A/N: this idea has been brewing in my head for awhile and it won't leave until I type it down. It's basically an outline and I'll flush out the ideas later. I don't even know what to call this story. It has something to do with real life and how much it would make my life for this to happen.

Update: changed the name and the username cause I changed my Twitter username and thought since I'm reediting the chapters I'll do that. Oh and I may or may not write a smut scene. Before you enjoy, I have exteme writers block and have to read my story in order for me to get some idea cause I know if I fight it through, it'll come out like shit. I really want to finish this story. First story I've ever finished. Fingers crossed. Now you can enjoy the reading.

Disclamier: don't own BTR

APOV(Ashley)
Okay it's been a month passed my birthday and my life was made because James tweeted me a happy birthday. I was on cloud nine all day and nothing could tear me down. A few days later, I found out that he's following me. So on Twitter, I'm like "HOW COME I WAS NOT INFORMED THAT HE IS FOLLOWING ME!?" that has made my life as well. So now we are DMing (Direct Messaging) each other.

I know that the whole blowing up his Twitter about my birthdy would do the trick. We have late night talks and everything. He had to go and said he'd text me later and I freaked out and started having breathing problems. Like you wouldn't believe. I was choking on air. In my head: WHAT THE FUCK IS AIR!?

My life is pretty damn amazing right now. We talk constantly, not to mention we're flirting. He even pouted to me once because I refused to do something. He blew up my phone with his pout face and I couldn't resist so here I am at Olga's Kitchen in Woodhaven. He's even more gorgeous in person and I just love his hazel eyes. (A/N: like seriously, those eyes of his are to die for)

He knows pretty much next to everything about me since he kept asking about myself. He ordered my drink since I was on my way and he got there first. He's amazing. He's smiling at me and I can't help but melt and that smile of his. I just want to kiss him so much right now.

"You're beautiful. You know that, right?" He whispered in my ear.

I looked at him, blushed and shook my head. He nodded and smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile back.

We ate, talked and laughed. We clicked in person just like we did on Twitter and through the phone. We hung out that day; the mall then the movies and finally mini golfing which I totally kicked his ass at. He let me drive and I was happy about that. I was kind of being a speed demon with him in the car. I really hate having to go back home at 10pm because that would end my fun times with James David Maslow.

I parked in front of my house and we just sat there. We didn't speak or anything. Just comfortable silence. We didn't want to say goodbye but it was inevitable.

"You'll call when you get back to your hotel right?" I asked, quietly.

"I promise." He said.

"Good. I should go."

"Yeah you should. I had fun today. The most fun I've had in awhile." He told me.

"I did too. That was the most I've smiled in a whole year."

"You mind telling me what happened?" He asked.

"I'll tell you on the phone."

"I'm not going to push you if you don't wanna talk about it."

"I want to. It'll make me feel better and I have to get it out since I've been hurting for almost a year. This is something that you can't just magically get over because it cut me at a soul deep level. For now, I'm just going to leave it at that. So call me when you get back to your hotel room." I looked over at hm with tears in my eyes.

I hate crying in front of people. His gaze softened and we got out of the car and headed to the front door. We stood at the door and looked at each other, not saying anything. I sighed, I really didn't want to go in and not see his beautiful face but I have to.

We said our goodbyes and hugged then I went into the house and shut the door. I leaned against the door and smiled to myself. Today was awesome, I'm glad he begged me to go out and enjoy myself. I pushed myself off the door and went into my room to tweet about my day. (A/N: let's just say that there's no 140 words a tweet.)

I changed into my pajamas. I crawled into bed and got onto my laptop to check Twitter since I haven't been on all day. I scrolled through my feed wondering if there was any news on anything. Seeing nothing new, I posted a tweet.

SassyMaslowBean: Today was awesome. I hung out with jamesmaslow and had a blast. We went out to lunch, the mall, the movies and mini golfing (which I beat his ass at). It was a great day. Gonna unload a secret to him. He's amazing and a total sweetheart.

I sighed and went onto VWH. Nothing has happened there other than talking to one of my best friends that's like a sister to me.

Me: I haven't been home all day
+Dont fuck with us!+: why?
Me: I hung out with James
+Dont fuck with us!+: seriously?
Me: seriously, I had a blast today and I'm just waiting on his phone call so I can tell him about Frankie and how much I'm still hurting...
+Dont fuck with us!+: have fun with that
Me: oh there's him calling so I'll probably be awhile and I might cry on the phone...
+Dont fuck with us!+: okay

I answered the phone. We didn't talk for a minute. I had to gather my thoughts without breaking down and snot crying.

"Whenever you're ready, I'm all ears." He said softly.

I smiled at that even though he couldn't see it.

"I'm just gathering my thoughts without breaking down and snot crying through the whole thing."

"Like I said, whenever you're ready."

I took another deep breath and wiped my had over my face and began my tale.

"This happened late August early September before senior year started. I met some new people since the site that I was on, the chat go shut down and that didn't settle with us. So I found this site from my friends since they sent the link to me. I went on there and met some awesome new people on top of my friends that I made at the other site. I'm sure you're probably confused as to what I'm talking about. I'll get right to that.

