Fighting For You

By BubbleLove1234

Chapter 1


To my favorite teacher
told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed
Where are you now

To my ex-best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band
Sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now

Where are you now
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know
I won't forget you

Where Are You Now, Honor Society

Lily P.O.V.

I walked around the platform anxiously. It was my first day at Hogwarts, at least hopefully it would if I could just find my train. I'd gotten here early because I was so excited and I still hadn't managed to find Platform Nine and three quarters. Just a couple of minutes ago I had asked someone where it was, and they just laughed at me and told me there was no such thing. But there was. I just had to find it before it left me.

This would have been easier to deal with if my parents hadn't dropped me off in the parking lot and left to take my sister Petunia to her piano lessons. They would have known where my train was. They knew everything – mostly. But they weren't here, so I was left to fend for myself. Was this really what I was in for for the next seven years?

I groaned angrily, turning in circles on the spot hoping there would something, like a huge sign that pointed me in the right direction, but there wasn't. Of course not. Did the universe hate me or-

"Oomph!" I grunted while falling backwards onto the stone floor.

"Damn it!" Someone else said a few feet away.

I looked up from my spot, rubbing my back, searching for whoever I had ran into. In less than a second I found them. It wasn't difficult, seeing as he was the only one sprawled out on the floor like yours truly.

"Oh my god, I am so, so sorry!" I hurried to apologize, quickly leaving my spot on the ground and running over the boy to help him up. "Are you okay?"

He nodded. "Yeah, are you?" I nodded too.

It was odd, standing there in front of him while he peered at me closely. In other words, I was self-conscience of myself. Did I have something in my teeth, or a pussy zit? I smiled nervously, taking a step back to put some room between us. But not even then did he stop. Well, he stopped peering at me, but he didn't stop looking at me. No, now he was staring at me with a dumb expression on his face, like he was standing in front of a all-you-can-eat buffet that only served candies and other junk food.

"Um, well, I guess I'll be going then…" I muttered, wanting to escape this weird boy's creepy gaze.

"Huh?" I heard him mumble while I turned away, then, "Oh! W-wait!"

"Yes…?" I said uncertainly, stopped on the spot while I stared into his hazel eyes. They were amazing. No other boy I had ever met had eyes these beautiful or extraordinary. They were hazel, no doubt about it, but there were light specks of blue sprinkled across them and a ring of dark green around his pupils. They drew you in, making it impossible to look away or pay attention to what their owner was saying.

"Are you…" he started, but then dropped to a whisper. "…a…witch…?"

I smiled, biting my lip to hold in my joy. This wasn't just some ordinary boy. He was magical – like me. "Yes," I breathed.

And he smiled too. In fact, his whole face lit up with the kind of joy you see on children's faces on Christmas morning. "So, you're going to Hogwarts too?" He didn't even try to hide his excitement.

"Yes!" I said, jumping up in down. I felt so lucky, so happy, so free being around this boy. He had a charm about him and it only reinforced my emotions. Was I just plain lucky to have found someone to help me find the train?

"YES!" He yelled even louder, drawing the attention of near bystanders. They gave us curious expressions but didn't waste time watching us. His cheeks flushed a light pink, and I laughed. It was like we'd known each other forever; we were so friendly with one another. Regaining his composure, he smiled happily again.

"Do you want to find the train? I've been standing here for ages but I've had no luck," I offered, grabbing hold of my cart again.

"Really? But it's so easy to find-" He broke off, then turned to me. "Oh, you're a muggle-born aren't you?"

"A-a what?" I said uncertainly.

"You don't have magical parents?" He restated.

"Oh, yes, I mean no, I don't have magical parents. Or is it yes, I don't? That's always troubled me before. Which is the proper answer? It drives me insane and confuses me so-"

"Okay!" he interrupted, holding my shoulders to slow me down. This move shocked me at first, but then I smiled. This wasn't a move of embarrassment for me, this was a move to reassure me. And it was working. "Well, that's cool. I have a weak spot for muggles, so don't worry if I question you about your world every once in a while."

"So we'll be hanging out more often?" I asked, my voice dripping with hope.

He nodded. "Well, if you would like to because I would. It's always easier to make friends at a school when you already have someone to hang out with. I mean, if you think about it, if you have a friend already by your side, the two of you can make friends together, get it? But then why would I be making more friends? Wouldn't you just be hanging out with that friend that you have? Well, I guess you would need more or else you would look-"

I laughed and brought a hand up to cover his mouth. "We both need to break this habit."

"Bwat whabbit?" he said, his mouth muffled against my hand.

I pulled my hand back, wiping it on my jeans. "This rambling we both tend to do. I think it will annoy some people and might hurt our chances of making friends – together. So, agree to work on it with me?"

