Hello!
Before you read my fic, I would like to warn you about a little thing: this is THE FIRST time I write in English, so, if there's some mistakes out there, I'm really sorry. Hope you enjoy it!
Disclaimer: NANA doesn't belong to me
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The Full Moon Reminds Me Of You
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Even today, Takumi doesn't understand my interest by the full moon. And he never will. As always, while I look at it I can't stop wondering if you do the same… if you still remember…
Have a man who likes us and who gives us what we want isn't everything. I may have it but, Nobu, that is not what I need. What I need, while I look at this moon, is the warmth of your hand, the security of your arms, the love and the fire in your eyes. I need everything you can give me and no other man can, even the father of my child, who reminds me every day that I chose the wrong man. I can't avoid it... every time I think about what we could have been, although it has passed all this years, I still cry like a 20-year-old girl, who waits for her prince forever.
Was it just a few days? Yes, it was, and I still ask myself if it really happened. Nobody makes me laugh like you did; nobody awakes the tenderness as you did. I just want to be with you. You know, it is really funny: when I finally decide I'm going to see you, Satsuki shows up and reminds me that a mother sacrifices everything for her child.
It would be wrong if I put the guilty of what happened in someone's shoulders. It was me who didn't answered your calls, it was me the one who avoided you for so long and it was me who didn't had the courage to put an end to everything and say "I'm sorry". That night Nobu, when we cried together in my room, do you remember? It was the darkest night…
Everyone always knew that I am weak. But I was sure if I saw you before the wedding, I wouldn't have known how to control my feelings. If I had left everything behind and tried to be happy with you, I would have forced you to be the father of a child that wasn't yours. That would have destroyed your life professionally and psychologically speaking, because it would have made you remember that I wasn't strong enough to run away from a dark man like my husband.
No, I couldn't do that. The love that I feel for you and that I've been hidden from everyone so well, will be burning until the end of my days in a dark place of my heart. Every single moment that I spent with you will be treasured forever, because no one will make me happier than you did and, Nobu, I really believed that we could stay together…
My dream had always been having a great wedding and a big happy family, if I couldn't have that, my biggest fear had happened. But, when I knew that me and Takumi were going to be parents, when he asked me to be his bride and when I look around and see all this luxury, the tears that I cried and still cry are not from happiness… because, as I have always known but have never admitted, I only have needed you, and just you, to be the happiest woman around the world. Nowadays, my biggest fear has changed slightly, and I walk with it everyday. It really hurts when two people are in love and pretend that they aren't, when we are with that person and need to control our feelings avoiding touch each other, when we can't be no logger together and be as happy as we were in those days… doesn't it?
Say, Nobu, if you had opened the door in that night, would it have been different?
No, I don't think so…
N.A.: THE END! During the fic, I let you know that Nobu does still love Hachi. They still meet during the day of the fire show, remember? I'm really happy with this fic, I wanted so much write something about Nobu and Hachi, even if it hadn't a happy ending! (one day I'll write one for them, you can bet on it :D). If you want to give me your opinion, I'll be really happy, and it would mean a lot.
Thank you,
Neffer-Tari
