He took a deep breath as he paced the room. I curled up on the bed and shivered. Alaska was cold. I wasn't used to it. He looked at me. I smiled warmly, trying to cheer his mood. He only furrowed his brow more and looked away. I glanced at my watch. I had planned on this going much faster.

"Darling, are you sure, you don't want Carlisle to do it?" I asked for the millionth time to my husband. Edward glanced at me again and went to sit next to me. He gathered me in his arms and I snuggled close to his chest. He kissed the top of my head gently.

"Please, Bella, give me a moment." He said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. He lifted my face to his and looked me in the eyes.

"Are you absolutely sure about this?" he asked. I heard the worry and fear in his voice. I put my hands on his hands and smiled.

"Edward, I've never been so sure of anything in my life. Please, just get it over with." I said. I tried not to sound as desperate as I was, but I feared my voice gave away my desperation. He looked at me again and nodded, kissing my forehead.

"Alright." He laid me gently down on the bed and kissed my cheek, then my lips. I sighed as his lips hypnotized me. He trailed kisses down my neck and to the top of my shoulders, then back up again, slowly letting his tongue linger on my skin. He paused at the base of my throat and I felt him swiftly bite down. I flinched at the impact of the wound, but then I began to feel the fire.

I screamed as it slowly spread through out my body, enveloping me in pain. I opened my eyes to find Edward sitting up, my blood upon his lips, his eyes flashing a dangerous red. He wanted more, I could tell, but he covered up my wound with a bandage. I couldn't stop screaming, my throat soon became raw, but that was nothing compared to what was happening to my body. I lost all sense of time, it just seemed to keep going, on and on for what felt like forever. I vaguely remember feeling a hand in my hand, but mostly, I couldn't stop thinking about how unbearable it was and how long it was lasting. I felt something in my chest pop. A wave of pain shot through me and I stopped screaming, gasping for breath. My eyes opened wide, but I saw nothing. I felt the fire turn cold and finally into a burning ice, that took over my body. I twitched and shook in agony as it took control of me.

When it began to ease, I whimpered. I felt a hand in mine and I squeezed as hard as I could, I felt the hand break beneath mine. Edward cursed, pulling away abruptly. I opened my eyes, seeing him nursing his hand. He looked at me and tried to give me one of his charming, crooked smiles, but I saw that I had truly hurt him.

"I'm sorry." I croaked. My throat was hoarse from screaming. He looked at me for a moment and leaned in to kiss me. The kiss was passionate and beautiful. Edward tasted amazing. I sighed into his mouth, noticing the pain was completely gone. I kissed him back, hungrily. We had never kissed like this before. He was always hesitant, he tangled his hands in my hair and I put my arms around his back. When we pulled away, we both had a dazed expression on our faces. "Whoa." I whispered. He smiled and kissed me again.

I sat up, I found myself amazingly hungry. I looked at Edward. He seemed to know what I wanted.

"We'll go hunting soon. Do you want to see your new family?" he asked, holding his hand out. I smiled and stood, taking it, gently. He led me out of the room and to the top of the stairs. I found that the Cullen's were all waiting anxiously for us to emerge. Alice was the first to greet me when I came out, she flew up the stairs and enveloped me in a hug. I hugged her back. She grinned.

"We're finally sisters!" she squealed. I smiled, truly happy.

I inspected myself in the mirror. There was something different, no doubts on that. I did not look like the same Isabella Swan-er- Cullen that I did three days ago. My hair was the same, but it fit me more. My face was the same, bright, pale color, my facial features were more pronounced, enhancing a beauty I didn't know existed. What caught me off-guard, however, was my eyes. They were a deep shade of red. I gasped as I inspected them, they scared me. I looked around frantically for Edward. He was next to me and noticed what was troubling me. He wrapped his arms around me.

"It's okay. It's just your blood." He explained.

"I want to change it." I said, my voice desperate. He chuckled.

