He was gone... Why did he have to die? Why did everyone keep dying? Why did everyone she loved leave her? Was it too much to ask that for once that someone stayed that they didn't leave once she fell in love with them? What was wrong with her? First Angle then Parker then Rylie and now finally Spike. Spike the only one that was always there for her even when they were enemies he always came back always. She could always count on him being there no matter how hard she tried to shove him away. When her friends betrayed her he was the only one that stayed on her side. He the one she treated like dirt like he was no better than the scum on her shoes all for what? Because her friends wouldn't like it if she was dating Spike? The same friends that kicked her out of her own home when things got hard. It shouldn't of matter to her what they thought they weren't her friends if they were against her being happy, and last time she cheeked friends didn't kick you out of your own home because they didn't like the way you were doing things after YOU gave them somewhere to stay, YOU put food on the table, YOU saved their asses over and over again, and after YOU died for them. She wished she could go back in time and change it all. "I love you" "no you don't but thanks for saying it" he died believing she didn't love him, but she did she truly did. She kicked herself for taking so long to realize she loved him. She always had that's why even though she had so many chances to kill him she never did it was the same reason he never killed her somewhere deep down they both knew that they were meant to be. She wished that she could go back in the past and screw what her friends thought of her and been with Spike the way she wanted to so when she said I love you he believed it. With that final thought everything went blank.
*Elsewhere*
Revenge demons felt a girls pain; it screamed at them calling for them to do has the girl wished. To make the pain go away. To do something that would give this girl who deserved true happiness what she wanted. They had no choice, but to do has she wished they sent her back to the past it was up to her to find the happiness she wanted, the happiness she needed.
***Back to Buffy***
Buffy woke up naked laying on top of Spike in the house they first had sex in. has she looked around the room she realized she was in the past, she had a chance to change things. She laid her head back down on his chest enjoying the moment while she could. She let her memories take her back to that day. She remembered waking up and freaking out, then going home. Spike coming to her house looking for his lighter she had taken. Social services visiting, her tuning invisible. Wait social services she had to get home and fast she couldn't let what happen last time happen this time. She went to get up when Spikes arms tightened around her "where do you think you're going pet." she heard him say as his hands moved to rest on her ass pressing her core against his dick. "Has much as i would like to continue down this path i have to go social services are coming to talk about Dawn today." his hands moved again so that he hugged her to him before his grip slowly lessened and he let her go completely. She got up and searched the room for her clothes. "You know the only thing better than killing a slayer is fucking one." she heard him say has he watched her get dressed. "you're a pig" she replied out of habit. She was completely dressed except for underwear which she knew he had. She walked over to where he still lay completely naked and straddled him before leaning down and giving him a kiss. "goodbye Spike" with that she got up and left.
