dedication: Happy Birthday, Michelle dear! i forgot if you actually had a prompt for this but whatever you will take this gift!fic anyway AND YOU WILL LIKE IT. and yeah this is like a bajillion years late but whatever.
disclaimer: disclaimed.

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run to the lights of the city

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a clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass
and I drown in you again

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Sometimes, there are people who welcome death, with outstretched arms and weary grins.

Sometimes, Natsu feels like one of these people.

And truly, it is unimaginable that someone like him could even begin to comprehend the level of sorrow these individuals experience.

Still, he does.

But then there are his friends, Erza and Happy, even Gray.

And then there's Lucy.

And he doesn't really care about anything other than his friends; there is no lifetime in which he could possibly want to outlive any of them. (Lucy especially.)

Natsu wears a glass mask that shatters easily behind locked doors and closed curtains. But as long as there is a bright and shining smile on Lucy's prettypretty face, he swears he'll keep grinning until the day his lips decay.

He sees five thousand faces a day.

Five thousands smiles,

but only one that really mattered.

As he sits on her window sill and stares blankly at the sparkling city lights, Natsu reaches out to the darkness a shaky hand and watches the world through numbing fingers.

He scrutinizes the guilty appendage, from the scarred and tattered palm to the hard and calloused fingertips. And then he wonders when his warm, beautiful magic began to remind him of crematory flames.

Heavy lids close uncertainly, and he lets his hand drift slowly back to his side. Suddenly he feels like running, somewhere. Anywhere.

Lucy reaches out.

He stops.

Those iridescent brown eyes shine accusingly in the moonlight.

It takes one word, one breath—

"Stay."

—and his mind is racing through blinding lights.

Natsu locks the window behind him.

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if our love's insanity
why are you my clarity?

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notes: i'm sorry it's so short. and sucky. i am seriously suffering from some major writer's block lately. anyway, your moon slut loves you okay darling.
and yeah dark!natsu is way ooc but you know what, shut up.