Mikau: Hello and welcome! Thanks for taking a moment to check out my work! "Kaihaku" means "Grey/Light Grey" in Japanese, so that's where the title comes from. This is basically where I'm going to dump all of my short HakuKai stuff. Whenever I get writer's block, I try writing exercises, like writing from prompts. These shorties are the result. That being said, these are things I've written when I'm not at my best, so please don't be too harsh on them. I was just going to let them sit around, but a friend encouraged me to publish them, and you guys are always so supportive and seem to genuinely enjoy my stories, so I hope you like these as well. Thanks, and on with the show!
Disclaimer: Really, I just like to pretend that this is all mine. I mean, I wish I owned these boys. Sadly, that is not the case; however, the law allows me to take them out to play occasionally.
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Another Selfish Episode
"Don't look at me like that," Kaito whined, picking up the chemistry text that had been on the table in front of his roommate and pushing it into Hakuba Saguru's face.
"Like what?" Saguru chuckled, pushing the book away so that he could continue to gaze at his mate.
"Like you think I'm wonderful," the magician snorted.
"I do think you're wonderful," Saguru replied softly, smiling lovingly at the man he regrettably adored. "You are wonderful."
Kaito rolled his eyes. "Stop. Seriously. I'm not your boyfriend, and I don't wanna be. I explained this whole 'friends with benefits' thing before I started sleeping with you, so stop fawning over me like a lovesick puppy."
"I understand the terms of our agreement." Saguru shrugged. "As long as you don't bring anything home with you, I don't mind the fact that you have other partners. I don't see how it's any concern of yours that I choose to treat this as a monogamous relationship."
"It's not a relationship," Kaito growled, getting up and tossing his cereal bowl in the sink. "It's more of a business transaction."
Saguru smirked at Kaito's turned back. "It sounds like you're the one with the issue here. I'm perfectly happy this way, holding on to the delusion that someday you'll get tired of roaming and settle down with me."
"Hakuba. Stop. It," Kaito snarled as he gripped the edge of the counter with both hands until his knuckles turned white. "I don't belong to you. We are NOT in a relationship. I'm not gonna settle down."
"You already have," Saguru chuckled, coming up from behind and wrapping his arms around his beloved. "You're not seeing anyone else. You haven't for months, Kaito. Before you and I started up this series of 'business transactions', as you call them, I recall that you had five or six different 'friends'. In the first month after you and I started seeing each other…physically at least, your number of partners dropped from six to three, including myself. Only a few weeks after that, I was the only one left."
Kaito's grip on the countertop loosened, and his arms fell down to his sides, yet he didn't say a word.
"Despite the little charade you've been putting on for almost a full year now, I know you've only been seeing me. You're just scared of commitment, Kaito…. Regardless, we can keep playing this little game, if it makes you feel more at ease. Please, if it suits you, we can continue to pretend for the rest of our lives. We can live wherever you like, and I'll buy us whichever house you like best—even two or three, if you wish—and you can continue to go out on 'dates' whenever you need your alone time. So long as you come home to me, I can live with whatever little fantasy world you feel the need to create for yourself…because I love you, Kuroba Kaito, and I know that you love me too, even though you're afraid to admit it."
With a quick kiss on the neck, Saguru released Kaito and set about cleaning up the dishes.
Kaito frowned. He had spent the majority of his life hiding his true self from most people. Never before had he felt so transparent than in that moment.
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Mikau: Thanks again for reading, guys. I hope you enjoyed it. Please let me know what you thought, and have a safe and fun New Year's! As for me, I plan on finding a site where I can watch the Kohaku Song Battle and eating some tangerines. Then I'm hitting up the gym. -.- I just know it's gonna be crowded. Sigh. Take care, guys!
