Hello guys! I was just lying in bed reading all of your guys's fantastical fanfiction;), and the inspiration for this story just popped in to my head! My first songfic! Although, I will be using two songs. The first song of called Gold Forever by The Wanted, and it will only be a few verses. The second will be Bring Me to Life by Evanesce. - sorry about the spelling dears. Gold Forever will be the italics, and Bring Me to Life will be bolded. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Natsuki Takaya owns Fruits Basket. I do not. Nor do I think I ever will. Which I find extremely unfortunate.
Haru's POV
I have always believed in karma. It's inevitable, no matter how much you try to deny it. Maybe it won't come around until the day of your death, but it was sure to come. No matter what. I even have something to show for it. And her name is Rin Sohma.
Rin is everything that I have been looking for my entire life. A beautiful face. An independent spirit. A sacrificial personality. She doesn't put herself before anyone. I am very proud to call myself one of her priorities, just as she is mine. There is absolutely no other being that I could ever imagine myself with, nor would I want to be with anyone else. Right now, everything is perfect.
Just like Rin.
I was sitting on my front porch, just listening to the stimulating sound that surrounded me. It was bliss, where I was. Even the sound of my parents arguing over yet another trivial matter was almost welcoming. I knew that nothing else mattered at that moment.
We're standing in a light that won't fade
Tomorrow's coming but this won't change
'Cause some days stay gold forever
I looked up, and speak of the devil. Rin was looking down at me, a look of false annoyance donned on her face. I couldn't help but smile at her. "Hey, are you going somewhere, or are you here to see someone specific?" She rolled her eyes. "The latter, but that certain someone isn't you right now." I tilted my head, confused. If she wasn't here to see me, then who? She lived outside of the estate, and I knew that being inside didn't exactly make her comfortable. To many bitter memories, I supposed.
The memory of being here with you
Is one I'm gonna take my life through
'Cause some days stay gold forever
"Then who are you here for?" I couldn't help but ask. I did tend to get jealous. It was only natural, right? Rin didn't answer right away. When she did, it was with spite filling her otherwise lovely voice. "I'm here to have a talk with our beloved god. She, I'm mean, he asked to see me. Looks like I've been a bad girl." She mocked, but those few sentences filled me with worry. "Rin, promise me you won't say anything to upset her, okay?" At that, Rin scoffed. "Whatever Haru. If it makes you feel better, I promise to 'be careful', okay?" I was still skeptical, but I nodded anyway. It's not like I could just keep her away from Akito if she ordered it to be so, because if I could have, I would've done so a long time ago, believe me.
Promise me you'll stay the way you are
Keep the fire alive and stay young at heart
When the storm feels like it could blow you out, remember
You got me and I got you
And with that, she turned around abruptly and left. I stared at her back (and occasionally a little more south) as she went to go meet with Akito. If she came out with cuts and bruises, I promised to be with her until her full recovery. With her involved, Akito most definitely would be in a bad mood. They hated each other. Whenever, I was filed with as much, if not more, worry than whenever Yuki went to go visit. Yuki. Now that was a confusing topic for me nowadays. I feel extremely guilty whenever I'm around him. Was it because I had fallen out of love with him? Doubtful, since I was never technically 'in love' with him in the first place. I said suggestive things sometimes because it was fun to tease him, and it his reactions to the phrases were funny.
No, perhaps it was because I hadn't been there for him in more recent times. When Tohru and Kyo officially became a couple, it was obvious he was in serious pain and denial, but I doubted anyone else could see it. And I ignored him. I pretended nothing was wrong. I, the one person who knew he was hurting, did nothing. I tried to justify my actions to myself by saying that his new girlfriend, Machi, I think, would pull him out of it. But no. She didn't. Shortly after that, they broke up. Yuki tried to talk to me, maybe silently pleading for help, but I just shook him off, once again pretending nothing was wrong. I felt horrible after that. I also became more sympathetic towards Ayame, figuring that what I was feeling then was similar to how he felt back then.
Even now, I continue to avoid Yuki. I haven't seen him for several weeks as of now. I'm pretending that nothing is wrong. Again.
I put my head in my hands. Here was the person, the one who had practically saved my life, (in a sense, he had) and here I was, denying him what he needs so desperately. A shoulder to lean on.
I shook away these angsty thoughts. Right now, Rin was the one who needed my shoulder, and it was devoted to her. Rin was my absolute first priority. Yuki was a third. Making sure that Rin and I made it through the curse together was a second.
