Chapter 1

EPOV

It has been 80 years since I left my heart, and the love of my life behind, so she could have a long happy human life away from the danger that I embody. So she could move on and find someone to die with something I couldn't give her. The first couple of years were the worst; the pain was too much to bear. I moved away from my family. I didn't want them to suffer at my cost for my mistakes. These last few years Alice and Esme convinced me to come back.

I'm an empty shell compared to what life was when I was with B... Bella. All my emotions have gone numb; at least it was better than feeling the heart splitting pain of losing her.

Today Alice was dragging me to the mall with her to get me out of the house. I convinced her to let me go to the music store, so I could replace all the CDs I destroyed because everything reminded me of her. In the store I walked numbly to the classical section when I heard the most angelic voice come from the speakers. It was so familiar but at the same time so strange, you could hear the pain and grief in her voice, and the passionate way she sang.

("Just Like A Pill" by Pink you should listen to it I think. but that's just what I think)

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me I think I took too much I'm crying here, What have you done? I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support, There's a shortage in the switch, I can't stay on your morphine, Cuz its making me itch I said I tried to call the nurse again But she s being a little bitch, I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can To the middle of nowhere To the middle of my frustrated fears And I swear you're just like a pill Instead of makin' me better, You keep makin' me ill You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me This must be a bad trip All of the other pills, they were different Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support, There's a shortage in the switch, I can't stay on your morphine, Cuz its making me itch I said I tried to call the nurse again But she s being a little bitch, I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can To the middle of nowhere To the middle of my frustrated fears And I swear you're just like a pill Instead of makin' me better, You keep makin' me ill You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can To the middle of nowhere To the middle of my frustrated fears And I swear you're just like a pill Instead of makin' me better, You keep makin' me ill You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support, There's a shortage in the switch, I can't stay on your morphine, Cuz its making me itch I said I tried to call the nurse again But she s being a little bitch, I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can To the middle of nowhere To the middle of my frustrated fears And I swear you're just like a pill Instead of makin' me better, You keep makin' me ill You keep makin' me ill (3x).

I went to the front desk and asked, "Excuse me, would you mind telling me who was singing?" I tried my best to dazzle her it seemed to work.

"That's the new band, Twilight, that was their lead singer Bella," she answered in daze.

I was petrified Be... Bella? It couldn't be, my Bella is... dead. "Do you have their CD available, by any chance?" I asked hoping she did.

"Sure we have their first CD and their most recent, which would you like?" she asked trying too hard to be attractive.

"Both" I answered quickly.

She smiled and I paid for them. I hurried to find Alice, she was right outside, "I knew you wanted to go, so what did you get?" She asked eyeing the bag I had clutched to my chest.

"Later" I said quietly, I knew I shouldn't get my hopes up, but I knew it was shining in my eyes, and she saw it. She was bouncing with excitement. On the drive home all I could think was; 'is this really my angel? My love? My Bella?'