A.N. Hey guys or girls or other. First story up I'm not sure how I feel about it. Before you say anything yes I know really short. I didn't want to put too much in if everyone wanted to kill it with fire after they read it. It's basically one of Ginny's journal entries on how she feels for Hermione. How she doesn't know what to do with the feelings she has around her. I don't know why but I absolutely love this pairing. If you could leave a review and let me know how you feel about it that would be awesomesauce! All mistakes are my own and no one can take them from me! Let me know if you like it hate it or whatever! I give you The Diary of Ginevra Weasley.
Disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING! Well I own my laptop and the pack of gum I bought yesterday. J.K. Rowling owns the rest. We all know that if I owned any part of Harry Potter there would have been some major changes!
I remember when things we're normal. Well as normal as you could get in a school full of witches and wizards. I didn't have to plan which route I would take to avoid her. We used to talk between classes like normal friends do. I don't think I ever saw it coming really. The feelings that just wouldn't stay down and let me be normal. She never used to make me feel this way. I wish I could blame Ron, but the truth is I know it's my fault. I should have hidden it better, or maybe I should have stopped hanging around them long before now.
I never could help that stupid smile that she always caused. She didn't even have to speak to me. I just had to see her and boom there it is. I swear if I didn't have Luna to pull me out of her spell I think I would still be in front of the potions room. That's where it all started by the way. Where I realized I felt more for her than friendship. I know for a fact that Luna saved me that day. I almost made a complete fool of myself when I saw her walking with Ron. I was so jealous, but the thing is I had no idea why.
If Luna hadn't stopped me from walking over to them I don't know what I would have done. All I know is that it would have been bad. I've never hated one of my brothers before and that scared me. Mum would have a fit if I got into a fight with one of them, especially on school grounds. I would have been in real trouble when I couldn't explain why I started the fight in the first place. I certainly couldn't tell her it was because I was upset he was holding her hand. That even made me wonder what is wrong with me. I mean their just holding hands for crying out loud! It's not like they were all over each other!
I'm positive if they were I would have lost it. Ronald would be in St. Mungo's from one of my best hexes. I don't think I would feel guilty about it either. That's the scary part, I shouldn't hate Ron. I guess that's another thing that she has changed about me. I avoid her at all costs now. I can't stand to see her around him anymore. It's gotten to the point where I miss meals and Harry is upset that I've missed so many practice sessions. How can I play with my head in the game when all I can hear is her cheering for him?
I know it's not fair to Ron or Harry but I've stopped talking to them too. I just can't bother with trying to be happy and joke around with them anymore. It's too much effort and it leaves me feeling worse than I felt when they started talking to me. I don't think it will ever get better. I might just have to find a whole new set of friends. Ones that don't have to constantly talk about "The Golden Trio". Maybe then I can start to feel something other than hurt when I see them. I know it's not fair but I can't help it.
I don't know if I can ever talk to her again. I always seem to lose the ability to function, even on the most basic level, when she's around me. I can' tell you how many walls I've walked into, or how many stones I've tripped over. All she has to do is look at me and I turn into a blubbering fool. I think I would have gone insane by now if not for Luna. She always seem to pull me back from the edge of stupidity. She really is my best and only friend. I've come to accept it rather easily. If I just tak to Luna and no one else, I have less of a chance to say something stupid.
Hermione Granger has me under some sort of spell I'm sure of it. I just don't know how to break it. I don't think I will be able to, I mean she is the best of the best. She excels in everything. I couldn't even begin to understand how to break this spell even if I tried. Maybe if I play it safe and stay away from her it will wear off soon. I mean she can't keep it up forever can she? Can she?
