Note: The following fic is based on the ao3 fic Always x and x Forever by Symone_Nicole. Should you feel confused by any references made in the fic, please give Always x and x Forever a read for clarification purposes.
Sometimes she'd wonder if she'd still have the capacity to love if she'd been born and bred into Killua's line of work. The opportunity to look at the world through childlike, innocent eyes was robbed from Killua the day he was born. And yet through all the brutal murder and bloodshed, Killua's heart never hardened into one of cold, hard steel. Maybe it was because of Alluka or maybe it was because that was just naturally who Killua was.
"Welcome home, Killua-sama," is what she had said, immediately bowing as was protocol whenever in the presence of a Zoldyck.
"Yeah," Killua replied, voice unusually quiet. "I made…"
Canary raised her head up as she felt the boy brush past her, lips parting in surprise.
"…a new friend," Killua finished.
Canary stared after the retreating boy, mouth still ajar.
Canary blinked down at her breakfast as her conscious returned to the present. Killua had never said much to her whenever he returned to the estate, which is why she had been at such a loss when he told her about the new friend he'd made. He had sounded so sad. The one thing the infamous family of assassins had in common was their utter lack of care and emotion for others with Killua and Alluka being the two exceptions.
If Gon's life had never been in grave danger, it was likely that Canary would never have officially met Alluka face to face. She had been so sweet, so sweet in fact that Canary nearly found herself wondering why she had been locked away. Such a potentially horrific, devastating power shouldn't be associated with such a kind girl.
Alluka had been Killua's whole world. Canary couldn't help but suspect that he would've ended up just as cold and unfeeling as the rest of his family if it weren't for the youngest Zoldyck. His eyes shined brighter than they already did with Alluka around, Killua always smiling the gentlest of smiles. Alluka's power made her so much more different, so much more deadly than others but that didn't make Killua love her any less. Canary wouldn't be surprised if Alluka had been the only member of his family that he truly loved.
The two of them had finally been free to do whatever they wanted. Canary had been happy for them, hoping that in due time she'd see them again. Alluka must've grown into a very lovely young lady. She could see her and Kai getting along really well with each other.
Killua had just lost the person he cared about the most. Their almost kiss was purely heat of the moment, was a result of Killua feeling incredibly vulnerable. She needed to do herself a huge favor and let go.
"Momma?"
Canary perked up, turning around to look at her son. The mother smiled, walking over to scoop the toddler into her arms.
"Did you sleep well, Kai?" Canary asked, rubbing his back as she carried him over to the couch.
Kai yawned, one arm wrapped around Canary's neck while the other was busy rubbing at his eyes. "Yesh."
He had gotten up earlier than normal. Canary plopped down on the couch, setting Kai down next to her before turning on the TV and flipping through the channels until she got to a cartoon he really liked. Canary rose up from the couch, saying over shoulder, "What do you want for breakfast?"
"Dinosaur waffles and dinosaur toast!"
Canary smiled as she removed said dinosaur shaped waffles and toast from the freezer. Serving and fighting for the Zoldycks in whatever way possible used to be her reason for living. She thought it'd remain that way. Now her reason for living, her whole world, was sitting on the couch right now watching TV. As long as she had Kai, she'd be okay.
