Someone once said " if you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave the world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with."

" In a world filled with hate we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger we must still dare to comfort. IN a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust we must still dare to believe."

You are probably wondering who is stupid enough to still dare to do anything in this world who would write something so untrue. Well that would be me my name is Spencer Symphony Carlin. I am a 19 year old composer I say composer becasue I do not just write books. It is a Shame when someone does not even believe their own words. I lost all hope and faith a long time ago. Do not get me wrong I live a charmed life but sometimes I would just like to be normal and come from a normal family. Here let me give you a little background............

My father is Reverend Author Carlin yes he is a preacher wait not just any preach a pentecostal preacher if you do not know what that is look it up you would feel sorry for me too. My mother is Paula Carlin. I have two Brothers Glen and Clay they are also both preachers they both moved away and are on the misson feilds in Africa. So that leaves me the only daughter alone at home with my two controling parents. They made us all to be great that is what we heard when we were growing up being forced into music lessons and extra tutoring classes. I wrote my first song when I was 3 yes only three I could put music to it on any instrument also. By the time I was four They annouced that I was a chlid prodigy I could play any instrument as if I had been playing for years. At the age of six I wrote my first child story. It was called THE DAY I RAN AWAY FROM HOME. Ha they should have realised something then. Since then I have played in frint of millons of people for the Queen The president anyone you could imagine. I have published 13 child stories and 6 novels. So you can say I am tired I have never just been able to live a normal life. That is until I decided I was going to attend college like a normal person. I know what you are thinking why do you need to go to clollege if you have already accomplished so much. It is simple actually i want to do something that is just for me.

My parents did not take this well but they will get over it. Paula is probably going to fake a heart disese or something I mean come on I will still be living at home.

I was accepted into Ivy League schools however I will be attendeing UNO because it is right up the road from my house so its a win win for now.

Tommorow is my first day and to say I am excited is an understatement I have never had friends before because I was always on the road. I never attened school because the same I was home schooled. So this is a new exsperience for me and I am ready. Maybe I will turn this into my next book it sounds good already... Well it is time for bed i have to be upo for the big day tommorow.

The next morning

Gahndi once said " Live as if you were to die tomorrow and learn as if you were to live forever."

Knowlege is the key to the world you would think I am somekind of genious well I really am I have an IQ of 250. However even I know there are still things in life that one should know. There are the things we can be taught and the things that we have to learn from exsperience. For example you cannot be taught to love you can not be told how Love feels it is just something unexplanable I have always said Love was not for me. I never want to get married for the simple fact my mother always told me women were made for man so it is our job to do as they is probably why ahe is a miserable person. I am made to follow God so why can I not do that with out man. My mom always said there is something wrong with me I should be married with children by now however I have never looked at a boy in that way. Maybe there is something wrong with me.

Anyway I tend to get caught up in my thoughts alot. Today I arrived at school so excited only to be trampled over by students running to class late or trying to find their friends. One guy actually knocked me over I have never been good with crowds yes I know i play in front of crowds I mean I am not a fan of people bumping into me or being bunched up. As I am picking My stuff up still being knocked around by people I see her.........