a Twilight fan fic

Hi ya all! So this is my new twilight fanfic! I so got fed up with that other one and the biggest writer's block of my life so I thought I'd give it an other shot since I realized that I wouldn't want things to go the way they went in the Choice. I hope I do better with this, so without further ado, here it goes!

So this is set during new moon and starts at the ride to Bellas house just after the cliff diving incident before Edwards's phone call. It has been a while since I've read New Moon so the plot doesn't probably perfectly add up with it, sry!

AHH I have to say I really don't understand the ratings since I do not understand everything in English since it is not my mother tongue, but I have to warn you all, there will be hot lemons in this text probably, so enjoy ;)

BPOV

I felt like shit. I guess that's how you feel after you jump of a cliff and fall a sleep in wet clothing. Oh well. So, here I was, in Jakes rabbit, resting my head on his shoulder while he drove, deep in thought just like he seemed to be. So cliff diving, I thought. What I stupid, stupid idea that was. Shit. Well, I did get to see and hear Edward. Yeah.. But he isn't really here. I mean, he did leave me like umm so long ago. And I have Jacob. Perfect, beautiful, safe Jacob, who I love. I do. I love him so much. It's just.. Well what is it about? He wasn't coming back. And Jakes right here, in my arms, and he's not going anywhere. He loves me. He needs me. He wants me. And I love him. So what's the deal?

I realized that if I were to move my face a little bit, I could kiss his neck. A simple gesture, but he'd know what it ment. That I was starting to be ready to move on. Is that what it would mean?

Then I felt him silently pull away and at inhumanly speed open up my car door. I slowly got up, thinking. He looked down at me with he's gorgeous chocolate brown eyes and I felt my self swallow. Judging by the expression on his face, there was no more time for thinking.

JPOV

I slowly and unwillingly pulled away from Bella and ran to open the car door for her. The whole ride I had thought about kissing her. What would it feel like? What would it feel like for her? What would it mean for her? Most importantly, would she let me kiss her?

I was so done overthinkig things with her. Here she was, hand in hand with me, looking sweet as hell, ass always. Her hair a mess, her eyes tired, her clothes dirty. But man, was she beautiful.

Before I realized it, I had put my left hand on her neck. She didn't look like she was going to back away. I don't think I could cope with that. An other rejection. But no, she didn't look horrified even when I started slowly pulling her face to mine.

As my face was only inches away from hers, she bit her lip ever so slightly, and I froze for a sec. Then she just opened her lips the tiniest bit and I knew. She wasn't going to back away.

I growled and pushed my lips to hers with force. I felt her lips curve into a small smile. She wanted me. Whoa. There was an overwhelming amount of passion in our kiss. Our lips moved together beautifully. It was a feeling I'd never felt before. She kissed me back while I pushed her to the side of my rabbit and growled again as her tiny hands moved up in my neck to my chest to leave a tingling trail where ever her hands wondered. She parted her lips and I felt her tongue lick its way down my bottom lip and she bit it slightly. Whoa. I had to growl again, and this time, it wasn't a silent growl. I lifted up one of Bellas legs and traced it from the knee down to her backside and squeezed it while pushing my body closer to hers with force. By now, she must have felt my hardness, and she still did nothing to stop me. No, she was pushing me on, touching me in a way that felt so much better then in all of my fantasies. I pulled away to give her time to breath while I kissed her neck and bit it ever so slightly. I traced a trail of kisses from behind her ear to her jaw while she signed my name in a small voice. ''Ahh.. Jake..'' she said and then I went back to kissing her.

''HEY! Stop that now!'' Charlie yelled from a car witch had pulled next to us without my, or judging by the sight of it, Bellas knowledge. '' In my yard for crying out loud'' he muttered.

I slowly put Bellas leg to the ground and looked at her face. If it's possible, it looked more red that ever. ''Dad, umm I just.. We were just.. I mean..'' she tried to say something but nothing she said made any sense. ''Chief Swan, I'm sorry you had to see that but we were just kissing'' I tried to save the situation, but it was a lost cause.

''Well, Bella I want you inside in 5 minutes, and I'll be watching both of you from the window, so no funny business'' Charlie said and signed.

Ha. When Bella covered her face in her hands Charlie looked to me and mouthed 'way to go, kiddo!' and I had to laugh. Charlie quickly collected himself and walked inside to the window, like he said he would.

''Oh my god..'' Bella muttered next to me. All I said, I think, was ''whoa.'' Bella was looking to the ground when I put my fingers below her jaw and lifted it so high that she had to face me. I looked deep into her eyes and said '' I love you. I'm in love with you, Bells, did you know that?''

I looked at the feelings on her face. Surprise, fear and finally love. Love.

''I..i..i did. I-I love you too, Jake, it's jus that..'' I had to cut her off. ''No Bella, leave it at that'' I closed my eyes and let my mind wonder on the possibility of us,'' I love you, you love me. That's it. You're ready to move on, and you know it. Baby, we'll take things slow, but just tell me that we're taking things somewhere.'' I had my eyes still closed when I felt Bellas hand on my cheek. ''We are. In our time. That was not slow, I need more slow, Jake, you get that, right?'' She said sweetly. I had to hug her right then and there, a little bit too hard. '' Of course, honey, we'll take things as slow as you need!'' I said in ecstasy. ''Jake..Air...I need.. Air!'' I realized I was hugging here way too tightly and let her go. ''Bells I'm so sorry, you okay?'' I said in panic. ''Yeah, yeah, don't panic Jake'' she just shrugged. ''Oh... Great'' we smiled at that statement.

Yes, things were more than great, they were awesome. And then i had to smirk and say '' By the way, that kiss was... Whoa.'' ''I know,'' she said with a not-so-shy smirk.

I smiled in awe. '' Well, can I see you tomorrow? I'd love to stay but Charlie looks like his head is gonna explode at any sec'' I said pointing to the window where Charlie still was standing. ''Oh shit, Charlie… Yeah, tomorrow's Sunday, huh? So you wanna spend the day with me in La Push or something?'' Bella said smiling. I just couldn't wipe the happy grin in my face that said this-is-way-too-good-to-be-true while I said ''Sounds perfect, come to my house in the morning, okay?'' ''Yeah, see ya then, then'' Bella said and got up to her tiptoes to try and mach our height. Then she gave me a small peck on the cheek and a slow sweet kiss on the lips. When we parted she closed her eyes and made a small mmm sound that made me crazy and walked to the house. I just stood there and when I realized what actually was happening I yelled to her '' Hey, if it's okay, I'll leave the car few blocks down and come back to leave the keys to the porch so you can drive it to my place tomorrow? I need to run.'' She looked at the window where Charlie no longer was and then started to say ''sure, what ever you want Jake'' and smirked again.

Then she closed the door. Whoa. Where did all this confidence come from? Bella has way too much power over me.

She'll be the death of me.

Whoa.

An: So, that was the first chapter and I'd love nothing more to hear what you think! Tell me if this is worth continuing 