How Can I Live? By Miyu Camui
This is a oneshot. I do not own Ayashi no Ceres.
Aya held herself as she cried. Toya was gone, and she could not love Yuhi as she loved Toya. Yuhi was like a brother to her, and the pain from losing Toya was unbearable. She lost her mother, her father, and her brother Aki all in the same year. But now the one person she had was gone.
Toya was her life and they had a child together. But now what was she to do?
"Aya..." Yuhi knocked at her door.
Aya remained still and lay on the pallet. Sorry Yuhi, but I can't speak. If I do, I will cry even harder.
"Aya...please eat something."
"Not hungry." She managed to choke out.
Aya heard Yuhi leave, but a few moments later, Suzumi walked in the door. "Aya Mikage!"
Though her tears clouded her vision, Aya looked up into Suzumi's eyes. She was angry and she let it show. Her purple kimono was perfect and not a thing was out of place, except for Suzumi's frown.
"You need to think of your daughter! You lost the love of your life, but so did I! I lost my husband and my unborn child. How do you think that felt?"
Aya just cried and lay there silently.
Suzumi hugged her tightly. "Please think of what Toya would have wanted for you."
Aya stopped crying. "He'd want me to think of our daughter. And to live."
"Exactly," Suzumi said. "So live. Don't let his death be in vain."
Aya smiled and said, "Please leave me for a few minutes. I will be out in a moment."
Suzumi squeezed Aya's hand and left, shutting the door behind her.
Aya sat at the desk, pulling out a piece of paper and a pen.
Dear Toya,
As much as I love you, I have to move on. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through but somehow I am going to be okay. We have a beautiful daughter and I have to live for your sake. This is harder than losing my family, but I will keep your memory alive. I may or may not love again, but I will make sure our daughter has a happy life. I know you are in heaven watching over us, and someday we will meet again.
Love always,
Aya Mikage
