Welcome to my new story! First of all the legal stuff, I own nothing but the idea because if I owned DeGrassi Owen would still be on it!

Ok important stuff to know about this story:

It's A/U and Zoe doesn't exist in my universe.

Alli graduated and early and went to MIT.

Clare does not and will not get cancer and Adam will not die cause I simply refuse to acknowledge they killed Adam at all.

Dallas is not a father and has no ex named Vanessa and never had a crush on Alli.

Also Miles lives with his mother but they are still wealthy.

The rest of it will be explained in back story during this chapter.

Ch.1 Little Miss Didn't Do Right

(CLARE)

"Okay we're here have fun in Paris and don't do anything I wouldn't do." Owen says as he drops Tris, Maya and I off at DeGrassi to catch the bus to the airport and a plane to Paris for an eight week emersion trip.

"Clare aren't you getting out of the car?" Maya asks opening my door and tugging at my sleeve when I don't move.

"You okay Clare you've been quite the whole drive?" Owen questions as he gets our bags out of the trunk with Tris.

"Yeah fine I just…" my sentence trails off as I get out of the SUV and start walking to the bus.

"What I don't get a hug?" Owen complains and I look back to see him hugging Tris and Maya.

I sigh and bite my lip walking back to Owen and giving him a quick hug. "Bye see you in eight weeks." I call to Owen walking quickly to the bus and go in.

Jenna and Connor, break apart from their lovesick gaze to wave at me when I enter the bus. I wave back and take a set in the row across from them. Maya and Tris sit in the seats in front of me, two boys I don't know and must be new at DeGrassi sit across from them. Madam Jean-Aux takes roll and goes over instructions, then the bus starts moving. Owen is still standing by his SUV looking at me and I have to look away, biting my lip again.

"You didn't give Owen much of a hug he was kind of hurt," Tris tells me and I feel worse than I did before.

"I thought you two had gotten really close in the last few months?" Maya asks.

"We have," I reply quietly.

"Closer than you think," I add silently as Maya and Tris begin talking with the two boys in the next seats whom I learn are Miles and Winston, also known as Chewy.

Never thought I'd be friends with Owen Milligan but it started after Cam's death. Eli found Cam's body and we'd already been having problems in our relationship but after that he just snapped! He started taking MDMA almost daily, usually after school but occasionally at school. He started to become abusive, he never hit me or anything but between highs he was verbally and emotionally abusive. I tried to rationalize it and tell myself things would get better but they didn't. One day, a week after Cam's death, Eli had been getting high every day since, we were arguing in the hall after school and we thought everyone was gone. He was yelling at me and telling me I was a terrible person and then Dallas, Owen and Luke appeared. They hit Eli and took me out of there to the Torres house but not before Luke told Eli we were done and to stay away from me. Drew, Bianca and Adam were all at the Torres house already and they found out what happened. Adam ended his friendship with Eli right then.

Eli didn't seem to care at all, by the next day he was dating a goth chick named Lucinda and hanging out with the goth kids. It hurt to break up with him and it hurt to see him with somebody new so soon. I started spending a lot of time at the Torres house after that, Adam was head over heels in love with Becky and often gone with her but I didn't mind because I was glad he'd found someone to love him that way. I'd actually become very close to Bianca and considered her one of my best friends now. I'd also gotten very close to Drew so when he managed to get himself elected to student council president next year and he asked me to be VP I accepted. I'd also been spending a lot of time with Dallas, Owen and Luke and I mean a lot of time. Dallas was repeating like Drew and Owen was still living at home and would be attending TU this year. Bianca was the only one leaving us to go to Wilfred Laurier University but she was still engaged to Drew. And Eli was finally gone at NYU so I wouldn't have to see him any longer. Not to mention I was on a bus on my way to the airport to board a plane to Paris so I should be happy but I wasn't. In fact I was petrified and it had nothing to do with the eight hour plane ride we were about to take.

