This is my first fanfiction for Law and Order I usually write for Australian show Rush, Tangle ro water Rats. I became a fan of Law and order over the Christmas break when nothing was on TV and watched foxtel.

I really like and enjoy the relationship of Olivia and Brian so most of them will probably be about them together. The way they are with each other

This is taken between Imprisoned and Internal Affairs of them moving in together haven't watched the episode inbetween yet but thought I would write something. I Hope you enjoy it and please review it if you like it

It will probably only be a oneshot not sure yet

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Walking inside her apartment looking around at the mess it had been two months since she had been back there, staying with her boyfriend Brian instead he had been so kind and gentle to her, looking after her and ensuring she was ok, not asking questions treating her as normal but he had been there for her when she had the nightmares, the nightmares that no matter how hard she tried wouldn't go away so many things reminded her of what happened, the burns on her body from the cigerettes, the alcohol forced down her throat she would never forget him forcing her to watch as he raped Mayer's mother each time she closes her eyes the scream as he burnt her, in the end she passed out there were some things not matter how much she talked or wanted to forget would never go away. She wanted to be able to close her eyes and not think about him or what he did not see him reaching for her buckle it was at that time she knew he was going to rape her each time she felt his lips on hers or her naked skin the bile that rose in her each time he touched her. The reminders all over her apartment she couldn't get away from them no matter where she went. Was she finally strong enough to be able to do this to face the place where it happened, her apartment the place she called home the place she felt safe in the place where he burnt her, put his hands between her legs, forced her legs open, assaulted her would she feel safe here again.

Walking over picking up the chair hearing Cassidy's voice as he enters the apartment she knew she wouldn't of been able to come back here without him. Looking around at the mess it would take days to clean up everywhere she looked there was memories of the horrific abuse she had suffered at the hands of Lewis tied to the chair, the burns from the cigarette thankfully she had passed out for some of it but each inch of the house reminded her of what happened. Part of her didn't want Cassidy to see this to know exactly what happened to her, he had guessed parts but she couldn't open up to him she couldn't tell anyone except her therapist what happened but even then it was hard. The tape still on the chair where she was tied up to, his mouth on hers.

Watching Liv walk inside hurrying over to her "Hey Liv I wish you let me do this for you" he wanted to help his girlfriend he didn't want her back here to see her apartment like this, dropping the bag on the bench "you okay" watching as she goes to the chair, he knew this was hard for her being where it all happened "I wanted to open some windows" hurrying over to her as she goes to pick up the chair from the ground "I've got that" he knows that look on the face the one where she says "I've got it" standing watching her feeling helpless like he had before wanting to help her be there for her "ok" watching as she stands there "I'm fine" nodding at her he knew it wasn't true but he knows her too well "ok" looking around her apartment he doesn't even want to think what that prick did to her he can still remember hearing Rollins describing what he did to his previous victims and Munch saying he was involved with the victim, that word victim it was then it all hit him that his girlfriend, he loved her and couldn't imagine his life without her and the slight hope he felt when Amanda said that some of his victims lived he had to hold onto that some and that liv would be one of them.

Walking over to open the windows feeling the air upon her face he had taken her down the fire escape she was pushed down more than anything stumbling a couple of times being yanked up by him turning away from the window seeing Brian pretending to do something walking over to him touching his cheek "I'm fine" before walking into the bedroom looking around there were things on the floor the bed he had thrown her on the bed, at one stage she thought he was going to rape her but that was the end game to come later, trying to keep her breathing under control, could she really come back here and stay here.

Watching his girlfriend struggle moving over to her "we can do this another time Liv" shaking her head at him if she doesn't do it maybe she never will looking around the bedroom and her apartment the images there his hands on her legs the gun walking over to the bed moving to it, the thoughts that he was going to rape her his hands moving on her legs, tied up to the bed each flashback coming one after the other.