"This site is called Twifans or TF for short. I was a total Twilighter when BTR first started. I definitely remember watching Big Time Beach Party but wasn't paying special attention to it like I'm paying attention now. Anyways, we had a blast on that site but some asshat ended up reporting some bullshit thing about how it's something that's not kid friendly. Ummm, HELLO! There are older people on here that are into Twilight and you don't see them complaining and of course he doesn't know me or how I am.

"That pissed me off to no end. I ended up getting hated for it too. Someone tried to send me a friend request just to bitch at me about it. Bitch, you don't even know me so shut the fuck up and plus I've never even seen you before in my entire life not to mention since I've been on the site. So I just gave up and talked to my friends through the inbox. When that got boring, one of my best friends made a site so we can all chat. We don't even use it anymore.

"That was before we discovered VWH, known as .com, and we became friends with other people on that site. This is where I met one of the greatest people ever and my soul mate. She's his best friend and they lived under the same roof. He was amazing and sweet. The second we met, we had an instant connection. Everyone could tell that we were meant for each other. I think I might've fallen in love with him on sight.

"I got really excited because of my 18th birthday was coming up. Right around that time, Eve (his best friend and also my best friend) was in the hospital and Frankie (my deceased soul mate) went to see her since she went on a road trip to Washington and got into a really bad accident. I didn't bother asking why she went. It was a couple hours before my birthday when he posted a long ass post on my wall on Facebook that made me cry happy tears because of how amazingly sweet it was. He really wasn't the type to say "I love you until the day I die" and leave two weeks later.

"I knew he meant it. Like I felt it deep in my bones. I felt like he was the one, you know? It hurt when he got sick, like really sick. I was stressed out. I almost punched someone in the face. My patience level was really low and I wasn't having a great week.

"I missed him that whole time he was in the hospital. I thought about him night and day. He made me listen to songs and I about cried to every single one of them. He meant the world to me. New Year's rolled around, I was happy. Until New Year's Day evening was when I got the news that he passed away. I was shocked.

"I cried for two days straight afterwards because it hur to even think about him not being alive. He was too young to die. He was only 17 years old when he passed away. I know he still loves me even though he's no longer alive. I feel it in my heart. I was still miserable through that whole ordeal so I went out with my two best friends from school. We hung out at the mall.

"I saw couples and I forgot that Friday night is date night. I wanted to go die in a hole when I saw all that love floating around. I felt even more alone and empty then because I just touched all that happiness. I was really in love with you, you have no idea how much he meant to me. I talked about him nonstop. We went to the movies and saw Rise of the Guardians and our feels went insane because of how cute that cartoon movie is.

"To this day, I still love him and haven't let him go. Not even in the slightest, he will always be with me. I miss him every day and I know we're gonna meet one day. He even said so in his last letter to me." I sniffled towards the end and wiped at my tears.

James didn't say anything for awhile. I took a deep breath just to steady myself. I looked at my phone to make sure he didn't hang up. I closed my eyes and smled. I feel better now but not by much.

"Wow. That's a true love story right there." He said quietly, after a few more minutes of silence.

"Yeah."

"Are you okay?"

"Sometimes I don't really know if I'll ever be okay. I'll act like I'm okay when it comes to the public. I try to go on like it's normal but it hurts so much. When I read cancer stories; I start crying fat, ugly tears since I'm really close to the situation. It still cuts me when I read it."

"That's understandable."

More comfortable silence followed that statment.

"I should probably get some sleep even though I don't feel sleepy."

"I'm about to fall asleep though."

"Oh."

"Yeah." He chuckled then yawned.

"I'll let you go then."

"Yup."

More silence ensued.

"I really don't want to hang up but I have to."

"Yup."

"Goodnight James."

"Goodnight Ashley."

I looked at the phone and he still hasn't hung up. I shook my head and smiled.

"You still there?"

"Yeah."

"We should get off the phone."

"Yes, we should."

"I don't wanna."

"We'll hang out tomorrow then."

"Okay."

"Goodnight."

"Goodnight."

We finally hung up. I smiled to myself. I looked on Twitter some more and tweeted:

SassyMaslowBean: just unloaded some major stuff on jamesmaslow and we're still gonna hang out tomorrow. Looking forward to it. He's making everything okay again #RusherOut #Rushers #RusherFamily

I shut my laptop down and tried to go to sleep but growled when I couldn't sleep. I ended up reading fanfics for awhile until I fell asleep. I couldn't wait to hang out with him the next day and see what we will be doing.

That is all.

A/N: how was that? I know that was long. I didn't realize I had it in me to type all that out. Anyways, I'm a little sad and in a weird mood and I think I figured out why I'm like this. That chapter that I typed out, it really happened to me. I'm still hurting over it. That love never dies not even if I'm in love with James. If you find love like I did, never let it go. Hold onto it really tight and never let go. Love them forever. It comes to those who wait or when you least expect it. Trust me, I'm talking from experience.

Update: I'll update regardless of reviews so if you want to review go ahead if not I won't be mad

-Cola Marie Maslow