Hi guys I've had this ready forever but my internet has decided to stop working three times in the past two months. And I mean the internet was gone. I couldn't even pull up google for weeks. And then it would fix itself and rightwhen I'm getting things ready it fails again. It made me sooooo mad. Anyway I hope you enjoy this.
Toushirou POV
Prolouge
I hated him. I hated Ulquiorra, and not for the reasons you might expect. He moved too slowly and Karin had died. But that wasn't why I had such a dislike for him. That wasn't his fault, it was Aizen's. My reason for hating him was simple. He was with her when I could not be. Running with him by my side, with him carrying Jaquerjacks, made my mind race.
We had used the riot that was among the other arrancar as a cover for escape, but I felt like I was part of that riot. Part of the chaos.
Kurosaki was on the other side of me...carrying the dead body of Karin. Of course we had no choice but to take the body with us. Yuzu and Isshin would want a funeral. Her friends would want to know that she was gone.
Before we left Las Noches Ulquiorra had gone in two rooms. First to get Jaquerjacks, as injured as he was. The second was what seemed to be a girl's room. A girl with big blue eyes. He seemed to be trying to persuade her of something , but she kept shaking her head. Eventually she had come out of the room looking very disappointed.
She had a small leather book in her hands which she held tightly to her chest. She was like everyone else here, an arrancar. She kept glancing at Kurosaki and then finally looked at me. She gave me the leather book then ran back into the room she was in before. Ulquiorra looked annoyed with her. He passed by me and said, "Keep a hold of that, it is Karin's."
So I held on to it. I still had it with me as we were running.
So I'll state it again. I hate Ulquiorra. Just that he knew the book was Karin's meant he knew things about her that I didn't
And that bothered me.
Chapter 1: All Wrong
I slowly opened my tired eyes to messy paperwork. I just as slowly sat up. I'd lost count of how many times I had relived Karin's death. Or how many times I just wanted to blame everyone involved. But it's easy to lose count of something like that over the period of two years.
I looked up at the clock and sighed as I stood up. There was a Captains' Meeting in an hour and afterwards I had to meet Rangiku to get the new recruits settled in. I was just going through the motions with Karin gone. I hadn't even read what I had learned to be Karin's journal.
Everyone said I should so I would know the thing she went through. But I felt like that would only remind me she she was gone. I got to the Captains' Meeting but I was completely spaced out the entire time.
That was until the end when the Head Captain announced, "I've decided that since we still haven't found a suitable Captain for the fifth squad the Hinamori Momo will take over the position. Are there any objections?"
And no one objected. I sighed almost inaudibly. That was great for Momo but I was still too far gone to be happy for her. My only conflict with it was about what the Head Captain said next, "Good. Captain Hitsugaya will deliver the news."
That was just great for I'd only spoken to Momo twice for just over two years. And tomorrow was my birthday. I really wasn't in the mood for her happy birthdays. Or anyone else's for that matter.
The Captains' Meeting last only a few minutes later and I left the room. I decided to go to Momo first. I made my way towards the fifth squad as thunder cracked over my head. My days had been horrible not only, now that I think about it, since Karin died...but since I fell off that cliff and ended up in a coma. A very short coma but still a coma.
She had been in Las Noches for three entire months. From late August to late November. She didn't get to finish her senior year of high-school. I sighed again. I needed to stop depressing myself.
Maybe visiting Momo would be a good thing. After all she was like a sister to me. For the first time in a long time I found myself smiling. I arrived there to a crash on the inside of the office and a very loud, "Owwww."
I opened the door and stared down at the small dark haired girl. I don't know why but I felt like laughing . It was like being in the same room as someone who had been through nearly the same thing made it all better. The only real difference was that she didn't love Aizen, she looked up to him. And he hadn't died, he'd betrayed her and been sealed away.
She saw me and scurried to her feet, "Shiro!"
She immediately started to brush the imaginary dust off her pants and asked,"What brings you here?"
I blinked, I had almost forgotten. I sighed for the billionth time, "The Head Captain wanted me to tell you that you're the new Captain for this squad. Not that it'll be much different from now. You run the place already."
She smiled a huge smile and said, "That's great! Do I get to choose a lieutenant?"
"Maybe. You'll have to ask someone else."
There was an awkward silence after that that made made realize that everything was not okay. Which made me want to look away from her. She looked a lot like Karin. I could remember thinking that before Karin had been killed. Right before Kurosaki and I had left for Hueco Mundo. I snapped out of my thoughts when she spoke again, "What am I supposed to do with new recruits? Shuuhei always has done it for me, but I guess I need to learn."
I took a deep breath through my nose and tried to explain, "You tell them the basics of the squad. Establish the rules you want them to follow. Show them where everything is and be on your way."
She nodded, "Okay. Can I come to you for help if I get confused?"
I didn't really want to help but I couldn't just say no to her either, "Sure, but try to do things right. They won't take you seriously if you mess up too much."
She sighed, "Well this is going to difficult isn't it."
I nodded and looked at the floor, "What did you break before I came in?"
She seemed alarmed by the question and jumped to pick up the things on the floor. There were several items: Broken glass, a picture frame, a lot of paper, two books, and a pencil. It didn't occur to me to help so I just stood there. Momo seemed sad about having to pick things up. I asked, "What is it?"
She was rushing to pick the items up and equally rushed to say, "I was moving Ca-Aizen's belongings out of the squad. I don't think they belong here. I mean he may be alive but her is not coming back ."
I nodded but didn't say anything. There was another awkward silence between us as I watched her gather his belongings off the floor. I had just started to leave when she spoke, "She'll come back you know. She's just not human anymore. She'll be here just watch."
I shook my head and started walking away, "She won't remember me."
The last thing I heard before I left the building was her shout, "Make her remember!"
I closed my eyes as I stepped into the now pouring down rain. I sometimes wondered if I was the one causing the bad weather, after all it had been nothing but bad weather since she died. I was soaked by the time I reached the tenth squad again. It was even worse when I had to help the new recruits into their new lifestyle. Most of that had taken place outside.
I went home early without doing my paperwork. I was freezing cold from the rain but too distracted to do anything about it. So I lay in bed soaking wet and cold. By the time the memories started taking over again my teeth were chattering and I was staring at the floor. I felt completely helpless. I wondered if that's Karin felt in Las Noches. Maybe I could ask Ulquiorra.
I mean he was just next door. Just that thought averted the bad memories. Instead I thought about all the stings Kurosaki and I had to pull to get the Soul Society to let Ulquiorra and Jaquerjacks live here. We weren't fond of either of them but we did it for Karin. She obviously was fond of both of them since they were a part of her escape plan.
They had to be monitored by a superior ranking officer, that was their condition on living here. I volunteered for that but I wasn't doing my part. They were living here free of charge and supervision. Because I was distracted. It was impossible not to be. We were too late on realizing that Karin was acting and she had died for it. I couldn't help but wonder if it was my fault.
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