Disclaimed.
Magnus gazed around at the familiar, and unfamiliar faces as he watched the crowd of downcast expressions. There were some people who barely seemed sad, some seemed bored, and that hurt. But there were the truly grieving faces, Isabelle's, Jace's, Maryse's, Robert's. He was invited to the funeral after Alec lost the battle to Maureen, and in that coffin, waiting to be burned, rests the man Magnus loved very much.
No one knew he and Alec had broken up, and Magnus was fine with that. Alec wasn't with him one way or another.
Magnus just threw on his blackest clothes, wiped off all his make-up and came to the funeral as invited. In Alec's last moments, while he was dying, he wrote a short note that cut off half way through. But it said to smile on his funeral day, he expects we won't cry. Some people are trying to smile, some are pulling it off without a worry, but those who really loved Alec can only blubber into each other's shoulders. Magnus knew this day was coming. He just didn't know it would happen so quickly.
He allows one tear to drop from his eyes as he says goodbye to the closed casket. Just one, as he feels his soul being ripped from his body and lost in a shred of despair and lost love.
There goes his Alec.
He'll never be near the body again, when they burn him and use his ashes to protect the living shadowhunters. This is his and Alec's last moment together. This is the end.
Magnus chuckles bitterly.
He's thrown away everything, only to lose it so far that it can't be retrieved. And now that it's gone, he wants it back.