Moving to the bedroom door, walking inside seeing his girlfriend there walking over to her "c'mon Liv, we're going back to my place" looking up at Brian "Bri I need to do this" his hand on her hand gently nodding "I know you do, it doesn't need to be done today" looking up at him "I can't keep putting it off" nodding at her "ok, baby steps Liv, just being here is a huge one, you know you can stay at my place as long as you want" nodding at Brian "I know Bri, but this is my apartment I can't stay with you for ever" those words stopping him forever is that what he wanted did he actually want her to leave kissing the top of her head "mmm I like the sound of that Liv, seriously you know I love having you there and I am in no rush to have you leave, who is meant to keep me warm at night, snuggle up to" pushing him away gently "Bri, it isn't like we're not going to see each other"

Moving away putting the shopping on the bench "I know Liv but it's been nice", he had enjoyed Olivia living with him, it was nice to come home to someone, to wrap his arms around her at night he had let her take things at her pace waiting until she was ready the first few weeks she was in pain her broken wrist, fracture wrists and the burns, she had kept them hidden from him, not wanting to be naked around him he didn't want to push her, he couldn't imagine her not in his life he was in love with her.

Walking out of the bedroom watching Brian in the kitchen she did enjoy staying with him but she had to do it more for herself part of the healing and moving on, wrapping her arms around him feeling him kiss the top of her head she didn't want to say the words but she didn't want to be here "let's go back to your place" feeling his arms around her gently she felt loved and secure with him, she didn't want to be by herself here not yet.

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A few days later

Walking into her apartment tentatively after work opening the door, she knew Lewis was in jail but she didn't feel 100% safe, Brian was working late at the Bronx she had to do this, a smile on her face things were better he had been here putting things away, there were still some things there picking up her phone, leaving a message "Thanks Bri, miss and love ya" she knew if she told him she was coming back here that he would of left work, tried to talk her out of it, come over but she needed to do it herself.

Feeling sleepy going into the bedroom the sleep not coming each time she closed her eyes 'Welcome home Detective Benson" and the gun on her, how did he get in, the shock she felt jumping at each noise made she didn't feel safe here anymore, walking out checking the door, moving over to the lounge the gun kept close by being by herself the memories there, parts were missing what he did to her the whole time, at one stage she didn't want to know if he had raped her or not but with time passing she needed to know, he didn't have the guts to do it looking down at her chest the small burn marks still there her ribs only slightly sore now, she had her job she hadn't lost that, she missed Cassidy lying next to him feeling secure listening each night to his gentle snoring his arms carefully around her lying close to him, it had taken awhile for them to be intimate again but he was patient it was only the last couple of weeks that she had made love to him again. Closing her eyes willing the sleep to come to over take her lying on the couch staring up at the ceiling she wanted to her Brian's voice to have him here, picking up her phone staring at it.

She was getting exhausted the sleepless nights it had been a couple of nights now staying here whilst Cassidy worked at the Bronx, he didn't want her here by herself but she won out he knew she was here and he was only a phone call away, she also knew if she didn't answer her mobile that he would be over here straight away, walking around the apartment trying to sleep each night she would hope that she would fall asleep from exhaustion but as soon as she closed her eyes his face appeared before her, how she wished Brian was here, she knew there would be a time she would have to be alone that he was working night shifts at the Bronx she couldn't expect him to drop everything for her. Each night she would check the apartment how did he get in the first place no sign of forced entry if he did it once he could do it again. She knew her thoughts were irrational he was in jail for at least 20 years was that enough would he appeal would he get out. The thoughts kept her mind going round each night she wanted to sleep but he was in her thoughts.

Hearing her phone beep a smile on her face her voice soft "I miss you too, she was starting to fall in love with him, slowly but surely at first it was some fun thing nothing too serious but through all of this she had revaluated her relationship with him he had stood by her, he had been there for her, through it all when she woke up sweating from the nightmares he would pull her towards him stroking her hair she felt safe in his arms as safe as she would, what had started out as something casual had turned into more she was falling in love with him, Cassidy was sweet through all of this he had stuck by her not asking her how she felt giving her the space she needed but there whenever she needed him she missed him more than she thought she had fallen in love with this guy, this guy she met 14 years ago, they had been going out for about 6 months now she realized through all of this how much he meant to her.

