Disclaimer: I don't own FFVIII otherwise I'd be much more successful in life. (:
Warnings: Includes boyxboy love. Don't like? Don't read.
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Lovers and Liars
Chapter 1
We're happy together, aren't we?
I ask myself this every day upon waking up next to him. I try to tell myself that it's not wrong to ask it, but I always still feel guilty. Then I'm forced to wash away the guilt with a hot shower. By the time I'm out, he's always awake, but not. He has that far-away, spaced out look in his eyes, and, every day like a never-ending cycle, I'd be forced to snap him out of it. He'd stare up at me, blue eyes hazed over, blink a few times, then smile up at me as if just realizing who I was. He'd tell me "Good Morning" then get up himself to take a shower, afterwards getting out to complain that I used up all the hot water, and I'd smile, because I know I did.
But it's been hard lately. Every time I've been telling him I love him, he'd just look at me sadly and tell me he knows. I know what it means but I don't want to believe it. I don't want to know who he's looking at now with the eyes he used to look at me with. The eyes full of love, that sparkled upon their every open moment.
Whoever it is, they're very lucky.
And I hope they realize it.
I just wish he could still feel like that towards me. I wonder where I went wrong in this relationship. Did I stop being around too much? I don't see how, since I'm always the one to set up our dates and plans. But maybe, just maybe, I wasn't paying enough attention to him. Maybe he needed me when I didn't know it. Maybe I'm just being too paranoid about this all.
When Squall comes back from training, I promise to do something extra special for him.
I have to make him love me again.
I just have to.
