Here for you
"I'm here for you" you tell her, as she cries on your shoulder for the umpteenth time, making it pretty clear that, yeah you're here for her.
Although you feel bad for feeling this you do, you like her needing you in this way, you'd never admit it but it feels good to be needed at times like this, you've seen her or rather heard her cry once since she started working for you. Which is pretty good considering you're her boss, you would have hoped to see her cry allot more with the comments and remarks your constantly making towards her. But that just proves just how strong she is she put up with you for so long at the hospital and at home as well.
You lay down together on her bed , she facing the wall and you right behind her, she grabs your arm and wraps it tightly around her, making sure you won't leave her. As if any thing could pull you away now.
Its been 6 hours and 45 minuets since she heard the news. It took 2 hours to finally settle that he was actually gone, and the rest of the time to mourn him before she finally fell asleep. you couldn't sleep, you lay there watching her through the dark, trying to make out the fine details of her face as she slept looking at how peaceful she now looked even with a tear stained face. You had been together now for 6 months (almost exactly but whose counting) you met her brother only three times but you could see just how close they were by looking at how they were together.
Andrew and his wife Callie were killed in a fatal car crash and were pronounce dead at the seen, you wondered what would happened to poor Erin their daughter. How quickly her life had changed in just one moment, one silly avoidable mistake, her whole life would change. She only 18 months old and she will never remember her parents. You held Allison closer this time for your own comfort you needed her, this could have easily happened to you and her. On the back of the motor bike or in her car when you have taken double dose of Vicodin and had a glass of scotch. You secretly apologies to her, for putting her life in jeopardy, you apologies for not being able to do more, you apologies for any and every thing that you've done to hurt her.
It's been two and a half weeks now since Andrew and Callie were killed and the day after their funeral. Allison has stopped crying but has her quiet moments when she's thinking about her brother. Your both still in Florida at her parents house all packed an ready to head back. Your now just waiting for Allison to get back from the Attorney's office were the whole family is hearing the will been read. You offered to baby-sit Erin whose fast asleep and Allison other two nephews and niece whose names you not to sure about but one, two and three seems to work pretty good, are watching television in the living room. You hear the cars pull up in the drive way and watch as the family walk to the front door you trying to read the expression on Allison face you can't. Melissa, Allison mother seems to be sobbing on her husband shoulder and Allison two sister's seem to be hiding their feeling's and presenting them self's as calm, but Allison's usually open book reading face is expressionless.
She calls you into the bedroom when everything has settle and sits you down. Uh oh you say to your self this has got to be bad. "My brother has left custody of Erin to me" that's all you hear. Your not sure what to do at first, not sure if you should say your happy for her, because she might not be, or say that you don't won't her to because she may won't to or say something like we'll deal with this because then it may seem to her that you feel it's a problem.
Allison's not looking at you she staring at the wall waiting for your reply. "were practically living together and I think you should have a say in whether or not I should….." you can see she on the verge of crying you take her hand. " Erin needs you, and you need her" you say
"But what about you?" she asks
"I'm here for you, I'm not going anywhere" she's smiling now but the tears have still found it's way to her cheeks "I love you" she say's
You could get used to this you think to your self, Erin's is laying on your lap watching Spongebob Squarepants and Allison has her head on your shoulders stroking Erin thick dark curls, you've got your arms around them both.
"nothing can beat this" you say to Allison, and she knows you not talking about what's on TV. She leans and kisses your cheek.
"no nothing can" she replies.
TBC…