"Of course, but I think it's kinda cute when you do it…" he mumbled.

"What?" I asked, not quite hearing what he mumbled.

"Nothing," he said, shaking his head and returning to his cart. "Let's go find the Hogwarts Express!"

I laughed and ran after him. He was running straight towards a wall though. Was he serious? He was going to knock himself out! "Watch out!" I called after him, but it was too late. He ran right into the wall and…disappeared?

No, that couldn't be right. I walked over to where I saw him disappear, and pat the wall. It was completely solid. He should be on the ground here, knocked out cold then. There was no way he could have just…disappeared like that. It wasn't possible. There are certain rules in this world that state clearly that solid objects can't go through solid objects.

So where the hell was he?!

I stood there for awhile, growing more anxious by the moment. Nine o'clock was nearing, and if I didn't hurry, I would miss the train. There was only way I knew how to get to the train, but it was very unlikely I would go through like…whatever his name was did.

But it was the only way I knew how. I had to at least try. What was the worst that could happen? Never mind, don't answer that.

Taking a deep breath, I grabbed my cart, walked a few yards back, and, taking another deep breath, I ran straight toward the wall. The wall I knew would end up killing me. The wall that could possibly hold a world I never knew existed until a few weeks ago. The wall that was so unpredictable, it was the only thing that kept me from stopping just as I neared the wall and…

…went through.

I was through. The boy wasn't gone either. He was here, where ever here was. He was through the wall, I was through the wall, we were in the wall. How crazy is that?

And he had waited for me, ignoring the fact that I might not have ever come and he would have lost his train ride to Hogwarts. It was sweet and stupid at the same time, but I was thankful for it.

"Thanks for waiting," I said, smiling and we walked toward the steaming and hissing of the train.

"What took you so long?" He asked after we found a compartment.

"Um, well, I was kind of hesitant about running into a wall, if you know what I mean," I said, rolling my eyes. "But after a while, I figured, what the heck? What's the worst that could possibly happen, other than receiving a concussion for acting so stupid?"

He laughed at this, and I examined him carefully now that I were definitely onboard the train. As surprising as it is, I only just noticed his eyeglasses. Before, when I was studying his eyes, I'd looked right them, but now that I saw them, it was like he wouldn't be complete without them. And his hair, it was so untidy, but it made him him, more original and different. Not like other boys who tried to have the right hair and jeans so girls wouldn't exclude them from whatever list they thought there was. His nose was a little crooked, but you barely noticed the flaw, which made it not even a flaw. It made his face even more flawless.

We both jumped when the compartment door opened, and two boys stumbled inside. My eyes widened in surprise, but neither of us denied them access. One was a bit tall, a bit unusual for boys my age, with dark hair that hung perfectly around his face, highlighting his mysterious gray eyes. It was obvious this one would be an eye candy for the girls when we were older. The other was shorter with dirty blonde hair that was disheveled but looked neat at the same time and fell just below the tips of his ears.

"Oh, hey there!" the tall one said enthusiastically while taking a seat across from me. "I'm Sirius Black, and you must be…?"

"Lily Evans," I said coolly, not warming up to this stranger quite yet.

"James Potter," the boy with glasses said, grinning widely. A pang of jealousy went through me, but I ignored it. So what if there were some new assets to the compartment? That doesn't mean me and James, right? wouldn't have time together later. He had said after all that it was easier to make friends when you had a friend with you, and that we would hang out more at Hogwarts.

"Well, hey there, Lily Evans and James Potter," Sirius said heartily. "And this here is Remus Lupin. We just met but I can tell we're going to be friends already, aren't we, buddy?"

"Uh, yeah, I guess?" the blonde one said. Obviously, it hadn't been his idea to be found by this Sirius Black and dragged in here unwillingly.

"So, both of you are first years right?" Sirius said, changing the topic.

Both James and I nodded, and I couldn't help but notice the admiration in James's eyes. What could there possibly be to admire about this boy in front of me? He seemed annoying and too in your face.

"Well, what house are you going to be in?"

"Houses?" I said uncertainly, looking around at their faces. Sirius stared at me in shock, James smiling but not in the mocking way, and Remus the only one who understood my confusion.

"When you first arrive, you're put into one of Hogwarts four houses – Gryffindor, Ravenclaw, Hufflepuff, or Slytherin," he explained, smiling encouragingly. "Gryffindor is for the brave, Ravenclaw for the smart, Hufflepuff for the loyal, and Slytherin for the-"

"Evil…" Sirius muttered under his breath.

"…witty," Remus finished, ignoring Sirius's interruption.