I was petrified because my period was late and I was pretty much a hundred percent certain I was pregnant. I had yet to take a pregnancy test, I planned to do that once we got to Paris and I was six thousand kilometers from home so I could sneak off alone and be sure my mom wouldn't find out. It wasn't just the certainty that I was pregnant that had me terrified it was also the fact that I didn't know who the father was. It's not as though I had been randomly sleeping with a ton of men since the breakup with Eli or anything. In fact I'd had sex exactly twice, just with two different guys and on consecutive nights. I knew the guys quite well now too but as sure as I was that I was pregnant I was sure neither of them wanted to be a teen dad. The possibilities for baby daddy were Owen Milligan and Mike Dallas! Like I said I'd gotten quite close to the both of them since my breakup with Eli.

As close as we'd gotten I'd never dated either one and despite the fact that they had both been very sober when they'd had sex with me I was fairly sure I was only a friend to them. It's not like it's typically hard to convince a guy to have sex, especially not guys like Owen and Dallas. Oh I don't mean to make them sound like monsters or creeps they are both actually very good guys. I spent a lot of my time with them flirting, innocently flirting as I had no intentions of doing anything else or even dating them and I think they knew that and had no other intentions either. They'd flirt back and it felt good after Eli to have that fun and affection. They did more cheering me up than even Adam did, if they ever caught me watching him in the hall they'd distract me and make me smile. I wish I'd kept it as innocent flirting and never taken it as far as I did.

Prom night was the night that forever changed my life and me, even if I didn't get pregnant that night it is the night I lost my virginity. It was our last day of school for the year, for Owen, Bianca and the rest graduating class it was their last day of high school forever. We'd been let out early and prom was at eight, I was going in a group with Owen, Dallas, Drew, Bianca, Becky, Adam, Jenna, Connor, Fiona, Imogen, Alli, Luke and Dave. The three couples hit the dance floor as soon as we'd arrived and abandoned us single people to the table which left me with four guys. After complimenting my royal purple and black dress Dallas was the first to ask me to dance. It was while dancing with Dallas that I saw Eli dancing with and making out with Lucinda. It's not like I hadn't seen them in the halls but knowing that he and I should have been attending this dance together it was like pouring salt into the wound. I excused myself and did my best to pull myself together in the washroom, which was working fine until I went back out and caught Eli and Lucinda having sex in the coat closet.

I sort of exploded into this volcanic eruption of emotions but instead of screaming at them, or hurting them I chose to hurt myself. I didn't cut myself or anything, no I snuck into the kitchen at the hotel where prom was being held and swiped a bottle of brandy. It was about half full but I drank nearly the second half before Dallas found me. I was pretty drunk at this moment and everything in the world was hilarious to me. Dallas, knowing he couldn't take me home took me to his place, also known as the Torres house. He texted Adam to let him know, I found this out the next morning. Audra and Omar were in Kingston for the night so when we got there we were alone. He gave me some coffee, and put me on the sofa, I think he scolded me for drinking too which I found funny given that he'd given me my first beer. At some point I got myself into his lap and was playing with his ears, he said something about me being a silly drunk and then I kissed him.

The kissing became making out, the making out led to undressing and then we were in Dallas' bed and making love. I remember him being sweet and going slow but there wasn't pain that night, the alcohol had numbed all my senses too much. Even in the alcohol haze it had felt amazingly good when I did orgasm but it did seem like we made love for a very long time before I had an orgasm. He'd helped me into one of his shirts after that and I'd fallen asleep in his bed. No one else knows we had sex, they know I was drunk and Dallas helped me to his place and put me to bed. I didn't feel exactly great the next morning but I never threw up or really had a hangover and after a couple aspirin and some coffee I was ready for Owen and Bianca's graduation.

