Thinking again
One Tree Hill doesn't belong to me... This is just a fanfiction.
This is a translation of my fanfiction "Repensando", originally published in Portuguese.
The thoughts of Dan Scott, while he was lying down on a hospital bed, after he had a stroke, in the first episode of the second season.
Deb. Since the first day of college, when I saw her for the first time, I knew she was the woman of my life. Of course I wasn't thinking like that when I saw Karen for the first time, on the first day of high school. But then she got pregnant, and I couldn't be with her anymore. I didn't give up loving her, but my basketball career was threatened, and I had to leave Karen. And little Lucas.
Lucas. I should have been there for him. I should have supported him, in basketball, in school and in life. But I didn't have the guts to abandon my futile life for that. Even he being my son, I couldn't even look at him. I considered him as the son of someone else. Not as I thought of my other son, my legitimate child, the one that I had with my wife.
Nathan. I shouldn't have put so much pressure on him. But I always wanted that he'd be the best in everything, specially in basketball. I wanted him to achieve what I couldn't have, that he'd get in a good school, that he'd be acclaimed by his talent. Every father should wish that for his son. That he would be the hero for his family. And for his uncle.
Keith. Even he being a fool, I adored him. I envy his simple way of getting things. The way he, even with less money and power, made true friends and conquered people. Including my wife.
I could not believe when I saw Deb in his arms. What did she see on him, and how could they betray me like that? My brother and my wife. At that time, I was sure that signing the divorce papers was the best thing to do.
Now, lying in this bed, while everybody believe I'm inconscient, I think again about my acts, and other people's. Do they wish I wake up? Do they pray for me to be ok?
If they do that, what reasons do I have to come back? Keith and Deb betrayed my trust, my respect, the bonds of family and marriage. My son Nathan went back at me, emancipated himself and got out my life. My other son, Lucas, even after I saved his life, don't want to see me around.
However, everything can be different when I open my eyes. Lucas could have come back to Tree Hill and prayed for me. Nathan could have come back home and wanted his father back. Keith and Deb could have noticed they did a crazy thing, and he would beg me for forgiveness and she would say she always loved me.
With those thoughts in mind, I open my eyes.
And I see my wife and brother holding each other.
