2/3 Earth Time


From: Kaidan Alenko

Hey, Shepard,

I'm so happy that you are still alive. I know this may sound understated, but I don't know what else to say. You survived, Shepard, you are too lucky to even be called lucky. I can only say, this is a miracle.

Normandy crashed on a terrestrial planet, Liara told me it's called Rubitol, Ruby in English. Speaking of which, I can't help but remember the scenes when we fled from the solar system…Oh man, you should see that. The whole universe is glowing red. It is a beautiful scene, and not many has the chance to lay their eyes on it. I witnessed the end of this great war, but somehow, I'm not proud of it.

Nightmares have been hunting me ever since we landed here. I woke up in the midnight, finding no one to turn to. Sometimes I dreamed about my parents, sometimes the sudden darkness I fell into on Mars, but most of the time, I dreamed about you. There's a scene keeping showing up in my dream. I can see the piercing light from the beam, the bullets are falling from the sky, the rain, the blood…Watching you leaving me behind is the most painful moment in my life, and even more unbearable when I realized that this is forever. I know we are soldiers, we have duty on our shoulders. You were there saving the world from Reapers, but somehow I wished it wasn't you. Everybody can be on that mission, anybody, just not you. I know I'm being selfish, but I don't care if other people died or lived, Shepard, I just want YOU alive.

I'm the one who placed your name on that memorial wall, with my own hands. The coldness from stone cracked into my bones, I would never forget that feeling.

I couldn't fall back to sleep after the bad dreams last night, and I've been thinking a lot. I remember the sanity check back on Citadel. Oh god, I must have looked like an idiot. But to be honest, that's the bravest thing I have ever done in my life. I may looked like a fool, but I never regret it. Now I've got myself the best commander, alone with a living boyfriend. I'm done with holding back my feelings, since now that everyone have learnt about us.

Admiral Hackett said they have started the rebuilding program of Citadel and the Mass Relays, We are also trying to fix the Normandy. EDI went offline for several days but now Joke gets her back online. She and Samantha have been helping a lot. They do know the ship, don't they?

Shepard, your victory and survival give a hope to the whole Universe, and also to me. I know you won't be able to see this mail anytime soon, but I will wait for you, okay? If we are lucky enough to Normandy back on running, I will go to find you.

Thanks to god that you are still alive.

Kaidan


The ending of the Mass Effect 3 has torn me apart. They made such a perfect match! I still couldn't clam down weeks after play through the game, and can't help but crying every time I think about them. Hope writing these stories can bring me some peace.

There will be five mails and an afterstory. This is my first ME fanfic and also I am not a native-English speaker so there may be many mistakes in my fic, sorry about that.

If you like my work or want to discuss about the story, the game, or just the two of them, you are more than welcomed to reach me. Please leave your comments or criticism and enjoy this.