This leads me to my second night of love making and this time I wasn't drunk. After the ceremony and the family BBQ at the school Fiona, whose family had gotten their wealth back, threw a huge graduation/goodbye party at her loft. She was moving to Italy and they would be selling the loft. Well even Declan and Mr. Coyne flew in to see her graduate and of course they had to meet Imogen. Mr. and Mrs. Coyne were not at the party but I was and so were Eli and Lucinda! They were all over each other and she was talking about how she was following Eli to NYU, they were getting an apartment and she was getting a full time job. They were disgustingly happy and when Eli made an off handed comment about her being the best girl friend he's ever had and how he now knows what true love is I had to get out of there. Owen caught me before I reached the door and pulled me into what used to be Drew's room. He offered to break Eli's legs while wiping my tears and I pounced on him.

Yep I initiated the sex, pretty sure I initiated it both times actually but prom night's still a little fuzzy. This time I hadn't had a drop of alcohol, of course there wasn't any at the party I just wanted to feel…anything, anything but hurt and I knew that orgasms would feel amazing! It's not like Owen was protesting mind you, the second I attached my lips to his he kissed me back. I gripped his shirt and ripped off and he unzipped my dress, within a few minutes we were lying on the bed and he was thrusting inside of me. This time it did hurt a little but he was slow and gentle until the pain was gone. No one heard us, the music was loud and I knew from Drew that the walls were very sound proofed. It was exactly what I needed and I felt so much better afterward, walking out with a smile on my face and nothing Eli or Lucinda did or said the rest of the night bothered me.

I still had my purity ring on, mostly to fool my mother but also to fool everyone else. Not another soul, aside from Dallas and Owen themselves, knew that I'd lost my virginity and Dallas and Owen weren't aware that I'd slept with the other. We never talked about it; they didn't brag about it, we had agreed afterward to just never speak of it. So Dallas knew that he's taken my virginity but had no idea I'd had sex after that and especially no idea that I'd slept with Owen. And Owen knew that I'd had sex with him in Drew's old room at Fiona's grad party and probably assumed he'd taken my virginity because he had no idea I'd slept with Dallas the night before. Two incredible nights of passion and both times we hadn't used protection, I have no excuse for my stupidity of not thinking to use protection when I had sex with Owen but when I slept with Dallas I was drunk. I guess both nights my emotions overran my ability to think and now I was pregnant with a child that belonged to them.

I had no intentions of ever telling Owen or Dallas, or anyone that I was pregnant. I'd give the baby up and just hide the fact that I was pregnant. I couldn't tell Dallas or Owen, admit my mistake and stupidity and ruin their lives. No it wasn't necessary I could get through this on my own. I just wish it hadn't strained my friendship with them so much in the last week. For the first couple of weeks after everything was fine, great even. Eli and Lucinda had left for New York so I didn't have to see or hear from them. I went back to innocently flirting and so did Owen and Dallas, never talking or even hinting at the fact that we'd slept together. We hung out together, did movie nights at the Torres house, went to the beach, even helped move Bianca into her dorm room, driving to Waterloo together in Owen's SUV to do so.

It wasn't until ten days ago when my period was due and never came that things went bad. I started avoiding Owen and Dallas as much as I could, making excuses and other plans but I still spent some time with them so they wouldn't feel hurt or get suspicious. Owen had always planned to drive Maya, Tris and I to the school today so I couldn't avoid him today, the last week I'd told him and Dallas that I couldn't hang out because I was staying at my dad's house. In reality it had been ten days with no period and I just knew I was pregnant and being around Owen or Dallas only made me feel guilty and anxious.

"Clare, earth to Clare we're at the airport get off the bus," Jenna says tugging at my sleeve.

"Sorry I was just thinking," I apologize standing up.

"Yeah I saw that, deep in thought you okay you look all spacey." Jenna comments as we follow Miles and Winston off the bus.

"Fine just a lot on my mind," I reply.

"You want to talk about it?" She asks.

Jenna's been pregnant before, K.C. wasn't exactly thrilled at first but he came around and she would understand better than anyone else, she even gave her baby up for adoption but Ty was almost two months old by then. I don't want to talk about it though; I don't want to admit that it's really happening.

