Title- Outside the window
Summary- Ellie's life has been crap since Sean left. She is dating some guy that doesn't care about her but she needs to be loved. The one person outside her window who can love her wants to help. But could it be to late?
There she was staring at him again, he doesn't even turn around. She is late for work as usual because he is forcing her to have sex and she needs to make him want her. Ellie the girl I am in love with alone with a shitty boyfriend to help her get back and he doesn't care about her.
standing
on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing
as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling
worthless
used again but nothing's different
she stayed the
night
but knows he doesn't care
I walk back over to her house again, she is crying getting out of the car. She sits on the bed and cries like every night, she knows he is out with someone else having fun with someone else and there she is alone.
home
by three
deafening quiet
the porch light's off
yes they
forgot it
she cried herself to sleep
but she don't dare
then
she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful
she's
beautiful
Sean, how could he leave her? What would he think seeing her like this? I need to help her she needs to get out of there I can make her feel wanted. She would never have to prove anything to me she could be the beautiful person she is.
I want to save you
I want to
save you
I need you
save me too
I want to save you.
I know its wrong standing by her window but I just have to think about how things can be different if I reached out to her. I could be her rock the shoulder she can cry on, someone she can talk to. She jumps up for work again and sneaks out of the house not daring to wake him up. You can tell by the look on her face she was dieing for Sean for him to come back but knows he is gone.
dressed by dawn and
out the door
no light
she memorized the floor
so she
could leave without being detected
she works till three
it's
uniform
she dreams that he'll come by the store
she prays for
days
the boys mean she's protected
and she wants
someone to see her
she needs to hear she's beautiful
she's
beautiful
I need to say something it pains me to see her like this hurt depressed feeling meaningless. How can I reach out to her? I have to say something anything to help her through this. We can get rid of his "boyfriend" and move on with our lives.
I
want to save you and she won't sleep I want to save you
I want to save you
I need you
save me
too
I want to save you
she won't
sleep
and she won't sleep
at all
I want to save you
I need you
save me too
I want to
save you
(let me save you)
I want to save you
(let me
save you)
I want to save you
(let me save you)
I want to
save you
"Ellie, wait." She wasn't surprised to here my voice, she had to know that I have been watching her.
"Go home Craig there isn't anything you can do to help me." She looked like death, tired from last night's sex and she smelled like beer.
"Ellie I can help you I want to help you, I mean what would Sean think if he saw you like this." Ellie stopped in her tracks hearing Sean's name it looked like it sickened her. He made her this way and then she broke down.
"Craig just go okay you can't save me, Sean doesn't care because if he cared he wouldn't left me this crap life." She started to run away dropping her stuff and passing her car. I didn't know what to do but I chased after her.
"Ellie I love you!" I screamed after her. She stopped running and ran up to me she kissed me. She was still crying I could feel her tears fall down my face.
"Go Craig leave me now leave me, you cant be with me you cant save me." This time when she ran I didn't chase after her I just screamed.
"I love you Ellie don't leave me like this I wont leave you like this." I wanted to help her I need to help her she needs me.
"I love you." She started walking back towards the apartment. The apartment she never came out of ever.
2 weeks later her boyfriend finally opened his eyes and found Ellie dead in her apartment. I knew I should have done something talked to her sooner, been more aggressive. I never loved a girl like Ellie she was the one I wanted to be with and she is gone.
Its my fault. Those words she said play over in my head every night "you can't save me." I could have saved her I could have done something and now she is gone and I am alone.
A/n- This story just popped into my head when I was listening to this song, so I am sorry if it isn't that great. The whole Craig and Ellie idea is kind of cool even though I am a hard core Sellie and Crash fan.
