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Warnings: Well, it's slash. So yeah. If you're on here reading this and you hate slash, get off :)
- Sirius loves Remus but it's unrequited... or is it?
"Can I speak to you?"
"Sure," I answered, putting down my book. Sirius looked frightened, nervous. He looked around warily.
"Umm, somewhere private..." he said quietly. I nodded.
"We'll go up to our dorm. James and Peter are in detention anyway," I said, getting up. Sirius followed me upstairs. Once we enetered the room, I closed the door and turned to face him. "So, what did you want to say?"
He hesitated. "Umm, well I kind of wanted to say that I-" he stopped.
"That you what?" I asked. He looked down at his feet, and stayed silent for a minute.
"I really really like you, Remus," he said quietly. I was confused.
"Aww, well I like you too, Padfoot," I said, smiling. He frowned.
"No, I mean I REALLY like you," he said. I then realised what he meant.
"Oh. Like in what way? Like a friend or.. more?" I asked.
"M-more," he said, keeping his eyes on his feet. "A lot more."
I bit my lip. I hadn't been expecting this. Not at all.
"Ah, cool," I simply replied, smiling at him.
"D-Do you, you know... feel the same way?" he asked nervously. My heart sank very low inside me. He was my best friend, nothing more. What was I supposed to say?
"Er-"
"Because I know you feel the tingling when we touch, I can see it in your smiles. And your eyes brighten when you see me, so, do you?"
"Sirius, I-" I felt terrible. "I didn't mean to lead you on. I don't feel the same way. I'm so sorry," I said, and I truly meant it.
"Yes, you do. I know you do," he said, putting his hands on my shoulders and shaking me. "Just admit it."
"Sirius. Really, I don't. I'm straight."
"Well Remus, everyone's straight until they're not," he said, hope clear in his eyes. I looked down.
"That may be, but I'm still straight. I didn't realise that you thought I... Liked you in that way. I love you, really. But only as a friend," I said, trying not to hurt him. He smiled at me.
"But that can change, can't it?" he asked, looking into my eyes.
"Um-" I didn't want to hurt him any more, but I didn't want to lead him on either. "Well, it's possible, but very unlikely."
"But, you could like me?"
"I don't think so, Sirius," I said. I saw the hurt wash over him. I felt so bad, but there was nothing I could do. "I'm really sorry." I pulled him into a hug (a friendly one) and I heard him sigh.
"I'll wait for you then," he said.
"Don't wait for something that won't happen," I said, knowing I was killing him inside. It was clear on his face.
"Right, well, I'll just go to bed, then," he said, his voice breaking slightly. I watched him as he walked over to his bed and slipped under his covers fully dressed. I heard the quiet sobs of the shaking figure of my best friend.
I knew that I'd never feel the same way. Ever.
Based this one on a true life experience. I fell for my best friend who is straight. Not great, I'll tell you :/
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