"No, it's nothing I'm just tired." I reply.

"Well our plane ride is almost eight hours and we'll arrive in Paris a day ahead so you can sleep on the plane." Connor tells me.

"Connor we're all sleeping on the plane." Jenna laughs as we get our bags.

"Hey we need to call Owen," Tris says after we've gone through security and were sitting at our gate waiting to board.

"Oh yeah, we told him we'd call when we were through security. You want to call and talk to him Clare?" Maya offers.

"No I uh have to use the washroom, just tell him I said hi." I reply and walk away to find a washroom.

(MAYA)

"I can't believe we're in Paris!" I squealed getting out of the van that had driven me, Clare, Tris, Miles and Chewy to our boarding house for the next eight weeks.

"I cannot wait to eat a real French crepe for breakfast," Tris smiled.

"They sell them from food carts we can find one as soon as we unpack," Miles tells us.

"Miles has been to Paris three times," Winston explains.

"Let's get our bags in so we can go explore, I want to see everything," I smiled excitedly.

"And I'll show you everything," Miles said with a flirty grin and I blushed.

"Hey Clare come get your bags so…where's Clare?" I asked looking in the van and around it with no sign of Clare.

"She just walked in," Jenna tells us.

"She left her bags in the car, something's up with her she's been acting weird all week." I remark.

"Don't worry we're three strong guys we can get her bags," Miles says.

The four of us grab the bags and go in; Madam tells us what rooms we have. Boys are on the east wing and luckily Miles, Winston and Tris are rooming together. Girls on the west wing and I thankfully get roomed with Jenna and Clare because I don't know anyone else on this trip besides Tris, Miles and Winston. When Jenna and I get up to the room Clare is there gazing out the window with that melancholy lost in her head look again. There are bunk beds against one wall and a single bed against the other which Clare is sitting on.

"I guess we have the bunk beds then," Jenna comments as we put the bags down.

"I want the top one," I tell her climbing up.

Our room is a good size, there's a large closet and three small dressers, a vanity, a washroom for the three of us to share and a balcony. Clare doesn't even seem to have registered the fact that Jenna and I have entered the room.

"Come on we'll have to unpack later, Madam wants us at orientation and then Connor and I are going to the Eifel Tower." Jenna says.

Clare has yet to move so I look at Jenna and we go over, each of us taking one of her hands and pulling her up with us. We find the classroom and sit down with the guys including Connor when everyone is there Madam starts. After going over basic terms and street signs that will be important to us, she gives us all a map of the city and sends us off.

"Okay let's go change and explore," I insist.

"We have to call Owen first," Tris reminds me pulling out his phone.

"Hey bro…yep we're all here safe and sound…we have rooms on opposite sides but Maya and Clare are rooming together…yeah Clare's uh…" Tris says looking around, as do the rest of us and Clare has vanished again so I grab the phone.

"Hey Owen you know Clare felt just gross after that plane ride and she wanted a shower." I tell him and it could be where she ran off to.

"Oh okay I'll talk to her next time I guess. Let's video chat tomorrow say 10 for you guys, 4 for me and just before your curfew." Owen suggests.

"Great sounds good, tomorrow then bye Owen," I say and hang up giving Tris back his phone.

"Okay let's meet out front in twenty I'm starving and Maya if you do find Clare see if you can get her to come with us, she's been much too despondent for being in Paris." Tris says.

"Yeah I will, see you guys out front in a bit." I tell them and go back to my room.

Jenna is at the vanity and having changed her clothes is freshening her makeup. Clare is in the washroom and I do hear water running but it's the sink, a minute later she opens the washroom door just as I'm changing in the closet.

"We'll off for a romantic date with Connor, see you guys tonight." Jenna says rushing out the door.

"Clare change your clothes and come exploring with us!" I insist to her.

"No I…" she starts to argue.

"No arguments, we're going for crepes and you need to eat breakfast." I remind her.

"Alright I'm coming, is it just you and Tris?" She asks going to her bag and getting out a denim skirt and light blue short sleeve top.

