I stared at the corpse in front of me. The usually rosy lips were pale.
They were turned down at the corners, opposite of their usual look. The
eyes were closed. The face was expressionless. I felt like I was looking at
a mannequin from a shop in a mall. This just couldn't be. I must be
dreaming. I must really be dreaming. The corpse, it wasn't my sister's. No
it wasn't. It was some other person. Someone who I didn't know. My sister
was home, making cookies for me to make up for the fight we had. As soon as
I would get home I would apologize and she would hug me and tell me it was
okay and that we were unbreakable duo. And then we would sit in front of
the TV and share old jokes and make up silly new ones...
The door opened and I stared at the person who walked in. Teal eyes disbelieving, blond hair tousled. Skin pale like a corpse. Like the corpse of my sister. My dead sister. It was because of her. Her car. Her red car. Red like blood. In the rain. Cold. I felt so cold.
"Get out of here!" the teal eyes focused on me surprisingly, as if they didn't expect me to be there. The confused face stared at me. Then I saw remorse. I couldn't take it. I fumbled for something to clutch, something...as soon as I had a grip I picked up the object and hurled it across the room without even looking at it. It hit right where I wanted to.
There was a whack. Her hand rose in shock at her head where blood was smeared on the blond hair and forehead, flowing down the temple, down the cheeks. She looked at me horrified at the sight of her own blood.
"Serves you right," I said sneering at her. My eyes clouded over. I lost my balance and fell into oblivion.
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"It's minor," The nurse smiled, "You will live."
"Thanks," I replied. Even to my ears my voice sounded shaky. Her words echoed in my mind. You'll live. I will live. What about the girl? I shuddered and then left the nurse's to see the doctor. I knocked on the door.
"Come in!" I walked and looked at the pleasant smiling doctor. Her short blue hair was falling into her eyes and even underneath the lines of stress and age you could see lingering beauty. The girl was beautiful too. But she would never grow old. She will forever stay 19.
"How is she doing, Dr. Mizuno?" I asked afraid of the answer.
"She is under a lot of stress. Her sister was the only family she had." The doctor explained, "She was just a bit out of control for a while. She will be fine."
"About her sister..."
"We couldn't do anything, Haruka-san." The doctor replied gently, "When you brought her in she was brain dead. The hit plus the shock she was in shut her brain off completely." I sighed at the answer. Getting out of the room I walked to the unconscious woman's room. She was on her side. Her lips were pale and pressed together. Her cheeks held no color. The mass of the aqua marine hair was spread out on the pillow behind her. I had taken her only family away. I had taken it away. Taken it. If it wasn't for me, she would still be happy. Suddenly I questioned my existence. If I wasn't alive her sister would have never died. I should have died ages ago. I knew what she felt like. Once upon a time death had taken my family away too. I knew exactly how she felt. If only I had died in that accident with my family, her sister would have been still alive. Not dead. I considered the possibility of suicide. This wasn't new for me. I had tried to commit suicide after my family left me until I got counseling. Now I knew I had to live. I had my own family at home waiting.
The face was my young baby Hotaru flashed in my head. She was only 10 months old. When I had been visiting Dr. Mizuno one time, I met a doctor who told me about an accident that had occurred to a family. All had died but a woman who was pregnant. The doctors were trying to get the baby out of the mother, trying to save it. The woman died giving birth. Her little dark haired baby was going to go to the adoption centre. But I decided to take care of her. Now I had to go home for her. See my little girl. I sighed and reached out to touch the woman's cheek. I had taken this woman's family away. All I could do was come here and apologize to her tomorrow. I wasn't looking forward to it considering the board she had tossed at my head today. But I knew I had to. Turning around I drove home shivering in the rain.
When I walked home I saw the baby sitter.
"Hi Haruka-san!" Usagi said to me chirpily, "Did they make you stay late at work again?"
"No, I was in an accident." I replied.
"Oh what happened?" she asked.
"I will tell you later. It's late. Your folks must be worrying. Do you need a ride?"
"Mamo-chan will pick me up." She smiled, "May I use your phone?" I nodded and she walked down the hall to the phone. I went inside to the living room. Hotaru was sitting on her baby chair. She reached out her hands for me.
"Gaaa!" she gurgled happily.
"Hey sweetie," I said picking her up, "I bet your day was better then mine." She grabbed a fist full of my hair and pulled. All the while with her other hand she pulled my tie.
"Ow, Hotaru!" I chuckled and tried to set her down but she won't let go of me. Finally when I got her off, she wailed loudly. I reluctantly picked her up again. Happily she gave me a very wet kiss. My whole cheek was wet with her saliva when Usagi walked in and giggled.
"You look really cute with saliva on your face." She commented.
"Thanks." I replied sarcastically.
"Well I got to go! I will be here tomorrow at the same time." She told me smiling.
"You can go home early tomorrow." I told her, "Hotaru has a doctor's appointment." Usagi nodded and left. Hotaru blew bubbles and wet her and my chest.
"Now we both need cleaning up," I told her grinning.
"Gla!" she replied happily. I had already forgotten about the horrible day. All I could think of was that Hotaru needed a bath and so did I.
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I stared at the ceiling. The hospital walls were white. That significant smell of the hospital filled my lungs. I felt tears surface. My sister was gone forever. I felt like I had lost a part of me. I had lost my better half. Sighing I let the tears flow. My sister, Kaiou Kuchiri, was gone forever from my life and it all that woman's fault.
