Everything was cold as I first awoke. I only knew that I lost you.

It couldn't be real. But the pain is real. What had grown in me then was gone. An absence, an emptiness, a chasm of thought. I feel the pain.

And I still can't help but want to see you.

I want to see you, I have to see you, I need to see you!

My soul was entrusted to you and you alone. The flowers, they finally bloomed in the pond. But you were not there. I looked upon the beautiful blossoms shining light onto the world. "Unstained," you called it. "Our destiny."

And yet I can't do anything. I scream, I struggle, I die. But I come back for you.

I want to die. I want to throw myself off the cliff. But I want to see you! I live, I dodge the cliff.

I'm not worth anything. The memories of a lifetime ago, they are both me and not me!

I don't know myself.

Why can't I be myself?

I killed my best friend today. He said he would kill me.

He was like my brother. He showed me the light amid the darkness.

And he gave to me far more than you ever gave.

So why did I kill him!? To live to see you? You haven't helped me, you've only made me suffer! But I can't help but want to see you!

You betrayed me.

But I can't help it...

I can't help it...

But the fact is...

You are the only one who can...

Release me.

I gave my soul to you. Will you let go?


A/N: Just a Kanda drabble. I was nearly weeping at the last chapter. R&R plz.

Disclaimer: I don't own DGM.