"No Miles and Winston are coming with us, they're really nice though and I think Tris has a crush on Winston." I tell her and she gives me a look twisting her mouth to one side.

"Hey I wasn't so out of it on the bus ride, plane ride and van ride that I didn't hear you and Miles flirting. You talked the whole bus ride, you flirted before going to sleep on the plane and you talked during the whole bus ride." She teases lightly as she goes into the washroom and closes the door part way to change.

"You think he was flirting back? He's very nice and really cute don't you think?" I question gushing a little.

"I think he seems sweet and Owen would approve," she tells me coming out of the washroom.

"Yeah speaking of Owen, you disappeared from the room really fast when we were calling Owen. If Owen did something wrong or something you didn't like then just talk to him." I urge her.

"No it's not..." she pauses biting her lip and looking anxious or pensive. "Come on the others are waiting for us." She says grabbing my hand and her purse.

I grab mine too and we go downstairs where the guys are waiting. "Miles and Winston this is our good friend Clare, she'll be a senior this year she's good friends with Tristan's brother Owen which is why she's good friends with us too." I introduce Clare to the new guys.

After they all exchange a nice to meet you we start walking. We only have to go a block before we come across a crepe stand. Clare gets a very simple one with strawberries and whipped cream. I get one with nutella, whipped cream, bananas and strawberries. Winston and Miles get savory ones and Tris gets what Winston got. After breakfast we went to the Notre Dame cathedral before catching a bus to the Arc De Triomphe. After exploring the area around the Arc we stopped at a café for lunch, at which Clare got tea and sandwich. While we were eating Clare's phone rang. It was after one for us so it was about seven in Toronto. Clare pulled it from her purse and looked at who was calling before answering.

"Hey Adam…yep all safe and sound…yeah I share a room with Jenna and Maya it's nice…exploring with Maya, Tris and two new boys Miles and Winston…yeah they're nice…no uh we have to go but uh tell Dallas I said hi okay bye then." She says and hangs up abruptly I exchange a look with Tris.

"Did you just hang up on Adam because Dallas wanted to say hi?" I ask her.

"No what makes you say that?" She asks picking at her sandwich.

"Because you were having a nice conversation with Adam and then got nervous and told him we had to go and to tell Dallas hi before hanging up." I reply.

"I didn't hang up because Dallas wanted to talk to me," she insists.

"Well I believe you Clare," Miles says and she gives him a grateful smile then he turns to me. "So milady what would you like to do now?" He asks.

"Can we see the Louvre?" I ask.

"Yep it's back the other way," Miles says standing up and offering me his hand.

"You know you guys go ahead I'll see you guys back at the house," Clare says and then starts walking away from us.

"Clare wait you can't go by yourself," I call after her.

"I have my map I'll be fine," she calls back.

"If you get lost there's five guys and two girls that will have our heads for letting you get lost!" I call after her but she disappears into the crowd.

"Five guys?" Winston questions arching his eyebrows.

"And two girls?" Miles grins.

"No I didn't mean that the way it sounded, not guys she's dating or ever dated. Adam the one that called is her best friend he'd kill us for losing her, then his brother Drew and Dallas lives with them, Tristan's brother Owen, then there's Luke. And Jenna and Bianca are two of her best friends and Bianca is dating Adam's brother." I explain.

"You lost me like four people ago," Winston replies.

"She has a lot of male friends," Tris clarifies.

"Got it, so to the Louvre then," Miles says offering me his arm.

We take a bus back to the Louvre and get the discounted price since we're visiting students. Miles escorts me through the museum by keeping hold of my hand while Tris and Winston lag behind us a little to sort of be alone. When we left the museum we walked along the Seine and Miles held my hand the whole way. Then we walked through Tuileries Garden as it turned from dusk to dark, Winston started telling Tris about the constellations and Miles walked me over to a bench sitting down facing me with our knees touching. He leans over and kisses me softly.

