She was waiting in the forest for Clarke to come back. She was so incredibly foolish to go after her mother, considering all that was at stake. If her people found out there would be no one to protect the sky people. She would be dead within seconds. She winced as she thought about her people but she shook it off quickly, she knew this had to be done. She also knew that this alliance, however temporary could not survive without Clarke.
Where was she?
Her thoughts were cut off as a whistling noise in the air drew her attention. She had just enough time to spot the missile before it hit, the impact of it knocking her to the ground.
She got up starting to panic if she was that far away and felt the impact Clarke may very well dead. After a moment's hesitation she started running in the direction of tonDC hoping no one would see her.
Lexa's heart aches as she sprints through the forest. The sounds of the wounded and the grieving are pulling at her carefully placed armor around her heart, and suddenly she sees Clarke up ahead making her way to help a dying woman, making her way right back to tonDC. She calls out Clarkes name, but she doesn't seem to hear her she calls her name again, desperation creeping into her voice. Finally she reaches her
"No! Clarke!"
She grabs her shoulders and Clarke slowly focuses on her. Lexa's heart breaks a little as she sees the pain in her eyes. They need to get out of here now.
Suddenly Clarkes demeanor changes, her stance turning stiff and cold, her blue eyes turning into ice. She speaks in violent voice.
"How could you?! How could you kill them?"
The woods around them start to morph until they are standing ten feet apart in front of the mountain
"What about my people? What about me? How could you leave us to die?"
Lexa tries to explain she had to save her people but the words stick to her tongue as Clarke's expression shifts from pain to hopelessness to hatred.
Lexa jolts awake, the dream still fresh in her head. She feels tears streaming down her face and she quickly wipes them off and gets out of bed knowing that she won't be receiving anymore sleep tonight.
Once she steps outside she starts to wander through the woods making her way towards a lake about two miles from her camp. She stays in her night clothes forgoing her armor and she puts a head scarf on so the guards on night shift won't recognize her. She doesn't awaken her personal guards either, instead opting for her sword. She needs to be alone.
She hasn't slept well since the mountain. Her decision haunts her every time she closes her eyes.
She was so sure of her deal with the mountain men, she knew that her people thirsted for blood but she also knew that this was the only way to ensure their safety; they had taken a blow when Clarke burned three hundred of their warriors she wasn't in much of a position to risk more. She remembers calling off the attack with confidence happy to know that her people would live to see another day.
She remembers how everything came crashing down as she looked at Clarke, she remembers how time slowed as realization spread across Clarke's face. And she remembers the hopelessness in her face as she walked away.
Lexa shakes her head trying to snap out of it
"Love is weakness" she murmurs to herself