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Opening the door to his apartment it felt lonely no one home, he got used to Liv being here for 2 months whilst not working coming home to someone it was nice he would cook for her and other times he came home to find a meal waiting for him, he wanted that back again a smile on his face he knew how, would she be up to it and want to, picking up the newspaper only one way to find out. Looking around his apartment there was her touches still there her clothes still lying around how he hated those night shifts he would rather be here with his girlfriend feeling her naked skin her body pressed against his, he was in love with her, he said to Munch that at first he didn't think it would last but he couldn't imagine her not in his life it was true the thought of what Lewis could of done to her, what he thought he was doing to her the fear he thought, when he took her home, she was broken trying to remain strong but she wasn't far from it over time she was coming back to the Liv he knew he would protect her not matter what, he wanted her in his life to come home to her, to make love to her over and over again, he knew exactly what he had to do.

Walking into SVU the following day seeing Munch there "is Liv back yet?" shaking his head "think she is due back soon" sitting down on the chair at her desk "how's she going?"

Looking at Cassidy "Don't you talk to your girlfriend" "you know how Liv is, she doesn't talk much"

Nodding at Cassidy looking up as they walk in "ok Romeo"

Her eyes opening looking around and up at Cassidy "what's this" putting the tray on her lap in the bed "breakfast in bed for my babe eat fast as I'm taking you out" looking up at him suspiciously "what's going on here" grabbing a piece of toast shoving it in his mouth "unless you hurry up you won't find out"

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Walking along the streets holding his hand not much said between them, feeling Brian stop and taking her inside "what's going on here Bri" following him inside "what do you think Liv?" looking around what was she meant to think about "what about? It's an apartment" nodding at her walking around "yeah but how about we make it our apartment" stopping in surprise turning to face him "what" watching as he walks over to her reaching for her hand "I mean it babe, I want us to move in together?" her eyes moving around the apartment before turning back to his boyfriend her mouth open in surprise as he speaks "you don't think it's a good idea?" looking around before her eyes move back to Cassidy a smile on her face "What brought this on?" moving closer to her looking into her eyes "coming home to the empty apartment the other day, I kind of got used to you around Liv, it was nice coming home to someone every night, having you in my bed each night to snuggle up to, to kiss, I've missed you" a smile coming to her face she was ready to move on and forward with him "I think it's a great idea" feeling his arms around her pulling her closer kissing the top of her head not being able to resist finding her lips "you do" seeing her nod as his arm moving to her waist his hand going up her arm he knew she was struggling in her place then turning to face her "All of this lately has made me realize how much I love you Liv and can't imagine you not in my life" reaching up to touch his cheek before her lips finding his "I love you to Bri, and yes I think we should get this place"

Walking around the apartment a while later "its so much bigger than either of our places" looking at Cassidy, she knew it was what she needed and she also knew that despite nothing being said about it, he knew what she was feeling being in her apartment again, the flashbacks walking back to him "so when do we move in?" turning around to look at Liv "how about next week" seeing a slightly surprised look on her face "I'm so happy you like it and want to move" looking up at him "you've already signed the agreement?" shrugging at her trying to look sheepish "kind off, I had to be quick so sent in the application and it got accepted" seeing her eyes looking at him as he continues "we just need to pay the bond and rent and then can get the keys" moving away from him walking around through all of what happened the one of the main things was Brian he had helped her through it, treated her the same didn't continually ask her how she was, she had missed him feeling his arms around her "this is going to be great babe" turning around to face him leaning slowly towards him as her lips meet his, the kiss soft and gentle before growing in intensity moving slightly away from him looking up at him "as long as you're here with me" kissing the top of her head his arms around her "I wouldn't be anywhere else Liv, I'm not going anywhere" seeing her eyes looking up at him as his lips move down meeting hers.