"Oh God!" I buried my face into the pillow and cried. Why did you have to run down the road? Why did you have to do that? Now there was no one here to hold me when I cried, no one to help me through anything, no one to do anything for me! My life felt empty with out her, and I wanted to cry until I died. I wanted to die. It was better than living all alone.
The door opened and I stared at the person who walked in. Teal eyes disbelieving, blond hair tousled. Skin pale like a corpse. Like the corpse of my sister. My dead sister. It was because of her. Her car. Her red car. Red like blood. In the rain. Cold. I felt so cold.
"Get out of here!" the teal eyes focused on me surprisingly, as if they didn't expect me to be there. The confused face stared at me. Then I saw remorse. I couldn't take it. I fumbled for something to clutch, something...as soon as I had a grip I picked up the object and hurled it across the room without even looking at it. It hit right where I wanted to.
There was a whack. Her hand rose in shock at her head where blood was smeared on the blond hair and forehead, flowing down the temple, down the cheeks. She looked at me horrified at the sight of her own blood.
"Serves you right," I said sneering at her. My eyes clouded over. I lost my balance and fell into oblivion.
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"It's minor," The nurse smiled, "You will live."
"Thanks," I replied. Even to my ears my voice sounded shaky. Her words echoed in my mind. You'll live. I will live. What about the girl? I shuddered and then left the nurse's to see the doctor. I knocked on the door.
"Come in!" I walked and looked at the pleasant smiling doctor. Her short blue hair was falling into her eyes and even underneath the lines of stress and age you could see lingering beauty. The girl was beautiful too. But she would never grow old. She will forever stay 19.
"How is she doing, Dr. Mizuno?" I asked afraid of the answer.
"She is under a lot of stress. Her sister was the only family she had." The doctor explained, "She was just a bit out of control for a while. She will be fine."
"About her sister..."
"We couldn't do anything, Haruka-san." The doctor replied gently, "When you brought her in she was brain dead. The hit plus the shock she was in shut her brain off completely." I sighed at the answer. Getting out of the room I walked to the unconscious woman's room. She was on her side. Her lips were pale and pressed together. Her cheeks held no color. The mass of the aqua marine hair was spread out on the pillow behind her. I had taken her only family away. I had taken it away. Taken it. If it wasn't for me, she would still be happy. Suddenly I questioned my existence. If I wasn't alive her sister would have never died. I should have died ages ago. I knew what she felt like. Once upon a time death had taken my family away too. I knew exactly how she felt. If only I had died in that accident with my family, her sister would have been still alive. Not dead. I considered the possibility of suicide. This wasn't new for me. I had tried to commit suicide after my family left me until I got counseling. Now I knew I had to live. I had my own family at home waiting.
The face was my young baby Hotaru flashed in my head. She was only 10 months old. When I had been visiting Dr. Mizuno one time, I met a doctor who told me about an accident that had occurred to a family. All had died but a woman who was pregnant. The doctors were trying to get the baby out of the mother, trying to save it. The woman died giving birth. Her little dark haired baby was going to go to the adoption centre. But I decided to take care of her. Now I had to go home for her. See my little girl. I sighed and reached out to touch the woman's cheek. I had taken this woman's family away. All I could do was come here and apologize to her tomorrow. I wasn't looking forward to it considering the board she had tossed at my head today. But I knew I had to. Turning around I drove home shivering in the rain.
When I walked home I saw the baby sitter.
"Hi Haruka-san!" Usagi said to me chirpily, "Did they make you stay late at work again?"
"No, I was in an accident." I replied.
"Oh what happened?" she asked.
"I will tell you later. It's late. Your folks must be worrying. Do you need a ride?"
"Mamo-chan will pick me up." She smiled, "May I use your phone?" I nodded and she walked down the hall to the phone. I went inside to the living room. Hotaru was sitting on her baby chair. She reached out her hands for me.
"Gaaa!" she gurgled happily.
"Hey sweetie," I said picking her up, "I bet your day was better then mine." She grabbed a fist full of my hair and pulled. All the while with her other hand she pulled my tie.
"Ow, Hotaru!" I chuckled and tried to set her down but she won't let go of me. Finally when I got her off, she wailed loudly. I reluctantly picked her up again. Happily she gave me a very wet kiss. My whole cheek was wet with her saliva when Usagi walked in and giggled.
"You look really cute with saliva on your face." She commented.
"Thanks." I replied sarcastically.
"Well I got to go! I will be here tomorrow at the same time." She told me smiling.
"You can go home early tomorrow." I told her, "Hotaru has a doctor's appointment." Usagi nodded and left. Hotaru blew bubbles and wet her and my chest.
"Now we both need cleaning up," I told her grinning.
"Gla!" she replied happily. I had already forgotten about the horrible day. All I could think of was that Hotaru needed a bath and so did I.
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I stared at the ceiling. The hospital walls were white. That significant smell of the hospital filled my lungs. I felt tears surface. My sister was gone forever. I felt like I had lost a part of me. I had lost my better half. Sighing I let the tears flow. My sister, Kaiou Kuchiri, was gone forever from my life and it all that woman's fault.
"Oh God!" I buried my face into the pillow and cried. Why did you have to run down the road? Why did you have to do that? Now there was no one here to hold me when I cried, no one to help me through anything, no one to do anything for me! My life felt empty with out her, and I wanted to cry until I died. I wanted to die. It was better than living all alone.
