Alright, I haven't written a story in a long time but I am back and a much better writer (I hope) The story is kinda based on Carrie Underwood's song, Starts With Goodbye. No worries people! There will be E/O! This one begins with Olivia sitting outside her apartment building, on her cell phone…
I don't own any of the characters blah blah blah, all the usual stuff.
The ice cold hair rushed through her brown hair. She was too distracted to be cold, too distracted by her cell phone which she gripped in her hands. She loved him, but she could never have him. He was married. It caused her too much pain to even be around him anymore, to be reminded everyday of what could never be hers, Elliot Stabler.
After time passed she finally got up the courage to punch in his number and press send. It took half a ring for him to answer.
"Liv. Hi, is umm is everything ok? You don't normally call me at 10," he said with a worried tone.
"I'm fine El. Well no I'm not but I don't need… Ok just listen. I can't do this anymore," she stuttered.
"What do you mean? Livvy do you need me to come over there?"
"No. No. I mean I can't be with you every day, I can't look in your eyes and ignore how I feel, I can't live like this anymore," she pulled a picture of them that was taken at last year's Christmas party. They looked so happy, so perfect together.
"I don't understand. I'm coming over there," he said confused and distraught.
Before Olivia could say anything she heard a click and the call ended. He was coming and there was no stopping him now. She thought about running up to her apartment, locking the door and not letting him in. But she didn't move an inch, she couldn't. She was to hurt by what she was about to do.
**********EO**********
Elliot's thoughts raced through his mind. What could she have meant by I can't live like this anymore. He loved that woman more than anything else. More than his job, his family, and even himself. He'd do anything for her.
He pulled up to her apartment building and shut off the car's engine. He began running up the stairs but didn't have to go far. There she was, still sitting on the steps, head down and shoulders slumped. She saw his feet walked up and quickly shoved their picture back in her pocket.
"Liv honey, what the hell is wrong? You sounded so," he stopped. He saw a tear fall from those perfect chocolate eyes that made him melt every single time he saw them.
He had called her honey. This was what she couldn't handle. The little hints he liked her or maybe loved her but the uncertainty of him actions.
"Please. Don't make me do this El," she whispered just loud enough for him to hear.
Elliot sat down next to her and put his arm around her, pulling her closer. But she pushed him away and slid to the side. He was so confused by her drastic change in character. Just yesterday they had been laughing over dinner and now she wouldn't even let him touch her.
"Do what?" was all he could manage.
"Elliot," she spoke his name so clearly it pierced the cold air around them. "My life has been stuck in this rut for the past 11 years. I need to move on with my life and the only way I can do that is to let go of some things. And I think one of them is you."
You. That word killed what was left of him. He was planning on leaving Kathy for real this time to be with Olivia and now she wanted nothing to do with him.
"Don't say that. You don't mean that, you can't." He reached out and touched her face, gently forcing her to look him in the eyes.
"But I do. I need to accept you and I will never happen. I need to move on and the only way I can do that is leave," she said with tears building up. She put her hand over his and guided it off her face.
He took his hands back and put them on her shoulders as if this would be the last time he'd ever touch her. He couldn't control his actions any longer and gently put his lips on hers. For a brief amount of time everything was right with the world. But it was broken to easily. He kept his forehead on hers and whispered, "You and I can happen Liv. I want it to. Olivia Benson I'm in love with you. I have been ever since you first walked into that precinct."
"Please don't say that. You're married Elliot. We just can't," she said as she stood up. He looked up at her but she was already turning away. He just let her go, which was the mistake of a lifetime.
**********EO**********
Elliot walked into the precinct the next day, not knowing what would happen as the day progressed. When he got to his desk he noticed Olivia wasn't there. In fact her desk seemed cleaner than normal. He thought nothing of it until she came storming out of Cragen's office with a box in one arm and a tear dripping down her cheek.
"Baby girl," Fin started. But she shot his a look telling him shut up before I kill you. He sat back down and went back to work.
Before Elliot could say anything she was gone.
"Elliot. Come here," Cragen said calmly.
He stood up and walked into Cragen's office.
"Shut the door behind you."
He did as told, then sat down in chair across the desk from his captain.
"You know why Olivia just walked out crying Stabler?" he asked with pain in his voice.
"Honestly no. We talked last night but I didn't know she'd act on what she said," the troubled detective said.
"Well she told me she was done. Done with looking at the man she loves every day and having to hide it. For fear of losing the job and you. She quit because of you Elliot. And I don't know what happened so quickly but you're taking the rest of this day off to find out. I want her back here Stabler," he said. "Go."
"Ok Capt," Elliot said and walked out past the wondering eyes of Munch and Fin.
"I'll bet you fifty bucks they've been banging each other and Olivia just broke it off," Fin said with a devilish grin as he put his pen down.
"How could you be thinking about betting when Liv just stormed out of here crying and five minutes later Elliot follows after her looking destroyed? Shows how much character you have," Munch said as he threw his arms in the air and shook his head.
"Wow. Your boney ass is showing respect? What's wrong with you man?" Fin laughed , rolling his eyes at his skinny partner.
"Good point. I'll take your bet. But I think they haven't done a damn thing and Olivia wants to but won't because Elliot is still married. She just wants to move on with her life now. Oh but trust me, Elliot will end up leaving Kathy to be with her. I just know it," Munch said with a fake all knowing look.
"You and your theories Munch Man."
They laughed and continued on with their paperwork. Little did they know, Munch's joke to the bet was all to true.
Can Elliot convince Olivia to come back? Can he even find her? What happens when an old "friend" comes back into the mix?
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