Letting you almost slide on by, like I didn't want you… like I never needed you… well, that's my first mistake – but I'll try to make it my last.

I'll try to make it the only one.

/

He answers the door, but I only see you and the slant of your solemn face.

Oh, you don't want to let me in and, yet, you can't let me go – if we were further along, I'd tell you that you are not the first to look at me that way… but that secret is not for this night.

There are other mysteries to solve tonight.

/ /

I tell you one story and it is true.

But I tell you another one and it is even more honest – along the edge of my eyes, a terror long held… an innocence that I didn't even know I had, hanging from my lips…

You could turn me away, if you wanted. You could break this all down and lead me to ruin… if you wanted, if you were that type of girl, if you were as wounded as I…

But no, not you.

You are not the one to shatter me.

You are the one to make me whole.

/ / /

He doesn't say a word and I like him more for that than anything.

And your hand is a raft in this ocean, each wave carrying us further from shore – I'll hang on to you for as long as I can… no matter heat or rain, no matter sharks and starvation… I'll hang on to you.

And I swear, like my heart is brand new, to never set you free.

/ / / /

You are shy and still pushing against me, as if I am the very wall of all your longing – so I push back, I push you back and I am covering you and I am dipping under the layers… your skin, your soul…

I am diving deep into you.

And that's where you save me, that's where I finally settle and breathe again.

That's where I come undone, tethers set loose, expanding and stretching wide – all the way to the horizon, all the way to the end of the world.

You are bold and brush-stroked, lips to my body like lips to wine – and don't hide from me, don't ever run away, don't find another lover, don't ever give this to someone else… oh, I can't share you… I cannot ever share you with some other.

Because you are here and you are now and you are bleeding out into my life, becoming everything…

/ / / / /

Letting you almost slide on by, like I didn't adore you… like I never loved you…

That's a mistake I hope I never make.

With your sleepy face and your hair on my pillow and your arm warm around my waist… that's a mistake I never want to make…

/ / / / / /

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