"Gryffindor is obviously the best," Sirius said. "And that's where I am going to be. I don't care what my family says, there is no way I am joining those cold-hearted bastards!" He high-fived James, who was laughing.

"Same here, dude!" James agreed.

Remus simply nodded, implying that he agreed also.

"But what about the others? Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw don't sound bad. I mean, they are loyal and smart. Don't you want to be those too?" I said.

Sirius laughed. "Yeah, right. Just trust me on this one, Lola-"

"Lily," both James and I corrected at the same time, sharing smiles.

"Whatever. Just trust me – Gryffindor is the house you want. They're smart, brave, and overall awesome."

I was still confused, but somehow I knew he was right. Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw didn't sound exciting at all and Slytherin reminded me of snakes and spiders, the two things I hated the most in the world.

"So, James, do you know any spells yet?" Sirius asked, turning away from me to James. My mood fell even more when James became engaged in the conversation, that same admiring look in his eyes, and Remus sat there for a while, just listening. I felt completely out of the loop. It made it only worse when Remus joined their conversation.

I sighed and fell back in my seat, resorting to looking out the window. It was beautiful, yes, but boring to watch for the next hour. That didn't sound fun at all, but I didn't stop. Not until I heard rustling and saw them all getting up.

I jumped up in surprise. "W-where are you guys going?"

Sirius exchanged a look with James, one that I happened to catch. They were already having silent conversations? When had this happened? And then James nodded, making Sirius roll his eyes, but turn to me anyways.

"We're going to pull a prank on…the Slytherins," he said.

"You want to come?" James asked excitedly.

"Why? That sounds dumb. They haven't done anything to you!"

I heard Sirius snort and saw Remus elbow him in the ribs. Did I say something?

"Haven't…? Are you mentally challenged or something?!" he cried, but to my satisfaction, both James and Remus kicked him in the shins. "Sorry," he muttered. "Okay, let's get this straight, Lizzy-"

"Lily," I corrected impatiently.

"-Slytherin is a vile house of people. There hasn't been a single wizard that has been put in that house that hasn't gone bad. They end people's lives just because they feel like it. The darkest wizards in history usually come from Slytherin. So, why not prank them? It's the least we can do when you really think about it."

I snorted. "Right, but they haven't done anything to you or me or James or Remus. No one in this school would hurt anybody, so why do you want to prank them. Just because they're related to them doesn't mean they have done anything!"

Sirius rolled his eyes, not even trying to hide the look he gave James. But to my utter astonishment, James smiled sheepishly then grabbed my arm and pulled me out into the hall.

"What are you doing?" I hissed trying to pull away.

"Come on, Lily, why don't you just go along with it this time? I don't want you to sit in there by yourself," he said earnestly, looking me straight in the eyes.

I shook my head. "It's not right. How can you agree with him? Why do you want to hang out with him so bad?"

"Because he's fun and I'm trying to make new friends!" Now both hands were on my arms and his eyes were locked on mine. I could see he desperately wanted me to just go along with this prank, but I couldn't. It just didn't feel right to give in to something so dumb like this.

"No, James. This isn't my thing," I said simply, shaking my arms free from his grasp. "You can go ahead; you don't need to stop making friends just because of me. But while you do that, I'll be off finding my own friends."

I shot him one last smile (a very pathetic one probably) and walked down the hall looking for others to sit with for the rest of the ride. My heart felt like it had just been squeezed without mercy, but I couldn't give a care now. Obviously, James didn't have time to make real friends – or keep the one he had.

James P.O.V.

I watched Lily walk away not looking away until she was out of sight. It felt like I'd just taken a blow the gut and I was too dumb to realize it was going to leave a bruise.

But I didn't stay for long. I had business to take care of, business involving some very unlucky Slytherins that were just going to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Sirius led us the way towards the Slytherins he had in mind. He'd mentioned a few names, like his cousin Bellatrix and someone else named Lucius Malfoy, but I didn't really care. After hearing from Sirius himself about what his family and family friends had done in the past, I just wanted the scumbags to pay, even if it were a small price like a prank. There were for sure more to come.

"Stop!" Sirius whispered, pushing both Remus and me back into a shadowy wall, and peeking around the corner.

"Wha-?" I started but then I heard the voices.

"…definitely Slytherin. You would be an idiot not to," someone with a squeaky voice said.

"Sev!"

My heart went cold. That was Lily's voice, her sweet, angelic voice. What was she doing near these bastards? And who was Sev? Her boyfriend? No, not possible. She's too innocent to have a boyfriend, especially a Slytherin, I reasoned with myself, but still I worried.

"Er, hi," another voice said.