"Okay, we will soon, can you wait just a couple minutes? Carlisle wants to talk to you about," he hesitated, "this." He led me to the cozy living room of their house in Alaska and I sat down on the couch, Carlisle in front of me. He smiled warmly and I returned it.

"You will hunger for human blood, Bella. That is a fact you may not have thought about when you agreed to this. No matter how full you are, you will always hunger for it. Do you understand?" he asked kindly, but bluntly. I nodded. Edward had told me this. He explained to me that I would be surprised at how difficult it would be for me to resist the temptations that the person that the urge for blood would create would not be someone I would be proud of. I nodded and listened, trying not to reveal that Carlisle was worrying me. Edward had not discussed much of the vampire issue with me. Carlisle explained how the hunting issue worked and that if I made any attempt to get away from the hunting party, they would restrain me. I nodded, understanding completely.

Alice, Jasper, and Emmett strolled into the room, all wearing dingy jeans and t-shirts and still all looking as glamorous as ever. Alice smiled at me and winked. I smiled back.

"Are you ready?" Emmett asked with a grin. I smiled wider at Edward who was looking weary. My smile wavered. What was wrong? I was finally one of them. I placed a cold hand on his arm, giving him a concerned look. He tried to smile at me, but it didn't quite look real.

"Of course." I stood up and opened my arms, "Teach me" I said. Emmett grinned and ran towards me. I laughed as he enveloped me in a hug. I pushed him off, surprised that I actually could, and he laughed harder. Carlisle stood up and before I knew it, we were outside.

"The first time running can be a little trivial, Bella." Carlisle said. Alice sighed impatiently. Carlisle gave her a glare, but turned back to me. "Just follow Edward as closely as possible, and if you lose control, Jasper and Alice will be following behind you to direct you, alright?" he asked. I nodded eagerly. I was excited to learn how to run as fast as the Cullen's. "Alright, lets go. Remember, follow Edward." He reminded, and then, we were off.

At first, it felt like we were running normally. I followed closely behind Edward, but soon, I found, very easily, I had passed him. I tried to slow down and found myself next to him. The world passed by us in a dizzying blurr, but somehow, I could see the path ahead and carefully placed my steps so that I could run. I looked around and could see the Cullen family around me, very clearly. Alice and Jasper were behind me, holding hands, but still running. Alice was grinning at me and Jasper was staring at me with a shocked expression on his face. I looked over at Edward who wore the same shocked expression, but was staring ahead, not at me. I was confused. In my confusion, I became distracted and didn't see the stump until my foot caught on it. The stump was shattered, and I was sent flying across the forest. I screamed as I found I couldn't stop. I felt my body hitting trees, but they didn't stop me. I felt branches break and leaves rustle, and finally, I felt strong arms wrap around me and stop me from my flight. I gripped his arms desperately. When we landed, we landed hard on our backs, me on top of him, both of us making a dirt trail and crater with our landing. I turned to look at Edward. He smiled at me, grimacing. I quickly got off of him. He rubbed his arms where I was gripping. I could see painful looking indents where my hands were. I stared at him horrified. This is the second time I'd hurt him. He took a step towards me and I jumped back.

"Bella," he said gently. "I'm fine." He reached for me. I flinched away.

"Don't touch me!" I cried. "Alice." I said and I found her a few feet away with Jasper, Emmett, and Carlisle. She came up to me, gently patting my back.

"It's okay, Bella, we all mess up on our first run." She said. I shook my head, looking at Edwards arms where evidence of my hands still resided. I cringed. He hid them quickly behind his back. Alice saw, though. She nodded understanding. "Oh." She said.

"Bella," Edward tried again, coming forward. I moved towards Jasper and Emmett. Jasper, out of instinct, moved away from me. He seemed to realize what he did, and moved back to where he was.

