This is my first fanfic! This idea came after listening to the song called "Colors" by Crossfade! Hope you like it!
Summarize: Dan has just died, and Tsunade's heart is broken. Will her actions break also Jiraiya's?
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or any characters from the series… I wish I did…
How Could You?
The blond sad woman burst through the doors of her bedroom. Without wasting any second, she bended her knees and grabbed a bag that was under her undone bed. Placing it on top of the bed's white sheets, she went like a robot towards her closet. Breaking both of the doors keeping the closet closed, she threw her hands inside like a shark chasing its prey. Frustrated, she kept pulling things out of the closet without noticing the man that had stepped inside her bedroom.
"Tsunade." The new person said, making the blond freeze and look over her shoulder. "Tsunade, what are you doing?" The said Tsunade just grunted and continued with her plans ignoring the tall man whom was waiting for her to answer. "Well?" He finally said after two minutes of silence.
She continued without expressing a sound. The man sighed and placed a warm hand in her shoulder. "Hime-"
"Don't Jiraiya." Tsunade said in a low dangerous voice while smacking his hand. She stood up straight and stared into his onyx eyes. "You know what I'm doing." She stated breaking the eye contact. Tsunade got the last piece of cloth and put it inside the old bag.
"Yes I know… Think twice Tsunade, please don't leave."
Tsunade froze, her eyes widened up for a second. Regaining her composure, she turned around to face him. Glaring at him, she hissed, "Don't you dare to tell me what to do."
Jiraiya stared at her. Her shinobi dress was in a bad state with holes everywhere. The red nail polish that usally covered her perfect, beautiful nails had fallen. Her always shiny bright blond hair was now dark and messy behind her ears. But her face, oh man, her face was like a maniac before commiting a madness. Her dried lips had formed a crooked smile. She had raised an eyebrow, making her look more dangerous than what she already was. The shimmering in her eyes had faded, revealing a dark endless path that not even the bravest man would ever get to adventure.
But Jiraiya knew her too well. Glaring back, he crossed his arm and blocked the door. "I know what happened to him, and I know it must have been horrible. But please Tsunade, don't leave home and family." He said ignoring her last comment.
"It's gone. My family's gone. I have no one live for. So get out of my way, Jiraiya. I don't want to hurt you." She hissed dangerously.
Her words hit him hard, but they were not enough to back him down. "No it's not gone. You have Sarutobi-sensei and you also have myself." He corrected her, trying to avoid the name of Orochimaru. When that bastard left the village, Tsunade was broken down and only Jiraiya and the Third had been able to comfort her. "And remember this, Hime I will always be there with you no matter what."
Tsunade looked away trying to maintain the treacherous tears inside. She didn't want to look weak. Looking back at him, she snorted dryly. "Don't make me laugh. I don't need anyone. And much less an idiot like you who has been bothering me my whole life. So don't try to stop me."
He frowned at her harsh words. "This is not the Tsunade I…" This is not the Tsunade I fell in love with. "…met. I miss the young nice Tsu-chan."
Tsunade could not hold them anymore and tears ran down her cheeks. It started with a sob, but later on screams of sorrow filled the streets. Walking backwards, Tsunade closed her eyes while bending a little her body in half. She grabbed her hair and pulled from it while saying "It was my entire fault" over and over again.
Jiraiya walked hastily towards her and hugged her tighly. "No it wasn't Tsunade. We are in war, this happens everyday in different places. I know how you feel Hime." He said strocking the back of her head.
"I-I wasn't able t-to save h-him J-Jiraiya. D-dan shouldn't have died." She managed to say gripping his T-shirt hard making her knuckles turn white.
"Sshh… Don't talk about it, it'll hurt you." Don't even think about that bastard. He shouldn't be the cause of your tears… and love. "Justr try to rest. You're exhausted."He whispered to her hear softly.
She stopped crying after a while. Letting a loud sigh escape her lips, the Slug Princess felt asleep in his arms. Jiraiya smiled softly and laid her down in her bed. Taking off her worn out shoes, the white-haired shinobi pulled over her the sheets. When he was on the door, he turned around and stared at her calm peaceful face. Her hair was spread over the pillow in a comfortable way. Coming next to her, he took off her hitae-ate placing it on her bedside table. He kissed her forehead and pulled away. A small shy smile came up to her lips.
He went to the lounge and laid down on the couch. Placing his hands under his head, he looked up at the ceiling. Why was the world so cruel to him? He had always stayed with her, loved her, wanted her. But now she had been hurt badly, making him hurt too. When her little brother Nawaki died, Jiraiya had comforted her, had helped her endure the loss. But now… He didn't know if he was going to be able to- No! He was going to bring her back to a hopeful life no matter what! That was a promise!
He was too tired so he went to sleep, in his shaken dreams always her beautiful smile.
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The white-haired Sannin opened his eyes but blinked several times due to the bright light coming from the window. He sat up on the couch and stretched his arms whilst yawning. Looking at his surrounding, Jiraiya remembered last night's events. Hastily he walked towards Tsunade's room. In the hall, he passed Nawaki's room, memories of him running through his mind. When he opened the door and stepped inside her room, he found it empty. Rushing towards the open window, he looked outside, but even though he didn't want to admit it, he knew the truth. She, the love of his live, was gone. Forever.
He took his head with both hands groaning in frustration. Why him!? His cool shinobi mask faded and tears fell down his cheeks. When all of his sorrows left his body with the tears, he sighed to calm him down. He planned something, something to bring her back to his side. Walking over to the door, he noticed a letter and Tsunade's hitae-ate next to it. It was addressed to him. Taking it with two trembling hands, he read from it.
Jiraiya,
I'm sorry for yesterday's drama, but I will not come back to Konoha no matter what. I swear I won't place a foot under its ground.
I think here's where our path together ends, Jiraiya. I have taken with me Shizune. Her uncle was Dan…
Good bye and wish you the best. Your friend,
Tsunade
He let the letter fall from his hands. He didn't know how to react to it. Anger, betray, sorrow? Or everything combined? He chose the last one. How could she be so… insensible? He took her Leaf hitae-ate and went to the front door. Opening it, Jiraiya slammed it, not even turning back. Behind him smoke started to appear and the smell of fire remained in the air.
Inside, in the female Sannin's bedroom, the fire was devouring the stupid, cursed letter. Before the fire could finish eating the letter, a strong wind came through the window extinguising the fire and carrying the pieces of letter that survived along with the words inside. That wind blew over Hell also known as "The Hidden Village of the Leaf". The strong blow shook the branches of the weak dead trees, sending sad, desperate whispers of How could you?
Author's Notes:
Okay! I hoped you like it! If you ask me to, I could make the moment where Jiraiya and Naruto are looking for Tsunade and the feelings and thoughts running through both of their minds when they meet… Umm… yeah… Review please!!
Lyrics "Colors" by Crossfade
Can you feel it crush you, does it seem to bring the worst in you out
There's no running away from these things that hold you down
Do they complicate you because they make you feel like this
Of all the colors that you've shine this is surely not your best
But you should know these colors that you're shining are
Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine
I know you feel alone yeah and no one else can figure you out
But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down
Well they'd love to save you don't you know they love to see you smile
But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style
But you should know these colors that you're shining are
Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine
I know you're feeling like you're lost
But you should know these colors that you're shining are
I know you're feeling like you're lost you feel you've drifted way too far
Did you know these colors that you're shining are
Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine
(Surely not the best)
I know you're feeling like you're lost
(Colors that you shine)
But you should know these colors that you're shining are
(Surely not the best)
I know you're feeling like you're lost you feel you've drifted way too far
Did you know these colors that you're shining are