"I'm so glad to see you! I'm not exactly having the best start to my train ride here… But whatever!" Lily said happily. "How come we didn't come to the train station together? You promised you would wait until I was ready to leave this morning!"

"Yeah, Sev, why didn't you wait for me?" the squeaky voice imitated Lily. A rush of anger flowed inside me, and it took every bit of self-control I had to keep myself from running out of my hiding and jumping the smug prat that insulted Lily, my red headed angel.

"Oh, who are you?" Lily asked. She sounded sweet, sure, but I could hear the bitter anger buried deep within her voice.

"Why should I have to tell you? You're just a stupid mudblood."

The last word came out in slow motion for me. Mudblood. How dare he? How dare he call such a beautiful specimen that foul word? Had he no dignity at all?

Apparently, that was the final straw for my two new acquaintances also. All three of us came out of our hiding spot, glaring and wands at the ready, though I had no idea what we would do with them. None of us knew any spells.

"Leave her alone!" I hissed, taking a step toward the shortest boy. He had long hair that was so blonde, it was practically white.

"And who do you think you are?" he said. He was the squeaky voiced one, I noticed immediately.

"An enemy you don't want to make, now leave her alone or I'll…" I looked around desperately in hope I would find something to clobber this devil child with. But I found nothing except for the wand I held in my hands. It didn't seem promising, but maybe you could do more than magic with it… "I'll shove this up your nose!" It was lame, but what else could I say?

And just as I had expected, both of them burst out laughing. The other was very greasy, his long black greasy hair falling on both sides of his face lamely and his nose protruding from his face, acting like a hook above his lips.

"Shut up! You're a horrible little person and you have no right to be laughing at him right now!" It was the first time she had spoken, but Lily looked pretty worked up right now. "Are you friends with him, Sev?"

I watched in dismay as she turned towards the greasy boy, with a look of trust. She trusted this boy? How could she? He was greasy and hung out with Slytherins which meant he was mostly likely to be one himself. Was she blind?

"Er, um, yes," 'Sev' said finally. It was almost guilty the way he said it.

"Hmph, well I had better expectations, but oh well. Let's go find a compartment!" she said. My heart pummeled down to a crashing halt in my stomach. It was like I wasn't even here. Had she really meant that she didn't want to hold me back? It wasn't really that big of a deal to pull a prank. At least, not big enough for us to stop hanging out. I'd only just learned her name!

"Well, actually, I think I'll stay with-," the slimeball started, but was cut off by his friend.

"No, Severus, we should go find a compartment," the little guy said, his face distorting into an evil smile. "And bring your little…whatever she is with you, and we'll find some of my older friends. Maybe they'll have a little fun with her until the train gets to the school?"

Both Severus and I paled. What he meant by fun was beyond me, but I could tell it wasn't a good idea to let Lily out of my sight.

"No, she's-," I started, but was interrupted.

"Um, sure," Severus said, looking almost astonished at what he'd said. Lily, being the ignorant girl she was, was still smiling. Obviously, the squeaky boy's words hadn't clicked in her head yet and she was set on the possibility of making new 'friends.'

"No!" I cried. The three of them looked at me in confusion. "I mean, er, she's already sitting in a compartment with us, aren't you, Lily?" I said, hoping she would hear my desperation and pleading in my voice.

Thank Merlin, she did. "Um, yeah, right, just slipped my mind there for a second," she mumbled, staring at her porcelain hands. "I guess I'll see you around, Sev?"

He nodded, guilt and disappointment written all over his face. Ha! Not in a million years will you ever get in a compartment alone with her! I thought angrily, shooting daggers at the greasy boy.


It was quiet for the rest of train ride. Sirius was glum about not getting to pull the prank on the Slytherins. I wouldn't let him. Even when he said he would get back at them for what they said to Lily, I told him no. But there would another time for that.

Remus was fixed on ignoring everything and strictly kept his eyes on the book he'd brought along. He didn't speak once when we got back to our compartment, but I didn't blame him. The tension in the room was horrifyingly loud; it would probably drone out anyone who spoke at once.

And as for Lily and I, well we kind of just sat there across from each other. Every once in a while we would catch each other's eye, I would grin, and she would simply look away. But that was it. No talk about what happened, no "thank you for saving my arse", no angry debate how we were right and she was wrong. Nothing.

It scared the crap out of me.

I just got this angry vibe that emitted from her the whole ride. And somehow I knew it was directed towards me. I'd done something, I don't know what, but something to make her mad. But how was I supposed to fix it when I didn't know what? If I only knew what, I would do anything to get her to forgive me. She was the most precious thing I had ever seen in my life – I wasn't about to let her go that easily.