Author's Note:

Well I originally did not intend for this to become a series, but it kind of has!

So, here's a list of the segments of this "series" I plan to be writing:

1) Reflections – complete

2) Recession – complete

3) Regret – in progress

4) Rapture – coming soon

5) Revenge – coming soon

6) Reunion – coming soon

NOTE: This one isn't my favorite, but I still thought it was important to explain how Mahone felt going through withdraw.

Recession

The pain of withdraw is hard to properly put into words. The craving, so intense, it takes my breath away.

Without the pills to suppress my nightmares, everything seems to come out into the light. I am being haunted by my past. Visions of those I have murdered are always before my eyes. Some are more realistic than others.

The hallucinations are the worst. That psycho, Patoshik, whispers in my ear that I must kill Michael Scofield because he cannot be trusted. Every time I close my eyes I see David Apolskis' face. I can still here him begging me not to kill him.

Night is always the worst. I cannot sleep. My nightmares become intermingled with the sounds of Sona, making them so real that I find myself trembling. If I try to go to sleep, they come for me. Some of them try to kill me, and the others come to simply torture me with guilt.

If the emotional stress of it all was not enough, the lack of pills leaves me frail and defenseless. My body convulses at random times. The shaking can get so intense that I am afraid I'll end up hurting myself. I sweat constantly, yet at the same time I shiver with a cold that feels as if it reaches down to the marrow of my bones. My stomach twists in knots so I cannot keep any kind of food down.

I don't know if I will make it. I'm not sure I can. Not sure I should. So many people want me dead. I guess I would be doing everyone a favor. Maybe then they will all leave my family alone.

The temptation to end this suffering is so strong it's scary. I never was a suicidal man. But just the thought of being free. Free from my guilt, my pain…this relentless torture.

But deep down I still know I have to live. I need to make sure that my family is okay. I need to know that they are safe. I'll get them somewhere far away from all of this and far away from me.

And after that…

Please review!! And keep watch for "Regret." I may write it today or tomorrow.