A/N: I started this ages ago, and finally decided to finish it! Songfic to Coldplay's Fix You. Oh, and I don't own American Idiot or Coldplay!


When you try your best but you don't succeed,
When you get what you want but not what you need

Jimmy was still king in their minds, but not in his own. King of what? He thought bitterly. He was nothing anymore. Nothing but a washed up addict who couldn't stop. Who had lost the only thing he ever loved.

When you feel so tired and you can't sleep,
Stuck in reverse.

Jimmy held the needle to the vein in his elbow, the familiar pinch of it going in no longer sending him a wave of comfort like it used to, but rather a wave of guilt and shame. Why couldn't he stop? He collapsed on to the mattress, wishing for nothing but dreamless, endless sleep.

And the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can't replace

Johnny was lost. He tried to tell himself that this was for the best, but he needed him. Nothing else mattered anymore. He was wandering, a lone sailor in the massive waves that tossed him around and sent him nowhere.

When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

He didn't think anything could be worse. Tunny and Will tried to cheer him up, but all he did was plaster on a smile and let his mind drift back to the happy memories. Happy memories with him.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

They both needed each other. They were a world apart, grieving the loss of one another. Drowning in shame and misery, they craved one another's presence.

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go

They had been in love. Head over heels in love, actually. All Jimmy saw was Johnny; all Johnny saw was Jimmy. They were two halves and when they made a whole, it was as if time had stopped. It was as if they were the only two people on earth.

But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Jimmy had to at least try. Try to find the one thing that made him feel. The one thing that took away all the numbness and sadness.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Johnny wandered the empty streets, trying to find something to distract him from the pain. He kicked a crushed soda can across the street, its loud clatter breaking the loud silence pounding in his head. He was about to kick his can through a dark alleyway when he heard a noise from within. At first he thought it was just an animal scavenging for food, but as he listened more closely, he realized it was a person. And they were crying.

"Hello?" he called out into the darkness.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Jimmy sat, collapsed against the brick wall of an alleyway on the outskirts of Jingletown. He didn't even know if Johnny was still there. He could've moved on by now. For all Jimmy knew, he could be dead. He slumped down even further against the wall, letting the tears he had held back for so long fall freely until he heard a voice calling out to him.

"Hello?" the person asked. Jimmy's eyes went wide; he knew that voice. He'd never forget that voice. He walked closer to the person, unsure of what he wanted to find standing before him.

"Johnny?"

Tears stream down your face
And I…

Johnny's heart nearly stopped when he saw the man he once loved standing in front of him.

"Jimmy," he whispered, stepping closer. He reached out and touched Jimmy's cheek, checking to make sure he was real and that it wasn't all a dream. He couldn't resist any longer. He wrapped his arms around the skinny, fragile man.

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

"Johnny," Jimmy said again, looking into the eyes he hadn't seen in so long. He lifted his arms to show the track marks and scars. "Johnny, I need your help. I need you."

Tears stream down your face
And I…

Johnny held his love in his arms. Jimmy's shoulders shook as he let out all he had been holding back since they had last seen one another. Johnny leaned in and kissed the side of his head gently.

"I'll never let go, Jimmy," he whispered in his ear. "I'll try. I'll fix you."

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.


A/N: That song never fails to make me cry :'(

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