A/N Warning: I would like to say that this most likely will not add up to what happens in the books or the TV show, I just want to play around with the characters and what they would do if I had written everything. Plus Malec is my life so yah.
I do not own these characters, despite how much I would like them ;-;
Chapter 1 - The Realisation
Alec POV
"No. No!" I shouted as I came crashing through the door of my room, "He's a downworlder, a nothing! An-and, Jace! It can't be..." I ran my fingers through my thick black hair and sat down on my bed with a thud. The experiences of the past few days chased my sanity around in my brain, and I began to doubt the few things I was sure of.
What was I even sure of, that I loved Jace? Even that was a mystery, a mystery that I had begun to unravel over the restless nights that had pursued me in weeks after I had realised it.
It. I couldn't even say it, that word. I wasn't even sure. But this was two guys I had fallen for now, so, shouldn't that make me sure? The rage boiled out of me like liquid out of a bottle, and as I stood my fists made contact with the wall. The plaster chipped and I cried "Stupid Magnus Bane!"
"Someone's angry." The familiar voice chuckled and continued, "Come here big brother, he's a pain I know."
"No you don't Izzy, you don't know anything. Just leave me alone."
"You know I'd never." She let out an exasperated sigh, "What did he do anyway, to make you so moody." The question startled me. Nothing. He hadn't done anything. Just struck up a "friendly" conversation, and I panicked, was my normal rude self, and ran away. Typical Alec. Typical second-rate, self-absorbed, over-thinking Alec. Izzy guessed what had happened from the look on my face. "What did you say, Alec?"
"I just... ugh. By the Angel, that warlock is giving me grief! Just please, Izzy, leave me be."
Izzy slowly walked to the door and paused for a minute to look back. She seemed worried. She was. But she left.
Why did these things always happen to me? Why couldn't I be like our very own perfect Jace Wayland, with his perfect little girlfriend, and perfect fucking life?
I didn't mean that. So, I took a breath and counted to 10.
"I'm not, though. I'm not Jace. I'm Alec Lightwood. I'm Alec Lightwood." The words ran through my head and I realised what an idiot I'd been.
Minutes later I stood outside the door of Magnus Bane.
How was that?! Please leave reviews, I appreciate any help I can get! Also, I love Jace, and Clary, so writing this was horrible ;-;
Have a lovely day,
Marie xo