"Edward will be fine." Carlisle said coming towards us, he inspected Edwards's arms and then nodded. "Yes, there's nothing broken, and he seems to be okay. Don't feel guilty, Bella" He said. "Let's keep going. Run as fast as you can. I want to see how powerful you are now." he said to me gently. I gulped, but nodded. I wouldn't look at Edward. I could tell he wanted me to, and he tried to move next to me, but I moved away. I didn't want to risk hurting him again.

When we started running again, I gave it my all. I ran as fast as I physically could and I found that I left the Cullen's in the dust. I didn't know if they wanted me to keep going or not, but I did. It felt so good to run so free. I soon felt a presence behind me. I glanced over my shoulder and saw Edward running several feet behind me, with a smirk on his face. I couldn't help but smile back. I could almost read his mind. A race? Alright then. I thought and picked up my speed. Edward's eyes widened as I quickly lost him, but soon he was behind me again within vision. I smiled as I felt the wind in my hair. Then I heard his voice, clear as day.

"Bella, stop." It was like slamming on my breaks. Again, I went flying, but on the ground this time, I hit all of the forest floor debris and sent stumps and tree trunks into splinters, but my body finally slammed into a boulder that shuddered at my impact, but stopped my flight. I sighed, relieved. Edward was soon at my side, chuckling. He helped me up and led me to where the rest of the family was stopped. Alice licked her lips. Carlisle looked at me.

"Okay, Bella, pay attention." He said. I looked at his dark eyes and nodded. "You have instincts. They came when Edward bit you, natural instincts that will drive you towards blood." I nodded. "But you have to control that drive to the right blood. I'm assuming you don't want to drink human—" I shook my head violently. He nodded, smiling. "Very well, alright, only you have the control to choose the blood you drink." I knew all this, but I nodded silently. "Edward will show you—"

"I will not." Edward's voice cut through Carlisle's like a knife. Carlisle looked at his son and gave him a stern look. Edward shook his head slightly, his lips together. I was confused, why wouldn't Edward show me? I reached instinctively for his hand and he took mine.

"Alright, Emmett will show you what the hunting experience looks like. Try to mimic his movements, but most of it is instinct and will come to you. Everyone has their own unique hunting methods anyway." He said. Emmett came forward. I could hear Alice grumbling under her breath about how she wanted first kill and Jasper shushed her.

I could smell the deer before I saw it, it just wandered into our midst as if it didn't see us at all, but when it did see us, it was too late. Emmett was already running towards it and had broken it's neck in an instant. I saw a wild, animal-like fierceness in Emmett's eyes as he drank from the animal's neck. In a few short seconds, the deer was drained of life, drained of blood, and Emmett grinned happily, his teeth dark red. Alice 'tsk'd and Emmett wiped his mouth. Carlisle looked at me.

"Did you catch that?" he asked. I nodded. Emmett made it look easy, but I was a bit nervous about it. I squeezed Edward's hand, carefully this time. He looked at me.

"I want to see you do it." I whispered. Edward seemed to inwardly wince.

"I was afraid you were going to say that." He whispered back, " I don't want you to see that side of me yet." He said. My temper flared. I was going to see it eventually, why not now? I was about to open my mouth to argue, but he put a finger to my lips and smiled. "There's another deer coming. Shh." He said. "This one is yours." He said. I glanced nervously into the clearing where I could sense the deer approaching. I took a step forward. I already decided that I was going to break its neck to kill it, and then drink it's blood. Two steps: kill it, drink it's blood. So easy. When the young female deer came to the clearing, I heard a vague whispered "go" and I flew towards it, it saw me a split second too late. I felt something inside of me release and I growled. My instincts took over and my conscious mind was pushed back. I caught it around its neck and easily snapped it. I looked up to the Cullen's and Emmett was making motions about what I was supposed to do. I slowly pulled my hair around my shoulder and bit down awkwardly into the deer's fur. The warm blood washed into my mouth immediately and if my mouth wasn't full, I would have sighed in relief of the taste. I drank earnestly until there was no more and I let the deer carcass drop next to Emmett's. I licked the blood off of my lips and tried to wipe it off my face. I was a mess. I made a disgusted sound.

