Summary: what happens after Tommy sleeps with Jude then leaves? Oh come on people we've all had sex ed. What do you think happened but the real question is what will she do when the father of her child returns and he does not know. How long will she stall in telling him and when she finally does will he able to handle it?

Jude's Secret

Chapter 1: Jude's child and Tommy's anger

Disclaimer: I don't own instant star or Tommy or Jude or anything else

Jude remembers it like it was yesterday it was the day before he left 11 months ago. He arrived at his door crying her eyes out saying that Liam had told her that he was leaving the next day

Flash back

Jude: Tommy T…T…Tommy liam said you were leaving tomorrow that not true is it please tell that's a lie?

Tommy: no of course I'm not leaving Tommy said lying through his teeth why don't you come in and sit down Jude

Jude slowing walked over to the couch and sat down still a little shock up over the whole ordeal Jude looked up at Tommy with sad eyes and that's where it all began..

Flashback end

Just hold me she had said to him. Tommy do so right away knowing he really was leaving the next day and wasn't sure when he would she Jude again he decided then he would use his time wisely.

Jude remembers the feel of his hand roaming over her body as he kissed every spot he came in contact with feverishly. She remembered what it felt like to kiss him all over. She remembered the pain she felt when she was no longer a virgin. She could sometimes almost feel the passion and pleasure as he pumped rapidly in to her core expertly till she came so hard all she could see was white when she opened her eyes to look at him. She remembers what it felt like to fall asleep next him. Most of all she remembers what it felt like to wake up and discover that he was gone forever.

Jude was pulled from her reverie when she heard her baby girl crying from the next room. That's right world I am 18 and I have a daughter from a man I love but doesn't know and most likely never will.

Jude: yes Mariah what's the matter with my girl huh? Jude said the infant as she cuddled her.

The child soon calmed down as Jude slowly lured back to sleep.

Jude: well might as well let her sleep a little longer she said as her sister Sadie cam into the room.

Sadie: what's the matter with Mariah

Jude: nothing she just woke up too soon is all. Sades?

Sadie: yea?

Jude: do you think you can baby sit for me today I have to go record that song and I won't be able to think about that if she's there

Sadie: sure no prob

Jude quickly rushed into the bathroom and took a shower while Sadie watched the baby. It now only took Jude 5 minutes to get in the shower and out again because of Mariah who she had gotten use to by now

Jude: alright Sadie I'm going into the studio now you know where everything is I'll be back in a bit

Sadie: alright bye Jude say hi to my beloved Kwest for me Jude just rolled her eyes and nodded her head at her newly wedded sister.

20 minutes later

Jude arrived at G major and walked through the doors and there was Kwest walking through the door to the studio waiting for her.

In the studio

Jude: hey Kwest. Sadie says hi

Kwest oh really well do you mind if I call and see how Sadie and Mariah are doing before we get started.

Jude: no , go on I'll Just go warm up and you give the heads up when your ready ok?

5 minutes later

Kwest: alright Jude I'm ready are you?

Jude: yep let's do this

Someday by Brittany Spears

Kwest: wow Jude that was great I think that's a wrap I'll see you at home ok

Jude: why are you not coming now you know Sadie missed you this morning since you rushed off.

Kwest: yea well I guess she's not the only one I heard you in your sleep last night Jude are you ok It seems ever since Mariah was born you seem to be missing Tommy a lot more.

Jude just stared downcast knowing what he was saying was true

Kwest : look I didn't want to get your hopes up but when I came in today I heard D screaming at someone and he said Tom if your not back by well I didn't hear when but that if he didn't get back that he would never get his job back. Even if he begged and you know how Daruis like begging

Jude looked up at him with hope clear in her eyes

Jude: Kwest I have to go

Kwest: what have I done if he doesn't come she will die for sure.

Meanwhile back in Montana

Tommy was sitting in his office talking with D again as he was screaming in his ear

Daruis: when Tommy When is the Flight you have to be out here as soon as possible you are need badly here.

Tommy: why d I didn't know you cared that much for me I'm touched really.

Daruis: cut the shit you know who I mean so you better get here so you can talk to her yourself at least she'll listen to you………maybe she doesn't listen to anybody now that she's a …Well you have to come here now I want you here by Friday is that understood Tommy or else I'm serious.

Tommy: yea I hear you D I'll be out there before you know it by the way don't tell Jude till the day before I get there so she won't stressing her self so much.

Daruis: what makes you that after almost a years worth of what you have done to her she will be here for your beckon call

Tommy: why is some one else in her life now or something he said with a hint of distaste.

Daruis: I guess you could say so you better get back here before he replaces you huh?

Tommy scowled into the phone: Fine you know what I'll be there tomorrow so you better tell that guy that he better back off my girl or I'll punch him into next month

Daruis: All right I'll tell Jude and Kwest to come and pick you up in the viper and don't say what about Sadie because she hates your guts for what you did to her sister. I would stay away from her if you ever want to have children.

Tommy then hung up the phone and thought about Jude and this guy is going down he said as he made all the arrangement for everything to go back to Toronto he was making the move permanent no one take Jude away from him no one.

On the other side with Daruis

Daruis smirked things were going just like he thought he knew that would make Tommy get his butt up here so he said now for the big part telling Jude and Kwest

Daruis walked out of his office to see Jude heading for the door

Daruis: Jude Kwest I need to talk to you for a minute

Jude: ok D what is it I have to go back to house I left Mariah with Sadie and she is already tired. She said as she looked over at Kwest who blushed and turned away. Jude smiled and turned back to Daruis who himself was chuckling

Daruis: well I have some shocking news actually Tommy's coming home tomorrow and I want you two to go and pick him up from the airport

Jude and Kwest: WHAT?!!!