Forever in my Heart
"I've always regretted the day when Fllay died Lacus," Kira said softly with more than sadness in his eyes. Though it was the first time he said it to her, he knew that Lacus had already known it even from the start. She touched his left cheek with her right hand and held one of his hands with the other. Kira looked at Lacus earnestly and tried to hold back his tears. "I'm sorry for making you hear this, Lacus." With that Lacus just smiled and replied, "People will always regret some things in their life, Kira... and you're not an exception." He saw nothing but kindness in her eyes and he could say that he was relieved, even just for a little. He was thankful because Lacus had always been there even when he was so unsure of himself – of his past and his bittersweet memories.
Chapter 1: Years Gone By
If I can make my way to the other side of sorrow
Then I'd like to not feel anything beyond this anymore.
–Kanashimi no Mukou he, Itou Kanako
It was still four in the afternoon but the sky didn't give any hint of the time as the usual bright sun was hidden by the gray lumps of cotton and the hotness was replaced by the cool breeze of the sea. Kira had been reading a novel while sitting on an old wooden chair out in the balcony when he saw the sky fade into gray hues. He stood up and watched the seagulls fly over the sea. Though the day was so gloomy, the seagulls were still flying around. Kira admired them of their ability to carry on even though things had already changed. "I wish I were just something like them," he thought simply. With a sigh, he turned around and saw a pink haired girl looking so worried at him. It was Lacus.
It wasn't the first time when this happened. When he was worried, she would always be there somewhere even when he didn't know. He wasn't so surprised of her appearance but he would always be curious of how she could sneak in and be behind him without making so much sound.
"Ah, sorry. I didn't notice you," he said apologetically.
"That's fine, Kira. What have you been thinking?" Lacus smiled.
Lacus' smile never failed to brighten him no matter when. She had this soothing and peaceful aura that would make you cheer up or just make you cast your troubles away no matter how grave your problems were.
"Nothing," he smiled back. "Let's go back in to the children; it's going to rain soon. You won't want to make Suzuki cry because of the thunder."
Kira and Lacus, after the war, decided to live in an orphanage by the sea and take care of the children there. There had been sixteen people the first time they arrived in the house they're living in but unfortunately three died because of the war. Lacus was especially fond of Suzuki, and Kira of someone called Izuna.
Upon entering the room where all the children had assembled, Lacus sat on the corner of the room and called for Suzuki. The rain started to pour, its sound slowly turning into a grumble. Then, Lacus sang one of her favorite songs – Fields of Hope. She had always done this whenever the children seemed afraid. She did it once during an earthquake and her voice always seemed to calm them down. They stayed like that until the rain stopped. Fortunately, it was nothing but a light rain. While waiting, Kira fell asleep sitting on the sofa with Izuna's head on his lap. Everything looked peaceful and Lacus smiled. She walked to the center of the room to wake him up then she heard him mutter a name.
The night came and Lacus tucked the children into their sleep. She then went back to her room. Her room which is also Kira's was small with blue walls. Kira was already lying on the bed and was sleeping soundly. He seemed so tired even though he did nothing that day. The room contained nothing but of Lacus' Haro and Kira's Torii. Lacus reached for the lamp and turned it off. With the room full of darkness, Lacus started undressing herself. She first undid the ribbon on her dress. Then, she let her dress fall. Lacus, just with her underwear, slowly came into Kira and kissed him. Her lips visited his shoulders then his cheek and finally his mouth. She broke away and that's when she heard him, "Fllay."
"Yes, Kira. I'm Fllay," Lacus just said and went to kiss him once again. Gently at first, then it slowly became a fight of tongues and clash of teeth. "Fllay," he muttered again. "Fllay," he repeated. "Yes, Kira, yes." Lacus just pretended. Kira grabbed one of Lacus' arms and pushed her so that he was the one on top. Kira pinned one of her arms and kissed her again. While kissing her, he tried to remove his own shirt. They both fixed themselves on a sitting position and Lacus helped him remove his shirt and also his trousers. Both of them, now barely clothed, stood. Kira removed her panties and pinned her at the wall with Lacus facing the wall. Kira brushed his manhood at the back of Lacus' butt. "Fllay, I love you."
Lacus, of course, was hurt. Sex like this had always been one of the things they do before sleeping. Kira's fully aware that it's Lacus he's actually doing but they had an agreement that Lacus would help him fill his desires... and one of them was this – sex with Fllay. Years had already gone by, and it's long since Fllay's dead but Kira had always yearned for her. He had always wanted her. He promised he'd protect her but then he couldn't. Lacus, her legs wobbly because of the sensation Kira's giving her, slid down the wall. Kira followed and removed his underwear. He also removed hers. He put his penis on Lacus' tight vagina and they moved toward each other. Slow, then fast. Lacus reached for Kira's hair and grabbed onto it. "Hmm, faster, Kira, faster," she said. Kira fucked her faster and faster. Lacus bit her hair. No one must hear them. The door was not locked. Every room in the orphanage should be open in case of emergency.
"Fllay..." Kira called softly. "I'm cumming."
Slightly louder, he repeated. "I'm cumming," but he still didn't stop.
"It's okay, Kira. Let it all out," Lacus just said. A second later, she could feel it – his semen filling her.
"Fllay, I love you."
Kira withdrew his penis soon after that and sat on the bed. Lacus stood in front of him and Kira, even though it's dark, could see her sexy figure very clearly.
"Come closer..." he almost whispered. When Lacus was very near to him, he put two fingers into her wet pussy and explored her area. Lacus moaned. Kira then moved his fingers rapidly. Lacus gave a slight shout. "You're not supposed to make that sound, you know. Do you want us to stop?" Kira asked her. Lacus, whose body's overflowing with pleasure, shook her head. "No... Kira... no... ple... please... continue," she said between breaths.
It was two in the morning. Kira woke up naked and looked at the girl beside him. He reached for her underwear and slowly put it on her. This had been one of his habits out of these years. They always had sex, and he would always put her panties back on her before she would woke up. Lacus knew he was doing this, but she didn't mind. He might love Fllay, but Lacus would always love Kira more. Kira then went to shower. He looked at the mirror, water dripping from his hair and all over his body. He thought of what he did to Lacus the night before and just said, "Kira, idiot!"