How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
~Three hours later~
I sat up and stretched. I probably had fallen asleep. "Haru!" someone yelled my name. I looked around. It had come from the pass. The voice was the type that could have been either gender. I stood up, and tried to go inside. Hopefully he wouldn't find me and go away. I only knew one voice like that. It was obviously Yuki. I'm a coward, I know, but I still felt uncomfortable around him.
Wake me up
(Wake me up inside)
I can't wake up
(Wake me up inside)
Save me
(Call my name and save me from the dark)
But no, the mouse wouldn't be shaken off so easily. He didn't even knock, He just ran in to the house, panting heavily. "Haru," he gasped. I blinked. He had completely gotten rid of his Prince facade to emphasize that this was an urgent situation. I avoided his large violet eyes, and answered as indifferently as I could. "Hm?" Brilliant. Wow. "Yuki held on to his right arm, a habit he had developed over the years when he was either uncomfortable or scared.
Wake me up
(Bid my blood to run)
I can't wake up
(Before I come undone)
Save me
(Save me from the nothing I've become)
I sat up straighter. I could listen. I could at least give him hat much. "It's Rin-san," he panted. "Akito...he..she...she...Rin, out of, of a window, hit her neck...on, on a...rock...I don't know if she...Hatori said...n-...Hatori said, no... she wouldn't.." I didn't wait for him to finish. I roughly shoved him out of the way. I sprinted to Hatori's quarters. I was so determined to not get lost, that I arrived there in just a few minutes. "No," I thought desperately. "She, she can't be-!"
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Yuki's POV
I ran after my frie-...my cousin. I wasn't sure we could even be considered friends anymore, much less best friends. He was running as fast as he could to reach his girlfriend, he even outran me! But I suppose that's to be expected, I was very out of shape. I hadn't been out much. I hadn't felt like it. I hadn't felt much of anything lately. It was just my unhealthy was of coping. Another disgusting habit of mine. I felt truly unworthy. Tohru, then Machi, eventually Kakeru-san, and now Haru. They had all left me. Which I understood. Akito's cruel words had always been true, which I had finally realized.
Wake me up
(Wake me up inside)
I can't wake up
(Wake me up inside)
Save me
(Call my name and save me from the dark)
After what seemed like an hour, I once again reached Hatori's clinic. I could make out Hatsuharu's black and white hair, and his clenched fists. I could see clearly the graceful figure of Rin, although her form was broken. Hatori's eyes were cold. I had a feeling like... she couldn't make it. There was an obvious absence in the Jyuunishi bond. The spirited horse was, as of now, no more.
I looked down. Ashamed that I didn't do anything as I observed the scene.
I suddenly felt an extremely painful blow to my face. I was thrown off balance and fell to the ground. I looked up in bewilderment and shock. Haru's eyes were hidden as he towered over me. "This...this time it really is your fault. No, It was always your fault! ALWAYS! Do you hear me?! Do you hear me you pathetic excuse for a rat?! IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOUR FAULT!" Another punch. This time it was my eye. Another. Another, and another. Always hitting my eyes. I wearily opened them, and I saw Hatori trying to restrain my cousin. "Hatsuharu! Stop this! He'll go blind if you keep hitting his eyes! Stop it!" "No! HE deserves to go blind! It was HIM who took away what I tried to protect! Do you hear me?! NOW LET GO OLD MAN!" I closed my eyes as another onslaught of punches began. I didn't defend myself. Once again, Those words were true. Then the punching stopped. I tried to see where Haru had gone, but when I opened my eyes there was nothing but black and gray.
Wake me up
(Bid my blood to run)
I can't wake up
(Before I come undone)
Save me
(Save me from the nothing I've become)
Someone, who I assumed to be my former best friend, lifted my up roughly by my shirt. "Rat, I don't ever want to see you face again. You were right there, and you just watched Rin die. I can't even begin to tell you how much I hate you, but maybe your new 'blindness' can give you a start. In fact, you know what? Maybe you'll realize that you have nothing going for you. Tohru and your ex proved that from the start. Maybe I'll get lucky and you'll go and scurry off with your little friends. Better yet, maybe you'll just go and die."
I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life
His hands left my shirt, and I dropped to the ground. I couldn't think. I don't remember anything. I don't remember Hatori gently lifting me up and bringing my inside. I don't remember struggling, and trying to get away. He shouldn't have been so kind to me. I do remember that.
…
I still couldn't see anything. I suppose it was karma that I was now blind.
What do you guys think? This was intended to orignally be a one shot, but I don't know, it almost seems like a chapter story to me. Anyways, I'm just going to let you guys know that I sincerely hate Rin and Machi with a passion, but I hate Rin more. Hatsuharu deserves better! I know that Haru seems like a dirtbag so far, but if I continue the story it'll be important that it starts like this! Review my dears! Ja ne!
