I had a really strange sense of love once, then oneday just sat and created
this story, because when you doing creative works you r trying to do
introspection.
Some details of this story are imaginary, but it's based on the real facts.
Fidget behave a little bit not like Fidget, but this is maybe because she
felt in love. Love is playing dumb tricks with us.
Yeah, and WARNING some chapters can be rated PG-13.
Sometimes some persons come into our life just to go out of it, and even if u r trying not to let them go, u will only stop them for a short time, but
anyway, they will slip away. ("Try seventeen").
Chapter 1
Fidget glanced at the quickly running trees and houses outside the car, blinked and closed her eyes. Drowsiness absorbed her.
Should she call him... or maybe it's really not a destiny... maybe they were fated never to meet... only goodness knows... but she have to... just to look into his eyes... eyes full of hypocrisy... but maybe he was just too dumb for not loosing her... but then why does she need such an idiot as a friend?
Fidget blinked again, with closed eyes.
They have met via internet. Fidget was in a very gloomy mood, entered chatroom to cheer herself up. And there she found a guy, who was her friend for rather long time. It was 2 or 3 years ago, she wasn't with Team Extreme that time, she was just a young journalist, and tried to choose between different ways, that life suggested her. It was a time, when she was almost without friends, always in her own thoughts, and was even some kind of pc freak. She needed a friend and she found him. He was from London, she has been living in Chicago, there were miles between them. ...Once he have been silent for a long time, month or two, and then said that for him it's a real pain even to write to her, because he feel love, strong love, but their dream to meet each other will never come true. "Eh,"- thought Fidge then - "and why can't u take ticket and come here to make this dream true?" He said it will be better for them to live their own lives. He said he is doing this for her. They haven't been in touch since this chat. He just got rid of her, she was like a toy, unnecessary, out-of-date toy, at least she thought so.
...Fidget opened her eyes; Alex was driving, Grinder, talking with him about smth; she was sitting at the back, with Rikki, near her, murmuring in sleep.
She didn't know why but she just couldn't forget him, she had a really strange feeling inside, which has never had before. Maybe it was just some illusion of love, kind of e-mail love, but something deep inside in soul has told her it wasn't simple affection. Once he sent her a song, Chris Rey's Winter song. This song was keeping her warm inside during all the cold days and was creating some blurred image of friend who is so far away but always thinking about her, caring about her dreams, helping her to fight with her fears.
She remembered words from the song.
If i put my arms around you, Turn you in from the storm, From your autumn, through winter, Darling i'll keep you warm, My overcoat's empty, Deep, wide and long, I've got room for you darling Till your winter, Till your winter has gone.
Sometimes we meet some person and we realize by heart that to live without knowing this person will be really hard, we need him, and we are ready to fight for possibility to be together, we just can't let him go. We are ready to change our life for this person.
...Fidget looked through the windscreen: large drops were on it. Started raining. "come on Fidge, don't be such a mumbler"
If i put my arms round you...
It's not the end:) next chapter will be not so boring i think:)
Sometimes some persons come into our life just to go out of it, and even if u r trying not to let them go, u will only stop them for a short time, but
anyway, they will slip away. ("Try seventeen").
Chapter 1
Fidget glanced at the quickly running trees and houses outside the car, blinked and closed her eyes. Drowsiness absorbed her.
Should she call him... or maybe it's really not a destiny... maybe they were fated never to meet... only goodness knows... but she have to... just to look into his eyes... eyes full of hypocrisy... but maybe he was just too dumb for not loosing her... but then why does she need such an idiot as a friend?
Fidget blinked again, with closed eyes.
They have met via internet. Fidget was in a very gloomy mood, entered chatroom to cheer herself up. And there she found a guy, who was her friend for rather long time. It was 2 or 3 years ago, she wasn't with Team Extreme that time, she was just a young journalist, and tried to choose between different ways, that life suggested her. It was a time, when she was almost without friends, always in her own thoughts, and was even some kind of pc freak. She needed a friend and she found him. He was from London, she has been living in Chicago, there were miles between them. ...Once he have been silent for a long time, month or two, and then said that for him it's a real pain even to write to her, because he feel love, strong love, but their dream to meet each other will never come true. "Eh,"- thought Fidge then - "and why can't u take ticket and come here to make this dream true?" He said it will be better for them to live their own lives. He said he is doing this for her. They haven't been in touch since this chat. He just got rid of her, she was like a toy, unnecessary, out-of-date toy, at least she thought so.
...Fidget opened her eyes; Alex was driving, Grinder, talking with him about smth; she was sitting at the back, with Rikki, near her, murmuring in sleep.
She didn't know why but she just couldn't forget him, she had a really strange feeling inside, which has never had before. Maybe it was just some illusion of love, kind of e-mail love, but something deep inside in soul has told her it wasn't simple affection. Once he sent her a song, Chris Rey's Winter song. This song was keeping her warm inside during all the cold days and was creating some blurred image of friend who is so far away but always thinking about her, caring about her dreams, helping her to fight with her fears.
She remembered words from the song.
If i put my arms around you, Turn you in from the storm, From your autumn, through winter, Darling i'll keep you warm, My overcoat's empty, Deep, wide and long, I've got room for you darling Till your winter, Till your winter has gone.
Sometimes we meet some person and we realize by heart that to live without knowing this person will be really hard, we need him, and we are ready to fight for possibility to be together, we just can't let him go. We are ready to change our life for this person.
...Fidget looked through the windscreen: large drops were on it. Started raining. "come on Fidge, don't be such a mumbler"
If i put my arms round you...
It's not the end:) next chapter will be not so boring i think:)
