surgeon, she's got people she cares about and who care back. She has it all. She still can remember that first day of chaos and fear. The fear to stay alone, to not make it, to fail. She lived most of her life trying to make her mother proud. Her mother who thought she was a disappointment. Her mother who destroyed her. She never thought she would make it. But she found friends, she found her "soul mate" she found her Person. It wasn't easy. She went through so much... First the guy of her dreams turns out to be married and chooses his wife instead of her, then she put her freaking hand in a bomb! I mean who does that? But she made it through. Just like she survived drowning. She survived the shooting. She might've survived that horrible plane crash, but a part of her had been torn apart, ripped away. A little part of her soul died that day with Lexie. Ah Lexie! She was this sweet girl who wanted a big sister... She hated her first but now she knows it was unfair. She knows that it wasn't her fault if her mom was a cheater or if Tatcher didn't have the balls to reclaim a place in his daughter's life... When she got to know her, she was so grateful to have a sister, even if Greys don't really do family, she would've walked through fire for Lexie, her little sister. Of course, time took away most of the pain, but a sharp pain still stings her heart when thinking about Little Grey. She misses her so much! Even if she has it all, she's feeling like it's falling apart. George, kind hearted, selfless George threw himself in front of a bus to save a complete stranger. Izzie had cancer and survived, but left. She took off and never looked back like those 4 years spent in Seattle meant nothing. And it hurt. Cristina... Cristina's gone too, to freakin' switzerland! Of course she was so happy for her best friend who deserved this, she had worked so hard, putting her career first. But she also realizes that she won't have coffee with her Person while mocking Alex and bitching about patients, she won't "dance it out" with her anymore. Plus Derek wants to go to DC! Really of all the states, he chose the furthest?! She was born here, she funded her career, her family, her friendships! She owned a freaking hospital here! Cristina was right. He might be dreamy, but she can't let him eclipse her, because she's the sun. She didn't know if Derek would stay or if he would go, heck, her twisty mind even thought about him asking for a divorce! She wasn't sure about anything right now... But the only thing she's sure about is that she will fight and will overcome whatever crap life throws at her. After all isn't it what it's all about?

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