A/N: I do not own Instant Star or any characters here within. The song "I'm Not That Girl" is on the Wicked Soundtrack. Umm that's about it. Oh yea. There's a second part to this. It's called "So Much For Pretending"
Jude, the fiery former red head sat in the studio watching her sister, Sadie, and her producer/best friend/love of her life, Tommy make out. She started to hum a soft melody then started to strum some light guitar with a bit of a rock edge. Tommy looked up from his Malibu Barbie at Jude and spoke "You got something down?"
"No, just playing around" She lied. "I'm just going to go home okay, so you get on whatever it is you were getting on." With that she left Studio A and got in her car and drove off. She went home and perfected her song. When she got done it was about 6:12 and she had a performance at 7.
She left and drove to the Vinyl Palace, where she was performing. When she got there Portia immediately dragged her into her dressing room. When Portia was done Jude was dressed in faded dark blue jeans and a purple halter-top. Jude had light pink eye shadow on and some glittery lip-gloss. She got onto the stage and the crowd screamed; she looked around and saw Tommy and Sadie making out, that's when she decided that instead of getting mad she was going to get revenge. So after the allotted set, which was '24 hours' 'Stupid Girl' 'It Could Be You' 'My Sweet Time' and 'Overrated' she did her bows with the Speiderman Boys and let them exit. Jude stayed in place though, and Speed gave her an odd glance, she just nodded her head as a response. She went over to the stagehand and got an acoustic guitar.
Jude floated over to the microphone and spoke delicately into it, "Since you all have been such a great audience I'm going to sing a new song for you. I wrote it just today so it's still a little rough. It's called "I'm Not That Girl" and it's about two people close to me." She strummed some soft guitar then it got progressively harder. Her heavenly voice filled the Vinyl Palace for the last time that night, while she stared intently on Sadie and Tommy.
Hands
touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a
giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl
Don't
dream too far
don't lose sight of who you are
don't
remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that
girl
Ev'ry
so often we long to steal
to the land of what-might-have-been
but
that doesn't soften the ache we feel
when reality sets back in
Blithe
smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair
with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven
knows
I'm not that girl
Don't
wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born
for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her
so
I'm not that girl...
She finished the song and stepped off the stage with tears in her eyes. Darius flew up to her screaming about something then had a lighter tone when he reached Jude.
"Jude that was WONDERFUL! You HAVE TO RECORD THAT!" Darius beamed until he realized she was crying. "That was about Quincy wasn't it?" When Jude didn't answer Darius scowled "If you want me to break him and your sister up, I will."
"No! If they break up I want it to be because of them… not you." Jude looked around awkwardly "I mean I don't want them to break up, I just want them to be happy" Darius looked unconvinced
" Well as I've said before, take care of the coach, the coach will take care of you. So if you ever want anything, come to me." Jude just nodded and Darius walked off. She saw Tommy and Sadie coming and they both looked a mix of angry, hurt, and worried. Jude saw them but turned away and hauled ass out of there and into her dressing room. She locked the door, slid down the wall and cried her eyes out until she fell asleep.
Outside of her door there was Sadie and Tommy, they heard her crying and trashing her room out of rage. They tried to get in but found the door locked. Sadie looked at Tommy worried. When she faced him she saw he had tears in his eyes. "Tom, she's just being over dramatic, nothing to be worried about." Sadie said trying to convince herself more than him.
"No! Sadie you don't understand! I love her!" Tommy gasped and covered his mouth. Sadie looked at him knowingly
"I know; I was just hoping that you would come to love me too. But I guess I was just fooling myself." Darius stormed in
"Where's Jude!" Tommy just nodded his head in the direction of her dressing room. A single tear slid down his cheek and he walked off. Sadie watched him with sad eyes but an idea forming in her head.
