Hey readers! English isn't my first language, please tell me if I made any mistakes. I hope you enjoy my fic, all characters belong to Cassandra Clare.
Jem Carstairs has suffered enough during his life. But after Tessa's betrayal, he tought he couldn't handle it anymore.
"Was it really a betrayal?"he tought. Tessa didn't knew that he was alive when she chose Will, but it left him disappointed. He blamed himself for not telling his parabatai before about his feelings for the girl with beautiful grey eyes. All this situation could have been avoided and he wouldn't be so broken at this moment.
When the yin fen stock finished, Jem tried to become a Silent Brother in order to avoid his soon death. The transformation was so painful that he had to stop the process. Luckily, he survived. After some days of recovering, he realized that didn't need the drug anymore. His body was freed from the substance that made his life so weak and fragile. The boy started to feel healthy again, and was happy to meet Tessa again after the battle with Mortmain. He could finally be confident about his future.
He waited on the Institute to make a surprise, nobody knew that he was fine because he was left alone with a Silent Brother, while the others were fighting.
James Carstairs remembered exactly the moment they arrived. Charlotte had looked at him with wide eyes, and then hugged him and cried. She had watched this boy growing up, and would be devasted witnessing his death. Jem loved her almost like a mother. She was so short that wet his shirt with her tears while hugging him. Then, Henry was being carried out of the carriage by Gabriel and Gideon when he saw him. Sophie and Cecily were also emotionated when they met him strong and alive, Sophie even cried.
So, the people he were most waiting to meet arrived. His beloved and his parabatai. But there was something wrong with them. Their expressions were at the same time surprised, happy and horrified. Of course, they were happy and surprised because they tought that Jem was dead, but why were they sad? He looked at their hands, clamped together. That's the reason James Carstairs is totally destroyed. He expected receiving his fiancée and being happy ever after with his new family, that happened to never start
Tessa wrapped her arms around him and would't let go of James for a long time.
Will and Tessa later explained themselves, and Tessa wanted to come back to his ex-fiancé. Will's expression was unforgettable. After all his suffering because of the false curse, he had finally found love, and Jem would't take it away from him, even if it hurts him.
He let the couple be happy together, and didn't regret it. Being good devasted James Carstairs. And now he is still kind, eventought depressed and miserable. Not even the violin delighted him anymore. Everything felt wrong, there was a missing piece in his puzzle. On the first week, he stayed all day in bed and Charlotte brought him food, that he refused. Even the Lightwood brothers tried to talk to him, inviting him to train.
When he got out of his bedroom, he walked numbly by the city. Hunting demons wasn't the same thing, even if it wasn't so dangerous anymore because he don't need the drug.
The parabatai bond was broken on the start of the transformation, but Will still acted like a brother and a loyal friend. Tessa still talked to him, always tried to cheer him up, even if he told them he was fine. Their wedding was coming soon, Jem could see them excited and smiling all the time, choosing the flowers, the music, their clothes and every other detail. Will's eyes were never so bright. The couple were so thankful for Jem, at least they were still friends.
Gideon and Sophie were also engaged. Jem was happy that Sophie found a soulmate, she had finally let go of her insecurities and didn't care about her scar and job anymore. She ascended and started her shadowhunter training.
One night, they were all sitting at the table on the Institute, having dinner. James smiled briefly when Will and Gabriel were picking on each other, Will was so protective of Cecily, his little sister that was now in love. He wondered, would he ever be able to fall in love again?
Suddenly, they heard a knock on the door. Charlotte got up and opened the door. She started talking to someone, but they couldn't see the person, only hear that it was a member of the Clave saying something about a new guest. Then, Charlotte went trought a corridor leading someone direct to the bedrooms area. James didn't see the face of the guest, only her long and wavy dark brown hair with light bottom.
When Charlotte came back to the dinning room, she was holding a letter. She opened and read it, and then said:
-Katerina Dawneye is our new guest. She will live her from now on because her parents were killed in a demonhunt. Well, now she must be asleep because she was tired after the travel, and will start her train tomorrow.
-Dawneye? Is her family from Idris? - Gideon asked
-Yes, her parents worked on the Clave. Do I need to ask you to be kind with her?
-Why do you look at me when you say that, Lottie? - asked Will
-Well, when I arrived you weren't so gentle at first. - said Jem, surprising everyone. He was always quiet.
-The same with me, - said Gabriel - loosing your parents is horrible, we should make her comfortable here.
-Yes, so she can make the Institute her new home, like I did. - said Jem