"Be my girlfriend," he says more than asks but I don't care.

I smile take his other hand and join our lips again, opening my mouth this time and deepening the kiss.

(CLARE)

After leaving Maya and the others it takes me over an hour to find a pharmacy but I finally do. After purchasing a home pregnancy test I take a cab back to the house so I don't wander the city looking for it. Once I'm absolutely sure that Jenna is still out I lock the door to our room and the door to the washroom before I open the box and read the instructions and yes they had English instructions. Of course it says to wait and do it first thing in the morning! I can't wait until morning! I'm going to go crazy! I hide the test in my bathrobe pocket and go back out to the room. I can't just sit here and think about it I really will go crazy so back out to the city I go. I just start wandering and then I come across a clinic, it's one for mainly tourists it looks like as it's on the same block as two hostels and our mansion that was converted to school dorms for trips like ours. It looks decent and clean so I go in hoping they can do a pregnancy test.

"Hi I uh…I need a pregnancy test." I tell the reception nurse.

"Fill these out," the nurse says with a heavy French accent.

I take the clipboard and sit down, there are a few other tourists in the clinic including a German couple in their late 30's, the female appears to be in pain. I know they're German because I heard them talk. There is a very attractive young man who looks American or maybe Italian, he's eyeing me but has not said anything. If I was here for any reason other than a pregnancy test I met be eyeing him back. Then there's two men in their twenties and they are most definitely American, they are talking loudly so it's quite obvious. One of them has twisted his ankle which is why they are here. As mine is the least urgent reason for being here I wait at the clinic for over three hours before I'm seen.

"Hullo I am Dr. Belval I understand you are here for a pregnancy test Clare." The doctor introduces himself when he comes in the room.

"Yes," I nod.

"Very good we will draw some blood," he says and somehow it doesn't sound so scary in a French accent. A nurse comes in and they take some blood, then they have me do a urine test as well. "Congratulations Miss Edwards you are pregnant," the doctor tells me but even in a French accent it this still sounds petrifying.

The nurse hands me a bunch of pamphlets as the doctor begins talking to me but my mind goes foggy and I don't hear any of it. After I pay and leave I wander my way back to the house and my room. I should be eating dinner but I'm not in the least bit hungry. Instead I go into the washroom and take a bath. A million thoughts run through my mind, among them the contemplation to tell Owen and Dallas but that thought rapidly fleets its way from my mind. I only see that going badly, very very badly. No I can never tell either of them, I don't need to tell anyone. I'll just stick to the original plan, hide the pregnancy and give up the baby. And then, for no reason other than my body is filled with emotion right now, I burst into tears. When I hear the door to the room open I get out of the bath, put on my bathrobe and go out to see Maya in the room with a smile on her face.

"Clare guess what?! Miles asked me to be his Girlfriend! I haven't even been in this city a day and I already have a boyfriend! Wait until I tell Owen when we video chat tomorrow! Which by the way you are joining us for." Maya tells me in nearly one breath.

"No I don't want to talk to Owen," I reply going to my bag and pulling out my pajamas.

"You're talking to Owen unless you can give me a good reason why you won't!" Maya asserts.

"Maya I just can't okay," I snap at her walking into the washroom to get dressed. I take off the robe putting it on the floor and then the door bursts open. "MAYA!" I shriek grabbing my robe from the floor to cover myself again, as I do the pregnancy test I earlier stashed in the pocket falls to the floor.

"Clare that is not a…is that a pregnancy test?" Maya gasps looking at the pink box on the pink and white tile floor.

The fear and the reality of it all sinks into me with such a heavy weight I sink to the floor clutching my robe to my chest and new tears come. Maya sits at my side and helps cover me with my robe then puts her hand on my arm.

"Clare are you pregnant?" She questions.

"You can't tell anyone Maya, please not a single soul." I plead with her wiping away my tears.

"Okay I won't but who's the father?"

Update next Monday picking up from right here with more Maya pov and Owen's video chat plus another call from Adam