Hardest Of All

Author Note: So, so short but Children of Earth meant so much to me. You know I'm not exactly fan of homosexual relationships. I'm OK with them really but in my country, in my religion it's a little bit different.

Story is not about Janto. Steven dies and this is how Jack feels…-oh how I cried, I'm sure that I couldn't make that choice. To much you know, killing your own grandson with your bare hands, so much pain-

''No Dad No !''

She screamed but I didn't hear. 35 million child. 35 million child like my grandson was going to die. Sacrificing Steven seemed my only choice. Only thing I could have done. Killing my own grandson, with my bear hands.

They put Steven middle of the circle and I killed him. So much pain he was in, and so much blood. After all these years, after Lucia, after Ianto there was hardly left any tears in this immortal body.

But this was my grandson. And I was killing him. But it was to late, all I had left was the tears. Alice would hate me, despise me not as much as I did but still…

He is not a daddy material, they said maybe they are true..

Who would kill his own grandson ? A heartless bastard ! That's what I am. An useless piece of shit. An anomaly, never meant to live. All I did was to bring death.

I was the death of my own grandson.

''Jack, don't do that again please. To much blood for a goddess to handle.''

I stared at Rose, in black, her hazel eyes now had a sparkle of golden. To me she was Rose. To the Galaxy she was the Bad Wolf.

''How could you handle Doctor's death Rose ? It has been thousand years since and their wounds, Ianto's Alice's and Steven's they are still too fresh. ''

She looked at me and then at the knife in my hand.

''Some poor girl once said to me, 'Our life is not the most precious thing in our hands. It's expendable. Sometimes for our beloveds, sometimes for family and even some stranger we don't know. Because deep inside we always know when it's right to give it away.''

''It still hurts.'' So much to admit..

''I know. But I thought you liked philosophy .''

I smiled for the first time in centuries and somewhere far far away my family smiled to me too.''

I looked to Doctor billions and billions years later and whispered

''You are not alone.''

We'll always be there for you. Hiding in the shadows or just watching from the sky..