"Oh no, you don't like it." Alice said.

"You'll get used to it, Bella." Jasper said. I didn't know what they were talking about. I was still thinking about how amazingly appetizing that was. I took my place by Edward who was looking dejected. I wondered why. The rest of the Cullen family took turns feeding on deer as they wandered into the clearing. I learned that Jasper used his power to lure the deer into feeling calm in the clearing and that the Cullen's usually had a better variety of animals, but this was what they could provide for my first hunting trip. I thanked them and we began running again.

I followed Edward while we ran back to the Denali house. Tanya and the girls were out, so it was just the Cullen's. Edward and I went up to our room. I wanted to talk to him. I closed the door, still knowing that it wouldn't keep eavesdroppers out of the room. He sat down on the bed. I crawled on behind him and gently rubbed his shoulders. He smiled and closed his eyes, leaning into my touch.

"Oh I'm so glad you can do that." He moaned. I grinned, hearing the pleasure in his voice.

"Me too." I responded. The next few moments were spent in silence. "Edward," I said. He did not open his eyes.

"Mmm?" he asked.

"I'm sorry about your arms and your hand." I said quietly. He opened his eyes in a flash and turned around so he could hold me.

"Bella, my sweet Bella." He whispered holding me close to his chest, "You don't need to apologize." He said. "It's okay." I inhaled his sweet smell, it smelled even better with my heightened senses. We stayed like that for a long time, just holding each other. When Edward spoke again, his voice was hesitant. "Does blood disgust you that much?" he asked softly. I froze. What? Disgust me? What was he talking about? I turned to look in his eyes that mine now matched.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Your face when you finished feeding—" then I remembered the look of disgust I had because my face was so messy. I mentally slapped myself. They thought it was because of drinking the blood.

"Edward, no." I said. "no, no, no." I almost laughed. This is what was bothering him? This is what Alice and Jasper were talking about. "I'm not disgusted with drinking blood. It was actually quite wonderful." Edward looked confused.

"Then what—"

"It was the blood all over my face. I need to work on not being so messy with it." Edward's eyes widened.

"That's it? You just didn't like the blood all over your face?" he asked incredulously. I heard Alice laugh from downstairs. I smiled.

"That's all that was bugging you?" I asked with a relieved laugh. Edward laughed as well, and nodded.

"Yeah, that was it." He said. I could tell that he was lying and I could tell that I was not going to get any more out of him. I huffed and walked out of the room. He sighed and flopped back on the bed.

I went downstairs to the living room. Alice was sitting on the couch, her legs draped over Jaspers lap, with a book in her hand. She looked up when I entered and smiled, putting her book down.

"Hey Bella." She said, " I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but." She said shrugging. Jasper chuckled.

"Yeah, I'm glad you don't hate blood either." He said. I smiled. It felt good to be able to be so familiar with Jasper. He always stayed away from me when I was human. I sat down in front of them. Esme came into the room humming a song. We all smiled at her. She clapped her hands happily.

"Who's ready to go home?" she asked happily. I looked at Alice who was smiling at me.

"I am!" Alice chimed. I smiled wearily. I wasn't sure I was ready to return to Forks. Edward was coming down the stairs.

"I would like to go home, Esme, that sounds wonderful." He said. Before I knew it, the whole Cullen family was present in the room, all agreeing that it was a good idea to return to Forks. Since they relocated to Alaska for my transformation and my first hunt, it was time to go home. I moved to be next to Edward who draped his arm casually around my waist. He looked down at me. "Are you ready to go home? I suppose it is your decision." He said. I shrugged, not exactly eager to inform Charlie of my new…er…differences. Edward sensed this, and rubbed my arm.

"Is everyone ready then? Should I tell Tanya that we're leaving?" Carlisle asked briskly. Everyone nodded. Carlisle left the house to find Tanya and her sisters wherever they were.